Chix Chat

From: Michele
Sent: Saturday, July 07, 2001 5:36 PM
Subject: A whole weekend off?! Oh boy- Almond Joy!

Hi Anne!
 
Hope you’re having/had a nice weekend!  I’m off both Saturday and Sunday (yay!).  Too bad you don’t have a computer at home- when do you think you’re going to get one?  When you do, maybe you can get MSN messenger and we can chat!  Wouldn’t that be fun?
 
Oh, I hate it when I have to pay late fees on overdue bills!  I get so mad at myself!  I try to pay a bill as soon as I get it, but sometimes something slips through the cracks.  Also with all those record and book clubs I belong to sometimes I forget to send back the reply card and then I’ll receive the selection of the month, and I’ll have to send it back.  Talk about inconvenient!
 
You missed The Mummy Returns?!  BAD ANNE!  SHAME ON YOU!  You must be appropriately punished … by Spike and Angel!  Oh, here they come now with whips and chains!  Don’t worry about it. I think the video is going to be released in October, and that isn’t so far away.  In the meantime, you can always rent The Mummy.  Other AV movies- Hard Target, Zeus & Roxanne, Darkman 2, Darkman 3 ….there are others, but those we’re all the ones I saw.  If you go onto any of the Arnold Vosloo websites they’ll list everything that he’s been in.
 
Oh, I hear you when customers get that condensending tone in their voice.  Its like they think they’re better than you or something.  It also annoys me how some people are so helpless sometimes.  I mean, they practically want me to wipe their ass for them!  This guy comes in from time to time and he just annoys the hell out of me.  He’ll always need "help" with picking out a card.  The one day I was the poor, unfortunate soul who had to deal with him.  He was looking for a sympathy card  and he takes two cards out of their slots and says to me "Which one do you like better?"  Well, my taste might not be his taste (I hate it when people ask me that!) but I pointed out which one I preferred and this dumb ass pickes the other card anyway!  I’m thinking ‘Why did you even waste my time?’.  Then another time this lady comes up to the counter with a card and an envelope and she says to me, "I want this card, but there wasn’t an envelope for it, so I took another envelope from another card.  Can you check to see if the card fits?"  HELLO?!  Can’t you do it yourself?  I mean, you’re holdind the friggin thing in your hand!!  I just gave her this look and put the card in the envelope.  How retarded can someone be?  Another "I can’t believe someone can be that retarded" moment- Last December someone came in and asked, "Do you sell Christmas cards?"  HELLO?!  This is *****!  It’s December!  What do you think we’re selling?  Easter cards?!  Unbelievable!
 
Re: your dream about Ray.  I wouldn’t worry about it too much.  I understand how you feel about feeling violated and ashamed, but don’t feel that way. You almost feel as if he knows you had a dream about him, right?  You feel vunerable.  You and he had a past, so its not uncommon for you to have dreams like that about him.  Sometimes I’ll have sex dreams about the guys I’ve had crushes on, and I’ll wake up feeling really wierd and wonder, ‘where did that come from?’  Have you ever had a wonderful dream (it doesn’t necessarily have to be about sex) and you wake up, and you try to fall back to sleep again right away so the dream can continue but the dream is entirely different?  I hate it when that happens!
 
Speaking of feeling ashamed, let me tell you about Dwight.  Yes, another one of my crushes.  Yes, it’s a long story!  Ok, I met Dwight back in summer 1997.  He was one of the customers at *****.  He would go in my line and just stare at me with this smile on his face and he would give me that look.  You know that look that men give women?  Anyway, it scared the crap out of me.  Chaz would give me the look  too, but he was more playful about it.  At first I was really uncomfortable whenever Dwight would go in my line.  It seemed like he could look right through me, you know?  Well, little by little I started getting used to it.  I started having these intense sexual fantasies and dreams about him.  I didn’t know anything about him (I didn’t even know his name!) so in my fantasies he was my ideal man.  I got to a point where I became comfortable enough to start flirting with him.  In a way, Dwight was the kind of man that I wanted.  He was very forward, very direct.  He would say to me "You’re so beautiful. "  Ok, maybe he was bullshitting me, but I felt good whenever he said that!  I wanted so bad for him to ask me out, I was nearly at the point where I was going to ask him myself!  Well, I found out that not only did he have a girfriend, but they had a six month old baby together!  For the longest time, he was on my "do-do" list.  I still acted civil with him everytime I saw him, but inside I’d think, "Creep."  And try as I might, I was still attracted to the bastard! I was still having these intense fantasies about him and at first i felt very ashamed because of it.  But after awhile I got used to it, and now when I have fantasies about Dwight, I enjoy them.  At least I can say the man had good taste if he was attracted to me!  You know, I’ve been angry at Dwight for looking at me in a purely sexual way, and I’ve been angry at Harry for not looking at me in any way at all, and I would much rather have a man look at me in a purely sexual way. Of course my soul mate will respect me as well!
 
re- smilies and flowers  there is a button on my ‘compose’ page with my hotmail that says "insert emoticon".  I dont know why I can’t attach pictures.  I’ll try that "cut and paste" thing you suggested.  If you think of anything else, please suggest it to me!
 
here’s a pretty cool website- www.tv-now.com   You type in an actor or actresses name and it will tell you where he or she is going to be on tv for the month (that’s how I found out Arnold Vosloo was going to be in all those movies I mentioned).  So you can type in David B’s name and see where and when he’ll be on tv!  Neat, huh?
 
