m - 15 july 2001
From: Michele
Sent: Sunday, July 15, 2001 11:08 AM
Subject: guess who?
Hi Anne!
I hope you had a nice weekend. Today (sat) Danielle and I saw Scary Movie 2. It was hilarious! They parodied a bunch of movies- The Exorcist, Poltergeist, What Lies Beneath, and Charlie’s Angels among them. I also saw the first Scary Movie. Laughed my ass off!
So, how did the inventory at Fredricks Of Hollywood go? "Shaft-of-his-being?" Oh, my god, Anne, I never laughed so hard! I’ve seen those kind of men’s uh … intimate apparel before. If my husband wore anything like that, I think I’d be laughing too hard to do anything else! You said "What if some perv tried it on? Yuck!" Just think … what if David B or even better Arnold Vosloo tried it on? I’d smuggle the damn thing home with me! 
Oh! Speaking of Arnold Vosloo, didja know that he was in an episode of Nash Bridges? I kid you not! Actually he was in the very first episode of the series. I think the title of it was "Genesis" I have never seen it, but if I find out when it will be on again, I’ll let you know!
It’s tough for me to make small talk too! When I worked at *****, and even now working at *****, I don’t really talk to the customers when I ring them up. I usually go to the bank to deposit the money and while the teller waits on me, all I can do is just stand there and feel like a big dummy! I don’t know, its like my brain freezes and I can’t think of a thing to say! Also, I’m always afraid that people are going to judge every word that comes out of my mouth. I weigh every word very carefully in my head before I make it vocal. Of course when I’m at home or with people I’m comfortable with, I relax more. I envy people who have the knack for small talk. Another thing I say all the time and hate it when I do is "Oh really?" Someone will say something to me and the only thing I can say back is "Oh, really?" I just want to kick myself for sounding so …. amateurish!
Thanks for giving me your work address! So I can mail packages there too (ie birthday and Christmas gifts)?
I was showing Danielle what I wrote about Chaz in my last e-mail to you and she said to me, "You know, this is really weird, but I was just thinking about him the other day. He just popped into my head, and I have no idea why." I’m just looking at that as a mere cowincedence and nothing else. But what if …. Ok I know I have to get my head out of the clouds and focus on reality here. I start fantasizing about what it would be like if Chaz did turn his life around and seek me out to win my heart and even though I know that it is something that will most likely will not happen, I get really calm and happy when I think about it. I promise I won’t talk about him in every e-mail- at least I’ll try! But let me ask you one question and please answer honestly- do you truly believe that the idea of something happening regarding Chaz is entirely out of the question? I mean, God’s timing isn’t my timing and isn’t it strange how #1 I’ve felt this connection to Chaz that I’ve never felt to anyone before or since, #2 I was bold enough to share my faith with him (and I’m usually not) #3 I haven’t found anyone yet. What if right here, right now God is working in Chaz’s life, preparing him so that he will be worthy of me? I haven’t seen him in two years, he might be a totally different person now. Then again, he could be worse off than the last time I saw him. He could have moved out of state, he could of married his girlfriend (if they’re still together), he could be dying (I hope not!). I just want to believe with my whole heart that with God anything is possible!
questions answered
do I eat 3 meals a day or do I nibble as I get hungry- I nibble. Problem is, I seem to be hungry all time!
am I handy around the house?- not really. I know how to program the vcr and change light bulbs, but I think that’s the extent of my abilities.
what is a moment of crisis that I have been through?- when I was working at *****, someone was shot right outside the store! A couple of my co-workers got hysterical, thinking the gunman was going to come inside the store and start shooting. Believe me, I was scared too, but I was calm enough to try and calm my co-workers down. The person who was shot died, by the way.
have I had my tonsils removed?- no
appendix removed?- no
If I were at a fast food place and the person next to me asked for a dollar or two, would I give it to them?- It depended on how honest they looked. Also if they looked like a normal person or a nut.
movie- Alive (a lot of hotties are in that one- Josh Hamilton, Vincent Spano, John Haymes Newton, Bruce Ramsey, Jack Noseworthy, and Ethan Hawk)
tv show- Little House On The Prairie (Danielle flipped when I told her you recommended Are You Being Served? . We love that show! Danielle even belongs to the John Inman fan club and she also has autographs from the cast members.)
cd- JoDee Messena- Burn (I have Repeat Offender)
funny moment- In an episode of Threes Company, Mr.. Roper sells Jack, Janet and Chrissy his car, but he doesn’t tell them its on its last leg. Meanwhile someone else wants to buy the car and offers Roper a lot of money for it. Mr. Roper wants to buy the car back from J,J andC and even offers to give them an extra $100 back for it. Jack and Janet readily agree, but Chrissy says no. J, J, and C go into the kitchen where Chrissy says they have to tell Mr Roper about the car’s condition before they agree to let him take it back. Jack or Janet says, "Don’t you see, Chrissy, this is the answer to our prayers." Chrissy protests, "No it isn’t . Nobody prayed!" Janet says, "Well, lets start now. (she folds her hands and looks upwards) Please make Chrissy change her mind!" Jack folds his hands and looks upwards and says, "Or better yet, give her one."
new questions
have you ever seen a physcartist or a counselor- yes. When I was about eighteen, I starting having these panic attacks and I even dropped out of school for awhile. I saw this counselor who was wonderful. She really helped me a lot. A few years later I did an at-home program called "Attacking anxiety and depression" That helped me tremendously. I still get anxious now, but I really think I’ve come a long way in the past ten years.
are you a phone person?- no. I hate using the phone.
name a movie you missed seeing in the theatre and wished you hadn’t- The Mummy (I made sure I didn’t make the same mistake with The Mummy Returns!)
have you ever had a lemonade stand when you were younger?- Yes
have you ever prank called someone- yes
ever played spin-the-bottle- no
ever had an attack of the giggles in a place where it was inappropriate to laugh?- Yes! One time my sister and I were in church and this big, plotted plant that was on the alter fell over, and missed the priest by about two inches. The whole congregation collectively gasped, and I just found that so funny. It took everything I had not to bust out into mad giggles. There were other times too, but that was the first I thought of.
have you ever been in a school play or a talent show- no!
favorite shampoo- Pantene hydrating curls
do you wash your hair every day?- no. every other day.
Well, that’s about it for now. Till next time, take care and God Bless!
Michele
I’m waiting for Chaz." but why do I feel that the chapter in my life concerning him hasn’t been closed yet? 
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