Chix Chat

From: Michele
Sent: Friday, July 13, 2001 12:11 PM
Subject: ok, so its more like #55!

Hi Anne!

Well, this is our #55 e-mail. It isn’t 100, but we’re more than half way there!  Yes, I was insane enough to count them!

Saw my stories on your service page. Cool!  Believe me, I have a million more where those came from.  Let me indulge you with a few stories from when I was working at *****.  As I mentioned before, there were a lot of weirdos who went into that place.  Some days I felt like I was trapped in a Twilight Zone episode!  There was this one really strange lady, Josie who would come in all the time.  Elaine, one of my co-workers dubbed the name "Sunny Delight" on her because she would always buy the drink Sunny Delight.  Anyway, the one day she went in my line and was going to buy one of those 12oz bottled waters.  She went to put the bottle on the counter, but it slipped out of her hands and it fell to the floor.  The bottle was plastic, so it didn’t break or anything.  It was fine.  She picks it up and says "I have to go get a fresh one."  SAY WHA???  I didn’t know bottles of water went stale when they fell to the floor.  Maybe I should try that some time and see if it works …

Also people would actually get miffed when we wouldn’t accept coupons from other stores and expired coupons!  HELLO?!  This is ***** not Shop-n-Save, and Why didn’t you use this coupon last week when it was still good, DUMMY!?

I’m sorry for sounding so… bitchy, but I just have to vent!  This is horrible for me to say, but I’m not a "people person".  Its difficult for me to even smile and say hello to people.  I’m usually thinking "Get the hell away from me!"  I know, awful, isn’t it?  I think one of the reasons why I’m so wary of people is of their reaction to me.  If someone is warm and friendly, that’s fine, but if someone is going to be aloof and snotty I want to say, "I want to take my hello back, jerk!"

I have "casual" e-mail friends too.  The two I write to the most are Ingrid and Dana.  Ingrid and I mostly write snail-mail letters to each other.  Oh!  that reminds me:  would you mind if we exchanged addresses?  I think we know each other well enough by now to know that we’re not deranged psychopaths!  At least I’ll give you mine :

*****

Here is another example of how I said I want and need a man who is confidant in himself.  Yesterday at work this guy was in the store.  I was putting cards out and he was standing in the same aisle I was in, looking at cards.  He was rather attractive.  I’m guessing he must have been in his middle thirties.  Anyway, I said "hello" to him and he looks over at me and got all nervous and tried to say "Hi" back, but his voice cracked and he had to clear his throat and try again.  So because he acted all flustered, I felt uncomfortable.  Later, I started thinking about Chaz and how he just boldly approached me whenever we saw each other.  I mean, in some aspects he was shy, but with me he was confidant.  I was ready to burst into tears.  I thought "I miss him".  I mean, he might have been this total loser in the aspect that he drank and he was an incurable flirt, but he made me feel pretty!  And I highly doubt he would of flirted with a girl who he didn’t find attractive.  I miss that.  I miss the way Dwight was so bold with me and confidant in himself too, even if he turned out to be a jerk.  I wish I could find a man who is confidant and bold, but also a Christian too.  If only Chaz wasn’t so screwed up, he would have been the perfect guy for me.  I mean, I think he really understood me.  He knew I was a nice girl, a virgin, a Christian, but he also knew I had a naughty streak in me.  He didn’t patronize me or think me any less of a woman.   There was just this chemistry between us, and we never even went out!  Could you imagine the sparks that would fly if we actually had.  ANd it wasn’t because he was so good looking.  There were a lot of good looking men I’ve had crushes on.  I just felt this connection to him that I never felt before and haven’t since.  Even when I went out with Harry and I really hoped things would work out between us at the time, several times during our date I thought, "I wish so much this was Chaz sitting across from me" If only …. Oh, I can’t keep on doing this to myself!  Chaz is in the past and I know I have to move on.  And believe me, if someone came into my life and was interested in me, I wouldn’t say, "I’m sorry, Mr. Vosloo  I’m waiting for Chaz." but why do I feel that the chapter in my life concerning him hasn’t been closed yet? 