Questions answered:
 
Who would I like to look like?- Catherine Zeta Jones, Roma Downey
 
Expressions I use frequently- "what’s up with that?"  "Oh, really?"  "like" "you know" and my favorite- when I talk about less than attractive men- "He aint no Arnold Vosloo!"
 
expressions that bug me- even though I say it, I hate "Like" and "you know".  I try to catch myself before I say it, you know?  Like, Danielle says it, like, so much more than me, you know?  Like, one time she said like and you know about fifty times in one conversation, you know? Like, am I annoying you right now, you know?
 
do i have any of my old toys?- I might have some of my old stuffed animals packed away somewhere.  I think I also have my cabbage patch doll too.
 
foods I hated as a kid but I like now?-  Hmmmm …. I can’t really think of anything.
 
do people have "yard sales" in my neighborhood- yes.  also, right up the street where i live there is a flea market every Saturday.
 
am I good with kids?- It all depends on the kid!  If he/she is good then I’m really comfortable and have alot of fun with him/her.  if he/she is a brat, I want to toss him/her out the window!  Just kidding! (or am I ?)
 
when I get mad am I a yeller or an internalize-and-cry about it type?- The latter.  Oh my gosh, a perfect example happened yesterday.  This lady came in and she wanted to order something.  We we don’t do any of the ordering.  Our home office does, so I polietly told her.  She wanted to order a Precious Moments piece, by the way.  Anyway she wanted to know if we had a PM catalogue so she could write down the website and phone number.  She looked up at me and said with that condensending tone, "You seem very limited to what you know around here."  Anne, I was so caught off guard when she said that.  I mean, here, I was trying to help her and she had to be a total bitch to me!  I wanted to say, "FU*$ YOU!" but of course I couldn’t and I didn’t know how to respond.  I hate it when I can’t think of a witty comeback.  Because I didn’t respond to her, I almost felt like she had one up on me.  I tried so bad to not let that one rude person to ruin my day, but it was difficult! I just felt I should have said something to her, defended myself.  Why do people have to be so nasty?  Its difficult for me to believe that God can possibly love someone like that!
 
movie- Toy Story 1 and 2 (I loved them!)
tv show- Wings ( Tim Daly)
cd- Enigma- Le Roi Est Mort, Vive Le Roi!
 
funny moment- An episode of "The Golden Girls"  Blanche is depressed that she’s going through menopause.  She’s worried that she’ll never be attractive to men again.  While she’s wallowing in her self-pity a man is over the house (I forgot who he is) and she perks up and starts flirting with him.  Dorothy comments "She can be in a coma.  A man’s within five miles of her, she’ll roll over and shave her legs." (LOL)
 
new questions:
 
What are your favorite Christmas specials?- The Grinch, Rudoulph, Frosty, Peanuts, and A Sesame Street Christmas.
 
if for one day, you can be someone completely different than who you are, describe what you would be like- I would be a toal bitch and a total slut!  I would be totally free with my sexuality and I would know just what to say to men and be totally confidant in myself.  There is this episode of Laverne and Shirley where Shirley bumps her head and she thinks she’s a stripper named Roxy and her whole personality changes.  I have this fantasy  based on that episode. where I’m an exotic dancer and all the men who are watching me are every man I ever had a crush on- plus all the celebrity men who I have it bad for, and they’re all totally focused and mesmerized by me!
 
how old were you when you received your first kiss?-  I can’t really say I’ve had my frist kiss yet.  Well, Chaz kissed me on the cheek and Harry kissed me when we went out, but I’ve never had a man look deeply into my eyes and kiss my mouth, you know?
 
how old were you when you had your first boyfriend?- haven’t had one yet.
 
would you/have you ever skydive?- Hell no!
 
how about bungee jump?- Hell no!
 
how about ride in a hot air baloon?- Maybe
 
an embarassing moment-(this is one I can print!) a couple years ago when I was walking to work, they;’re was construction being done on the main street anyway, as I was crossing the street, I tripped and fell flat on my face, not a few yards away from about a dozen construction workers!  I don’t think anyone noticed, but boy, was I embarrassed!
 
ever been on a cruise?- no, but I would love to take a Disney cruise.
 
have you lived in the same house all your life?- no.  This has been my third move.  I lived in my first house for eight years, then my second house until I was 26, and now I’m living here.  All in Pittsburgh.
 
