a - 18 june 2001
From: Anne
Sent: Monday, June 18, 2001 11:41 AM
Subject: From the desk of Mrs. David Boreanaz
Hello, Michele!
As I was driving to work this morning, I was looking at myself in the mirror, feeling pretty. I like this outfit (will take pictures!) and the most empowering song came on: "Bye Bye Bye" by NSync. I thought, "Oh yes, this will be a good day!"
How was your weekend - did your dad have a good Father’s Day? Here it was hot and I had to work both days. Oh well, that gets me closer to having a computer at home. (I can’t wait!) Health-wise, I’m pretty much over my sinus business except that my left ear has been stopped up for many days. I really hope it’s due to sinuses and nothing more serious. My mother assures me that her ear did the same way a few weeks ago when she had the sinus business.
I read the words to "Cantus" - very powerful! Thanks for sending them!
No, I haven’t seen the Mummy Returns yet, but I was just thinking yesterday that I need to go before it’s not in theatres. I guess I need to be like Nike and "Just do it."
Is Shelly still working there? How’s that working out? I bet it would be fascinating and fun to work at Universal Studios; I have never been there. I have been to Sea World - looking back I wish we’d opted for Universal Studios!
You wrote, "If he was single and I knew I had a chance with him, I don’t think I would have been so attracted to him." I have thought that about myself and married guys *so* many times! I have theories on attractions to/from married men. (What a surprise!) I think part of it is that whole forbidden fruit thing. It could also be that since they have someone it proves that they must be worth having! I think they flirt with other women because it’s flattering to them that other people still want them. Plus the women they meet - at work or where-ever - are fun and casual; there’s no arguing about the kids, the bills, etc.
Produce man Bob sounds like Darrell! Darrell was balding - pretty much bald - and wore glasses and his ears stuck out, well, a lot. He was pretty thin and about as tall as I am (i.e. average height). But I sure found myself thinking very un-Christian things about him. He was confident in himself and I think that is very attractive.
I have wondered if Michelle - "Chell" - is jealous of my singleness. She could be, who knows? I think part of it is that she just wants people to do what she says! She’s a stay-at-home mom, so she doesn’t have much else to do than run people’s life, I guess. I still haven’t written to her - I do not want to hear about Penny’s brother and how I should "give it a shot." (I’d need more than one shot for that - make it a double! lol!) The more I think of it, the more right you are: why waste an evening of your life on a pity date? I do NOT think it’s selfish! I think it’s a lot more kind in the long run to let them know that you aren’t interested. Dating for a free meal is just cold!
I know what you mean about wanting someone, yet it’s nice to be single. Talking about the greener grass, I heard a twist on that which I liked: "The grass may be greener on the other side, but it still has to be mowed." I think that is profound. It’s like thinking "if I just had a man" or a house or a car or a new job or whatever! With the new thing, you’d still have good and bad points. For example, without a man it can be "all about you." With a man, it’s nice (or it should be) but you have to give-and-take if you want it to last.
Oh yeah, my first name. <CRINGE!> I don’t like it, so I will not mention it! I don’t like my last name either - I truly hate to see it on my email! My family will affirm that I have major name issues; it happens when just about EVERY PERSON that I have ever met makes fun of my name. I usually introduce myself as Anne. I can’t even say [my last name] with any dignity. Sometimes, I’ll tell people on the phone that my last name is "Lane." If I don’t get married soon, I may just change my name!
I feel a connection to you to! It is like God brought us together: don’t think me corny, but I pray that He will bless our "e-friendship." 
I really enjoy talking to you about dating and stuff! Like you said, it is so nice to talk to someone who’s going through pretty much the same thing! My sister hasn’t had many dates in her 32 years - she’s a bit overweight and she just likes to stay at home. I think she gets jealous when I talk about guys asking me out. I think, "Shoot! Many losers are attracted to me: do not be jealous of that!"
I have got to do some work. 
But only a little. Talk to you later! God bless!
Anne