I’m sorry for just rambling on and on about that.  It just feels really good to talk to someone about this.  I mean, I’ve already said this a million times to Danielle and when I try to talk to my mom about it, she just doesn’t understand.  She said to me several times that praying for him is a waste of time.  "No use beating a dead horse" she would say.  I get so angry at her when she says things like that!  Ok, maybe Chaz isn’t in God’s plan for my life but he still is a human being and he needs prayers just like the next person!  Uh-Oh!  here I am rambling again!

Have you rented The Mummy?  Rent it!  Watch it!  Bask in the glory of Arnold!!  Have you told Sara and your mom about him?  Who does Sara lust after?  Danielle is very private about who she likes.  I’m the only one who she tells.  She’s even embarrassed to tell our mom.  So when an actor she likes is on tv and our mom is in the room, she’ll start acting all nervous and I’ll start singing that song "Crush On You" under my breath and she’ll start kicking me or giving me dirty looks (lol).

Questions Answered:

Am I a light sleeper or hard to wake up?- Its pretty easy for me to wake up when I’m supposed to and I usually sleep through the night.

Do I have cable- yes, but I don’t have premium channels like HBO and Showtime.

times my ears are pierced- one in each ear.  My tongue too.  (KIDDING!)

what is a really funny event/thing I remember- oh gosh, I have a million of them!  Ok, let me think … Oh!  the last time we went to Disney World, it was me, Danielle, Donna, her sister, Patty and Patty’s friend, Rose.  Donna is in her 50’s, but she’s like a big kid at heart.  We had went to Downtown Disney the one night and we were waiting for the bus to take us back to the hotel.  IT was pretty late and we were the only ones there.  Some one had left a baby stroller there that you can rent for the day.  Donna is a pretty petite woman so she got in it and Danielle started pushing her around.  I was laughing so hard I nearly peed my pants!

am I superstitious about Friday the 13th?  No.  Hey that’s today, isn’t it?

If I could know when I was going to die, would I want to?- NO!

least favorite sport/game they made me play- ALL OF THEM!  I always hated gym class because everyone was so competitive and they would scream at you if you didn’t do something right.  However,  I really enjoyed my senior year class.  Most of my friends we’re in that class and we had a really good time.  It wasn’t about competition.  It was about having fun!

movie- Back To The Future
tv show- Step By Step (loved Perfect Strangers!)
cd- Cher- If I Could Turn Back Time (greatest hits).  I have The End Of The Innocence.  I love Don Henley’s voice.  One of my favorite male singers.

funny moment- in an episode of Mama’s Family, Mama got a job working with Naomi at Food Circus.  She was showing her how to use the register and Mama was being really slow.  Naomi says, "Come on Ms Harper, you are going to have a line all the way down to frozen foods.  You have to get a little rhythm going here." To which Mama replies, "Yeah, I wish your mother practiced a little rhythm." 

new questions-

do you use one brand of makeup or do you use a little of everything- a little of everything.  If I like the color and its on sale- I’ll get it.

do you break out easily?- only right before my period.  Otherwise my skin is pretty clear.

have you known anyone who committed suicide?- yes.  His name was Ross and actually he was one of the managers at *****.  He was in his fifties.  Shot himself- and this is really creepy- shot himself in the empty lot right next to my house!  It happened on a Saturday afternoon.  My mom and I were home and we heard the shot.  At first we thought it was a firecracker but when we saw the police cars and everything, we knew something was up.  I looked over and saw him and I knew right away it was him.  Surprisingly,  I was very calm throughout the whole ordeal.  I guess I was in shock.  Ross was such a nice man.  He always seemed so happy-go-lucky.  My co-workers and I were totally devastated about it.  To this day I still can’t understand why he did that to himself.

did you ever belong to any clubs or teams in high school?- no

do you tape any tv shows?  Yes!  The X-Files, Touched By AN Angel, Mama’s Family, Who’s line is it anyway, THe Fugitive, (as you can imagine, I have a lot of tapes!)

can you wriggle your ears?- no

how bout roll your tongue?- no

what is the worst thing someone could call you?- a cu*$.

what was the worst thing someone has called you?- a bitch.

how are you when crisis’s occur?  Are you a wreck?  Pretty calm?- I’m pretty calm when something happens.  I only freak out about it two days later!

Well, that’s it for now!  See you soon.  Take care and God bless!

Michele