God has placed an extra hour onto every day.  What are you going to do with that hour?- use it for my writing!
 
ever seen a ghost?- no, but one time when I was lying in bed, trying to go to sleep, I opened my eyes and for a split second I swore I saw a little girl standing at the side of my bed, looking down at me.  I remember she wore braids and had freckles on her cheeks.  I don’t know if I was dreaming, and the image vanished before I really had the chance for it to register in my brain.  I wasn’t afraid, in fact I felt very peaceful.  Also, another time when I was in that stage between sleep and consciencness, I dreamed (?) that a man was whispering in my ear.  I couldn’t understand what he was saying (he was speaking in another language) and his voice was soothing and bit frightening all at the same time.  I jumped awake, trying to convince myself that it was a dream, but it seemed so real!
 
were you ever bitten by a dog?- yes.  when I was a little girl I was playing with the neighbor’s dog and I was hugging him and I squeezed him too tight and he nipped me, right where my eyebrow is.  In fact I have a tiny scar from it.  I’m not afraid of dogs now, by the way.  In fact, I don’t even remember the incident.
 
name something you know you need to do, but you keep putting it off- get my drivers license!!!
 
well, that’s all for now.   Until next time, take care and God bless!
 
Michele

From: Anne
Date: Friday, July 6, 2001 3:38 pm
Subject: I want my Mummy!

Hello, Michele!
 
I was deleting some old emails from this computer and I realized that I’d already sent you some of those forwards. D’oh! If I could get organized, I’d be dangerous! Speaking of which, I received a Past Due notice on my credit card bill. Apparently last month’s statement was hidden in a stack of magazines (THANKS, MOM!) and I forgot about it. I had to pay a $29 late fee. OHHH! That burns me up!! I hate wasting money like that!! You can bet when it comes again, I will send the payment that day!
 
Also in the "Anne’s a big slacker" department, I have missed the Mummy Returns in theatres! D’OH! I was actually planning to see it yesterday, then I thought, as I was calling the theatres to see what was playing, "If that was playing two months ago when we started emailing, I’ll bet it’s not playing now!" And it’s not! :*( I guess I’ll have to see it on video. (But it’s not the same …)
 
I could not believe that woman thought that you’d wrap her item for free! What goes through those people’s minds?! "Sure, well, they SELL gift wrap here, so I’ll just get them to wrap my item for FREE." And I know just the kind of haughty voice they get when you tell them what they want to hear. People keep coming in here asking for directions to other parts of the complex. I truly don’t know and I tell them that. When I point them to the directory, they usually say, "Yeah, I’ve already tried that." Then I’ll offer to let them use my phone to call. Some of them will get this edge in their voice and say a sarcastic, "Okay, thanks." It’s like, I’ve told them that I don’t know the office they’re looking for; what else can I do? Hold their hand and walk around and look with them?
 
I had the worst dream last night: I was doing positively obscene things with Ray. I woke up feeling very violated and slightly ashamed. Do you ever have dreams like that? I wonder, "WHERE did THAT come from?!"
 
On to a more pleasant subject: Angel. I actually only started watching A&B in the middle of last season. And why did I start? I had been reading reviews and episode summaries on the Internet, and I was very curious! Combine my curiosity with those dreams I kept having, and I knew I had to watch. It’s only fitting that now my Angel site will compel others to watch! (lol)
 
Re: email attachments. I think that’s how just how some email programs are. Hmmm. Maybe I’ll experiment a bit with my own web-based email and get back to you. One thing - have you tried cutting and pasting the image into the body of the message? (I’ve noticed in your last two emails that your flower and smiley face have appeared as attachments as well as around your name…how do you usually include those in your emails?)
 
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new questions - answered
 
have you ever joined a dating service or listed an ad in the personals?- no. I feel about that like I do about being set up with someone’s brother: that’s not very special or romantic! Talk about commercializing: "I’ll take a tall, dark, handsome man. Oh, and a side of fries." : ) I’m sure some great couples have met that way, but I’d love to just meet someone and click instantly.
 
are you thick-skinned or sensitive?- I’d have to say that I’m pretty sensitive. Like you, I’m not as bad as I used to be, but sometimes I’ll find myself focusing on mean things people have said to me.
 
Is your bedroom neat or cluttered- cluttered. I try to keep things put away, but they usually pile up first.
 
what is your Thanksgiving routine?  Is it the same every year or is it different?-  Pretty much the same.
 
do you write in your diary every day or just here and there?- just about everyday - some days it’s just a "to do" list.
 
do you belong to any record/video/book clubs?-I used to belong to the Columbia House tape club - that’s where I got most of the tapes that I have.
 
