Chix Chat

From: Michele
Sent: Friday, June 15, 2001 11:22 PM
Subject: I’m saving myself for Arnold Vosloo

Hi Anne!
 
You’re quite welcome (regarding the Arnold Vosloo e-card)!  He is so sexy!  Did you see the Mummy Returns yet?  Hurry!  Go before it isn’t playing in theatres anymore!  Oh my goodness, those eyes!  That mouth!  That body!  That accent!  My friend Shirley e-mailed me and said "The only thing ’scary’ about him is that he isn’t here for me to touch and look at!"  He is so yummy!
 
Yes, it does get humid here pretty often (a nightmare for my naturally curly hair).  I’m guessing the average temperature here during the summer is about 85 degrees.  Thank God for air conditioning!  I honestly don’t like summer weather.  I like fall the most.  The middle of fall, when its too cold for it to be considered Summer weather yet its too warm for it to be considered Winter weather. 
 
Nora hired a new girl.  Shelly.  ("Oh no.  Not again," I can hear you saying)  She worked yesterday and today, and so far she hasn’t quit yet!  Hooray!  It seemed she caught on pretty quick, which is a good sign.  She worked  one summer at Universal Studios in Flordia.  How cool is that?  Have you ever been there?  I have, twice.  Its a really fun place.  Well, actually I went when I was on vacation at Disneyworld.  The first time I went was in 1997, the second time was in 1999, and I’m going again this November!  I can’t wait! 
 
So you were a telemarkter for one day, huh?  My friend Dana was one for about a week before she called it quits.  I could never be a telemarketer.  For one thing, I hate using the phone!  I pretty much stayed at my jobs.  My first job was at that laundromat/video store and I was there for about a year.  Then the business closed and I got my job at the grocery store.  That lasted about five years, then my family moved and soon after I got my got at *****.  In September I will be there for two years.
 
Oh, I agree that looks alone are not enough.  Just as personality alone isn’t enough.  You can have one guy who has the greatest personality.  He’s sweet and kind and a gentleman- everything you can ever look for in a man, but if you’re not physically attracted to him it isn’t going to work.  Then you have another guy whose looks put Arnold Vosloo to shame (highly unlikely, but lets pretend here) but if hes this brainless, boorish goon that isn’t going to work either.  It has to be a combination of both.  Usually its better for a guy to have more personality than looks.  Let me explain:  You meet a guy and while he is no Arnold Vosloo, there is something about him that you find attractive.  Sexy.  You’re drawn to him.  So you go out and he has a great personality and seeing how great his personality is he really starts to become sexy to you.  Remember how I said the looks are the spark, but the personality keeps the fire going.
 
Oh, I know about having crushes on married men.  Why do married men seem more attractive than single men, anyway?  Is it because they seem more settled?  Or maybe the idea of the forbidden is intriguing.  When I worked at the grocery store, I was madly in lust with the produce man, Bob.  Yes, he was married.  The thing is, he wasn’t this outstandingly good looking man.  He was bald (you know, I must have a thing for bald men) and he didn’t have this perfect, "washboard abs" kind of body, but he turned me on!  I could tell by the way he looked at me that he thought I was pretty.  Of course it never went past that.  He knew I was a nice girl, but I’m sure if I wasn’t and I tried to seduce him, he’d give in.  God, I would never think of doing such a thing!  I think the reason why he turned me on so much was the fact that he was married.  If he was single and I knew I had a chance with him, I don’t think I would have been so attracted to him.  Who knows?
 
Could it be that Michelle is pushing you to just date anything in pants is because shes subconsciencely jealous of your freedom?  I know you said that getting married was so important to her, but you know how "the grass looks greener on the other side".  Thats just a guess.  You know her better than I do.  I don’t think you or  me or anyone on this planet should go out with someone unless they want to!  I am not going to waste two hours of my life just to be nice to someone.  A pity date.  If I sound selfish saying this, then so be it.  Theres a line in a Cindy Morgan song that goes "What you want you just can’t have and if you had it you probably wouldn’ t want it anymore."  how true.
 
When you said "I wondered how the wives of other great guys I know got those guys to marry them," I breathed a sigh of relief.  So, I’m not the only one!  What’s their secret?  They should write a book!  I want to trust God completely with my love life, but is trusting Him enough?  And then I have to wonder what if it isn’t in GOd’s plan for me to marry?  Grant you, I am content with my life, but there are times when I get lonely too.  Very lonely!  Every day, I wake up and think, "Well, maybe today will be the day.  Maybe I will finally meet my soul mate."  and then I go through the day and nothing happens and I try to have a cheerful attitude about it but I get so scared that "that day" will never get here.  Danielle said to me "I wish I had a boyfriend on the days I was lonely, and the days I’m fine I could just shove him in the back of my closet until I needed him again" (lol).  Thats how I feel sometimes.  I want to fall in love, but I don’t want to lose my freedom.  I want to fall in love, but I get so scared sometimes.  This really confuses me sometimes.  I’m hoping and praying that when I finally do meet "the one"  everything will perfectly fall into place and I won’t even think about being afraid.
 
you notice how our e-mails always end up talking about romance (or lack thereof?)  It feels really good to talk to someone who is basically going through the same thing that I am, you know?  I know we’ve only been e-mailing each other for about a month now, but I really feel a connection with you, Anne.  Its almost as if God has brought us together.  Maybe some day we will meet in person.
 
Anne, I was curious about something.  What is your first name?  It isn’t Anne, right?  If you don’t want to say, I understand, but let me assure you that I’m not a kook or a physco or anything!  I’m just curious.  I will continue to call you Anne, unless you state otherwise.  If Anne is your first name and you’re thinking  "What the heck is she talking about?"  I say, "um …. never mind!"
 
Well, thats it for now.  Have a great weekend!  Until next time, take care and God bless!
 
Michele