a - 16 may 2001
From: Anne
Sent: Wednesday, May 16, 2001 10:00 AM
Subject: Whassup!
Hello, Michele!
Do people even say "whassup" anymore? Anyway! How is everything there? Here all is … pretty good! School-wise I hope I get over this severe laziness that I’m experiencing! (I think it’s Spring Fever!)
First of all, I looked up Arnold Vosloo: I HAVE GOT TO GO SEE "THE MUMMY RETURNS"!!!! Okay, I’m calm again. Yes, he is *very* nice-looking (to put it mildly!). Did you say that he has an accent. I *love* a man with an accent! I must see that movie!
We don’t have cable, but I did when I was living and working out of town. I would like to have cable again just to see those Nick at Nite shows that you mentioned - they’re classics! I also loved Happy Days, and I’d like to see Taxi again because I don’t remember much about it when I watched it as a child. For a while it seemed cable was showing just about all of the shows that I used to watch: Simon & Simon, the A-team, the Dukes of Hazzard, My So-Called Life, FX the Series, Sliders, Quantum Leap, etc. About the only thing missing was MacGyver…
Re: the Scarlet Letter, they tried to make us read it in 11th or 12th grade, but I remember specifically not reading the last few chapters. I wanted to try to read it again to see if I found it any better!
I think I know what you mean about how you feel when you don’t write on your book. I won’t try to express it, but I’ll relay another writing example. When I was working on my Grieco story (rating … PG due to DSV?) as I said, I really enjoyed writing that! I think that was how I rebelled - besides being mean and obnoxious from time to time. I felt very close to the characters, and writing was a chance for me to be someone and somewhere else. Even now when I see Richard Grieco or hear his name mentioned, I just smile.
Now to the deeper stuff … yes, my dad passed away in 1998. I guess that I have accepted it’s for the best - I do believe everything happens for our good according to God’s plan, you know. Dad was in poor health for several years. He had been pretty much not attending church for many years, and I was worried about his salvation although I could never get the chance to speak to him about that. God knew what I needed to hear, so when our former preacher (and old family friend) spoke at Dad’s funeral he told how Dad had been saved all those years ago. I really appreciated hearing that, and I believe it’s true.
I was sorry to read about your grandparents - that must be tough when they pass so close together! All of my grandparents haved gone - both of my grandmothers died before I was born. One grandfather died in 1985 and the other in … 1993 (I think). Perhaps I mentioned before that my family is pretty small - just my mother, sister and me! We don’t really see our aunts, cousins, uncles, etc. very often.
I would definitely appreciate your prayers! Do you have any prayer requests that I could add to my list?
I had truly wondered if other Christians struggle as I do! Most of the people that I see at church always seem to together and confident in their faith; I find myself feeling not just a little inferior and wondering what’s wrong with me! I know exactly what you mean about sometimes feeling so close to God and other times feeling so far away! However, I agree that struggling helps us to stay close and be mindful of God and how much we need him. I don’t think that I would want to be so comfortable in my faith that I took it for granted. I remember sitting in one church service after I was saved and while I was really struggling with doubt, and I suddenly felt the most perfect peace. I just knew that Jesus paid it all and I didn’t have to worry! I don’t know what happened but that feeling didn’t last long. I would love to get back to that stage and stay there!
Re: dating guys with too many problems and "what was I thinking?!?!" - *exactly* the same thing could be said for the guy I was dating! The really sad part is that I didn’t even want to go out with him - there wasn’t really an attraction to him on my part. Then I thought, "Why not." Note: there are so many reasons why I should not have gone out with him! He hung around until I cared, but all the time I knew that we’d eventually reach a point where we couldn’t go any further because of the issues: namely his pain from his very recent divorce, his four kids, his addictions (to gambling and "partying"), etc. This is how I learned too well to not even start going out with someone that I feel that way about!
Enough of that! I truly praise the Lord that I’m out of that mess!
Oh yes, I’m from Huntsville, Alabama. We’ve lived in this area for as long as I can remember. How long have you lived in Pittsburgh? Have you ever lived in another city or state?
In other news, today is David Boreanaz’s 30th birthday and I didn’t send a card. 
I hope that when he and I are married he won’t hold that against me. (LOL)
Talk to you later! God bless!
Anne