**recommendations**
cd - August and Everything After/ Counting Crows
movie - Sabrina (old and new versions!)
TV show - MacGyver
 
funny moment: From Roseanne: Becky was drunk and her friend asked about the restroom. Becky replied: "We don’t have one … we use a wok!"
 
NEW QUESTIONS!
 
If you could look like anyone famous, who would it be? Either Elle MacPherson or Elizabeth Hurley (I’m sure I’m missing someone …)
 
Expressions that you use frequently? "They must be on crack!" "like" "you know" "what’s that about?"
 
Expressions that bug you? "Where’s it at?" Rappers that are named Li’l or Big (whatever). "That’s my baby’s daddy." (Again, I’m sure there are others I’m forgetting…)
 
Do you have any of your old toys? I daresay that I have all of my old toys! I’m trying to remember to give away some of them to needy kids around the holidays, but I have trouble parting with them!
 
Are there any foods that you hated as a child but really like now? Yogurt and tomatoes. When I was a kid I thought they were so gross. Now they are two of my favorite foods. (Not together, of course!)
 
Do people have "yard sales" in your neighborhood? Ho boy, yes! They’re usually on the weekends and start about 6 am (!!) and they’re often over by noon!
 
Are you "good" with kids? Not really! I am not around many of them. (Which is okay with me!) When I was about 20, I was helping teach a kids’ class at church - then by some sick twist of fate I was the only teacher. What a disaster - they were always cutting up and frequently out of control.
 
When you get mad, are you a yeller or an internalize-and-cry-about-it type? I’m definitely the latter. I used to cry about those @#$@ customers at ***** all of the time - because I was so angry!
 
That’s about it for now. Have a great weekend! God bless!
Anne

From: Michele
Sent: Friday, July 06, 2001 9:26 AM
Subject: Howdy

Hi Anne!
 
I’m glad you had a nice day off work.  It didn’t rain last night after all, but me and Danielle decided to hang out at home and watch the fireworks on tv.  They were nice but nothing so spectacular.  Oh well, when you seen one firework, you’ve seen them all, I guess.
 
Yes, it was so stupid that we had to be open yesterday anyway.  We are closed Christmas, Thanksgiving and Easter and New Year’s Day.  Holidays like memorial day, the 4th of July and Labor day we’re open until 5. 
 
Congrats and good luck on taking over the Angel website!!  Even though I don’t watch Angel, I will check out the site from time to time.  Hey!  Maybe I’ll start watching it because of the site.  You never know ….!
 
okay, here is my problem with sending pictures with my e-mails, (i’ve expiramented by sending stuff to Danielle)  I’m doing everything you suggested, but when the person I’m sending it to recieves it (Danielle for example) she will get a link at the end of the e-mail that says "view attachment", instead of the picture itself.   I hope you understand what I’m trying to say!  Not that I think you’re stupid, its just that sometimes it’s difficult for me to explain something.  If you have any suggestions about this, i’d really appreciate it!
 
Let me tell you a halarious incident that happened at work last week.  I was working with Mary and Dolly.  They’re both older that me,  I’m guessing Mary is in her 60s and Dolly is in her 50’s.  Anyway, this young girl came in, oh, I’d say she was about 23.  Snotty thing, she comes walking over to the counter and says to me "I’m on my way to a party, can you wrap this for me?" (she bought something at another store).  I reply, "We don’t wrap."  her- "You don’t wrap?"  "No, we don’t."  Hello?  Like, what part of ‘we don’t wrap?’ didn’t she understand?  So I could see that she got a bit purturbed.  Well, tough shit!  It wasn’t my f&*#in fault she waited until the last minute to buy a gift.  So she said in that snobby voice of hers, "Well, do you sell gift wrap?"  "Yes." and I pointed to where it is.  A couple minutes later she came back up to the counter with a roll of wrapping paper.  By this time Mary and Dolly we’re at the counter too.  So she asks us "Do you have any ribbon?"  Mary answers, "Yes, its right where you got the wrapping paper."  Snobby asks, "Oh.  You mean I have to pay for it?" WHAT?!  Mary, Dolly and I excanged a puzzled look and then Mary said, "I guess so, if you want it." (lol).  I just thought that was so funny.  You had to be there to hear Mary say it the way she did.  What, did this chick think we we’re just going to give her ribbon?  What’s up with that?
 
That movie Zeus and Roxanne was on today.  It was cute.  Anyway, Arnold played the "villian" in it.  I guess they tried to make him look kinda nerdy (he had glasses, a moustashe and nerdy clothes), but it didn’t work.  Well, for me it didn’t work.  I don’t think there is any way that man can ever look bad!  Of course I like him the most when he is IMHOTep (the Mummy).  Oh lord, that voice!  If we had phone sex, would I still be considered  a virgin? (lol)
 
questions answered
 
before I get to that, I want to go back to "What is Sexy" for a sec (I always think of something to add after I send my messages!)  Anyway, this is kinda connected to what you said about "guys pressing real close, whispering in your ear."  Its the whole esscense of a man.  If someone put a blindfold on me and first a woman stood really close to me, than a man, and neither one would talk or even touch me (God forbid, I hope the woman wouldn’t!), I would know the difference in a heartbeat. Even if the man and woman didn’t wear any perfume, cologne or aftershave, I would just know.  A man raidates a certain warmth, a certain masculine scent.  I know I could just feel the sexual chemistry radiating between us.
 
little things I obsess over- I have to have the money (in the registers at work) facing in all the same direction, when I go to bed at night, if Danielle isn’t already sleeping, I always have to make sure we say "good night" to each other …. I’m sure there are alot more, I just can’t think of any right now.
 
do I dance?- I will if I’m at a wedding or something, and I’m not the only one making a fool out of myself.
 
nature girl or city chick?- I think a little of both, probably more leaning towards nature girl
 
past experiences that affects what I do today-  Well, since I was really picked on in grade school, I "escaped" via my imagination.  Maybe that’s why I’m a writer now.  Maybe what happened to me then helped shape who I am now.
 
worst thing I’ve done to someone- when I was a junior in high school, this guy, Dave asked me to the Snowball (our school’s winter dance) anyway, I didn’t like Dave and I wanted Jeff to ask me (you know, that whole you like someone, but they don’t like you, but someone you don’t like likes you cycle) anyway, when I turned Dave down, I wasn’t very nice about it.  I can’t remember exactly what I said, but I wasn’t very nice.  Well, I got mine.  Jeff didn’t ask me to the dance.  He asked someone else , and Dave went with someone else.  And guess who spent that night home alone?  Yep, yours truly.
 
movie- Sleepless In Seattle (my all time favorite movie)  I’ve seen Adventures In Babysitting.  I thought it was cute
tv show- Mysterious Ways (I never seen Beauty and the Beast)
cd- The Pure Moods collection (I don’t have Kiss The Rain)
 
new questions
 
have you ever joined a dating service or listed an ad in the personals?- no.  I just have a really difficult time trusting something like that.  I feel if I were to do that, I’m not trusting God’s timing.  Also, what if I get matched up with some total loser?  I mean, I know that can happen even if I don’t join a dating service or put an ad in the personals, but I can do that for free and not have to pay money for it!
 
are you thick-skinned or sensitive?- I used to be very sensitive.  Someone would look at me the wrong way and I would start crying!  I’m a lot tougher now, but I think I will always be somewhat sensitive.
 
Is your bedroom neat or cluttered- cluttered. The room Danielle and I share isn’t very big, and we have so much stuff.  If we don’t keep up with it, it becomes cluttered.
 
what is your Thanksgiving routine?  Is it the same every year or is it different?-  mine is basically the same.  My mom will start cooking the turkey very early Thanksgiving morning  we eat around 1 or 2 pm, our meal consists of turkey, stuffing, cranberry sauce, sweet potatoes, and another vegatabe (it varies from year to year) also pumpkin pie!  After we eat, we usually take a nap (that darn turkey makes me sleepy) and for the rest of the day we’ll just nibble here and there.
 
do you write in your diary every day or just here and there?- I try to write in it everyday
 
do you belong to any record/video/book clubs?- yes.  BMG music service, Sound and Spirit, Cloumbia House Video club, Crossings, Audio Book Club, and Quality Paperback Book Club.
 
well, that’s about it for now.  Until next time, take care and God bless!
 
Michele

From: Anne
Date: Thursday, July 7, 2001 4:14 pm
Subject: Spread the word and the link!

Hello, Michele!
 
Yes, I had a VERY nice day off! It was raining here as well, so we did not get to watch fireworks. My mother had to work in the evening anyway. I did my HW - I stockpiled a bunch of my favorite movies, albums, and tv show titles to send to you. Every time I’m writing a letter I just can’t think of them, although I know there are plenty of them: now I’m ready!
 
Did you say that business was slow? I was surprised that y’all were open at all! Does the store close for any holidays?
 
Yes, please let Danielle visit my site! You have my permission to send that link - with a hearty personal recommendation - to anyone you like!
 
It’s a done deal - I am taking over the Angel’s Secrets site. (http://www.geocities.com/angelsecrets.geo/) The current webmistress has decided to trust me with the site password, so at the moment we’re both working on it. Soon, it will be mine all mine! Insert maniacal laugh here!
 
Attaching pictures: to attach pics with the email programs that I’ve used, you click the Attach option, and this will open up a folder usually My Documents. I find the folder that has the pic I want then select the picture. In some email programs there is a "Browse" option for attachments that does the same thing - i.e. let you select the folder/location and then the pic that you want. (I’m thinking this was how it was when I had my hotmail account.) If this doesn’t get you anywhere - because you never know what some programs will ask for! - let me know what happens when you click on Attach or Browse (or another option that I don’t know about) and I’ll rack my brain for a plan B!
 
new questions - answered!
 
would you rather work five days and then have two days off in a row or would you rather work 3 days, have a day off, work two days, have a day off?-  the second option definitely! (I have always said this to my family when we talk about off days…)
 
have you ever gone into chat rooms?- I did a time or two, but like you said everyone was talking at once with things like "Hey, all!" or "Wassup?" - there was very little actual chatting.
 
do you and Sara share your bedroom?  No, but we did for many years. I agree: I’ve always said that if I have kids they WILL have separate rooms.
 
do you consider yourself mature for your age?- honestly? no.  I am blown away when I think how people our age are parents, doctors, lawyers … grown ups!
 
what age do you "feel?"-  usually 18 - 20.
 
as a Christian, how do you influence others in your every day life?- I also try to be an example for people! I’d like to get more comfortable and adept at actually saying a good word at an opportune time, but I usually don’t think of it until the moment has passed.
 
what nationality(s) are you?- I’m part Scotch-Irish. I’m also 1/8 American Indian (Cherokee). There may be other "breeds" in there, but I don’t know of them.
 
do you know any languages?- I also had French - two years, but I’d be lucky to remember how to say, "Where is the bathroom?"
 
would you make a videotape of you and your husband having sex?- I was going to put yes, then I remembered a story I read in Cosmo about a girl who found her guy showing videotape of that to his dad and brothers! Sicko, perv creep! Videotape + having sex = bad idea!!
 
can you play any musical instruments?- no (I was going to ask you …!)
 
NEW QUESTIONS
Any little things that you obsess over? I like for all of my clothes to hang on the hangers facing the same way. I also write down what I wear each day so that I won’t wear the same outfit just a few days apart. (I’m sure I’ll think of more obsessions later…)

Do you dance? Only when I’m alone in my room.

Nature girl or city chick? I’m more of a nature girl, because I like to hike in the woods and I do not like crowds, but I also like to be indoors with the AC and away from the bugs!

any past experiences that affect what you do today? I mentioned how Mom used to buy us clothes that were way too big - these days I chose stuff that fits. When I was in first grade, I had really short hair and one bully girl wouldn’t let me use the girls’ restroom because she said that I was a boy - ever since then I’ve kept my hair at least to shoulder length.

Worst thing you’ve done to someone? In 10th grade, I went to the prom with an older guy who had a crush on me. He wasn’t the most popular guy at the school, and when people asked about my going with him, I would say, "I just went with him because I wanted to go to the prom." I’m sure that it got back to him. Ouch! Serves me right that I went to the next two proms alone!
 
**recommendations**
cd - Kiss the Rain/ Billie Myers
movie - Adventures in Babysitting
TV show - Beauty and the Beast
 
funny moments - From Frasier: Niles is distraught over the breakup of his marriage and storms into the powder room after a huge outburst. Suddenly there’s a loud POP. The others think Niles has shot himself. Instead the door opens and Niles is covered with shaving cream; the dad’s shaving cream warmer popped the can.
 
 
It’s a slow rainy day here (and I love it!) so that’s all for now. Talk to you later! God bless!
Anne

From: Michele
Sent: Wednesday, July 04, 2001 7:22 PM
Subject: hope you had a nice day off!

Hi Anne!
 
Happy 4th of July!  You’re lucky you’re off work today (yesterday).  I had to work 9-5 today and we we’re so dead, I wanted to scream!!  Did you go anywhere to see fireworks?  Danielle and I we’re going to go, but as of right now (its around 7) it looks like it might rain, so we’ll be hanging out around here.  OH well.
 
Before I go on, let me ask you something.  I know I’m going to sound like a total retard by asking this, but how do you attach pictures to an e-mail?  You know, like the one pic you sent of David with your last e-mail to me?  How do you do that?  Could you tell me, step by step?  I really would appreciate it!  There are some really nice pictures of "my man" (gee, I wonder who?)  that I would like to send to you.
 
I hope your ear feels better soon.  I remember one time I had a bad cold and my left ear was stopped up for days.  It drove me nuts!!  It also drives me crazy if one of the speakers don’t work on my walkman headphones.  Its either stereo sound or nothing at all!
 
I hear you about the miserable "church groups" who would come in *****.  When I worked at ***** on Sundays, it was so ironic because the nastiest customers were the ones who were clutching their church bulletins in their hands as they scowled at me.  I think, ‘What’s even the point of them going to church?’  
 
Thank you for mentioning me on your site!! (giggle, blush).  Yes, Anne, I don’t mind at all if you mention me.  Would you mind if I let Danielle log onto your site?  I know you’ll most likely say its okay, but I thought I would ask anyway.  My sister is pretty hip, you’d get along with her just fine!
 
I’ve got a few suggestions about the whole cooking meat for your husband deal.  You know, because you’re a vegetarian?  MacDonald’s!  Wendy’s! Burger King! (lol).  Do you eat any meat at all now or have you stopped cold turkey?  I don’t think I could ever be a vegetarian!  I love my steaks and burgers too much!  And I would perish if I could never eat seafood again.  I especially love shrimp and scallops.  Mmmm! Oh gosh, I better stop before I get really hungry!
 
new questions answered!
 
before I answer your questions, I want to go back to a couple questions we asked each other in previous e-mails.  The first question was the one I asked about "do you sleep with a light on?" You answered that a street light shines in your room so its not completely dark.  Me too!  I also should point out that some nights I’ll read in bed and I’ll fall asleep with the light on.
 
second question- you asked me "what/who is sexy."-  Shame on me, in the "men with accents" category I forgot to mention Gabriel Byrne!!!!  Also I think Gary Graham (Alien Nation) is very sexy.  I think salt-n-pepper grey hair is sexy.  ALso when a man plays with my hair. (Chaz did that a couple of times and it drove me wild!).  A man who takes control of a situation.  A man who stands up for what he believes in.  The way a man walks is sexy.  I can’t explain a "sexy man walk" but I would know it if I saw it!  Stay tuned for  more sexiness ….!
 
oh yeah!  Another thing!  When you said that girl called you a snob in high school- I’m certain I ran into that problem as well.  I’m sure some people thought I was a snob because I was so quiet.  Hardly the case!  I was so insecure about myself during that time I wished I could have gone through high school with a paper head over my head!  Ok, maybe i’m exaggerating, but you get the point!
 
Ok, here are your new questions answered!
 
things I’d change about myself- where do I begin?  I wish I wasn’t so much of a procrastinator.  I wish I wasn’t so lazy sometimes.  I wish I was more "worldly" and I don’t mean sexually.  By worldly, I mean I wish I was smarter about things.  You know how there are some people who always talk so intelligently and articulately?  That’s what I mean by worldly.  I wish I wasn’t so afraid to do things.  I wish I was a more compassionate person.  I wish I wouldn’t complain so much.  I’m sure there is more but that’s all I can think of for the moment.
 
products I cant live without- any bath/beauty item!  Please don’t ask me to name them all- I’d be typing forever!
 
have I ever broken a bone?-no
 
can I swim?- yes, in fact I passed the requirements for a junior lifeguard when I was in high school.
 
ridden a horse?- does those mechanical horses in front of  stores at the mall count? (lol)
 
do I have any gay friends?-  I’ve worked with a couple guys who i thought we’re gay, but I wasn’t sure.  My mom’s cousin’s daughter is very manish, but I don’t know for sure about her, either.  I look at it this way- whatever someone’s preferences is, that’s between a
them  and God.  There are a lot of gay people who would treat someone better that some so-called "christians"
 
movie- Ghostbusters (I never saw Shakespeare In Love, but it looks good)
tv show- Who’s Line Is It Anyway (I watched Frasier for the first two or three seasons)
cd- Garth Brooks-Double Live ( I have Heart’s greatest hits)
 
new questions!
 
would you rather work five days and then have two days off in a row or would you rather work 3 days, have a day off, work two days, have a day off?-  the second option
 
have you ever gone into chat rooms?- I tried once but all those people talking at once gave me a headache!
 
do you and Sara share your bedroom?  Yes, Danielle and I share our room and even though we do get along, it can get annoying at times!  I mean, I’ll never have my own room!  I’ll either be sharing it with my sister or my husband.  I know now if I ever have two girls- they will have their own rooms!  They need a sense of identity and their privacy!
 
do you consider yourself mature for your age?- no. 
 
what age do you "feel?"-  most of the time I feel like I’m sixteen-eighteen.
 
as a Christian, how do you influence others in your every day life?- I consider myself a "quiet Christian".  I don’t shout Bible verses to people and I don’t insert "Praise Jesus" in every sentence.  I try to influence by my actions.  I always ask God to help me "shine" for everyone to see, and I hope that I really do!
 
what nationality(s) are you?- I’m 100% Italian!  (Forget about it!)
 
do you know any languages?- no.  i took three years of French in high school, but I’ll be darned if I could say something in french now!  Back then it was boring because I was forced into it, you know?  Now I would really appreciate it.
 
would you make a videotape of you and your husband having sex?- he would have to get me really drunk!  God, I could just imagine how ridiculous I would look!  No, thank you!
 
can you play any musical instruments?- no
 
well, that’s about it for now.  Until next time, take care and God bless!
 
Michele

From: Anne
Date: Tuesday, July 3, 2001 3:35 pm
Subject: Ooops! Three great messages with the same thought!

Hello, Michele!
 
Did I send three of the same letter to you yesterday? I knew it was acting freaky - when I would press send, I would get the error message "Cannot delete this message." It’s like, "Whoa! Who said anything about deleting?!" D’oh!
 
Would you believe that my ear is still stopped up? It has been for over two weeks, and I’m starting to feel slight twinges of pain. After the holiday I must schedule a visit to one of my crack (or is it quack?) medical team.
 
I am in one of those moods where everything about work is bugging me!! (Hello, PMS!) Is there NO END to the brainless tasks that my boss has for me?! I’m SO GLAD to be off tomorrow!
 
Re: pictures. I’ve heard that some film developers can put the pictures from a regular camera in digital form. I haven’t tried that yet, but it would be a cheaper alternative to getting a scanner. Actually a scanner would be cool to have, too, because you could scan any previous pictures that you have/liked.
 
I have mentioned you on the site, and I’m sure that I’ll mention you again. (I haven’t updated too much this week…) I was going to ask, but I didn’t want to put you on the spot. I generally don’t mention people’s names. I know if you had a site, I wouldn’t mind if you mentioned me, as long as it’s not something like "Anne is *so* weird because …" I try to keep stuff pretty positive, which is why you’ll notice the absence of references to my exes!
 
I don’t think you’re being judgmental at all. I know the kind of "nutty" zealots that you’re talking about; I agree that people are not going to line up to be part of that. It’s also like all those church groups (notice that I didn’t say Christians) that would flock to ***** every Sunday. You’d be hard-pressed to find a more sour, less Christ-like bunch of people! How the waitresses used to hate to see them coming! These same groups would gripe about *everything* and leave a dollar or two on the table with a religious tract. One of the older guys of one of the worst-acting group of regulars invited me to his church "to meet a good man." Gee, would he act just like you? Could I be barefoot AND pregnant? Sorry, I’m off on a tangent there: I really agree that people need to see more NORMAL, HAPPY Christians!
 
I believe Otown was (is?) the group from Making The Band: I haven’t watched that show, but their song plays on the radio, and I really like that line. It reminds me not to settle!
 
Talking about cooking, I only cook vegetarian stuff: this could be a problem with my future husband. I haven’t eaten red meat in about six years, and when I ate meat before my mom always cooked it.
 
***Recommendations***
 
movie- Deep Impact (I haven’t seen it, but will add it to my list!)
tv show- Three’s Company (I loved it - it doesn’t come on here.)
cd- Pink Floyd-The Wall (I’ve heard it is excellent!)
 
movie- Shakespeare in Love
tv show- Frasier
cd- Heart - Bad Animals 
 
***new questions-answered!***
 
how old were you when you started your period? how did you feel about it?- I was 14, and I definitely did not want it! I remember thinking, "Okay, how long before I hit menopause?"
 
fave authors?- Judy Blume, (I’m drawing a blank … will come back to this one.)
 
are your grandparents still living?- No, they’ve all passed on.
 
do you have any other e-mail/pen pal friends besides me?- yes - I ‘d call them casual e-pals. There’s Rhoda, who usually only sends me generic "forwards" (i.e. SPAM), and Don, who signed my guestbook. (He just recently started writing to me.) I met them through a "Christian friendship" site; I definitely have casual conversation only! I also stay in touch with some of the men that I worked with out of town.
 
were you ever teased in grade and/or high school?- (I was going to ask you … !) Yes! I was also pretty self-conscious and shy. Plus, my mom used to buy us clothes that were way too big - I guess she didn’t want us to out grow them - so you can imagine the teasing I got for that! There was this mean guy in ninth grade (Jamie) who was in just about all of my classes - this was when I’d just started a new school. He and his flunkies would tease me all the time; he’d say things like, "We’re gonna get married and have kids, but not girls, ‘cause they might look like you." What a buffoon! I remember one cheerleader sitting behind me said, "Snob." Was she talking to me? I think so, but I was *shy* certainly not a snob!!
 
any hidden talents?- (insert wicked grin here. Moving on…) I seem to have a pretty good sense of direction- must be that American Indian heritage!
 
have you ever had a crush on a cartoon character?- Spiderman! And Darkwing Duck. (I loved that show!)
 
I know you’re a vegetarian but if you had to choose, do you prefer hot dogs or hamburgers? hamburgers
 
do you sleep with a light on? No, but I do like to leave my blind up so I can see the moon light. There’s also a street light that shines into my window, so it’s usually not pitch black in my room.
 
do you have any tattoos and/or piercings (besides the ones in your ears?)- nope. I used to want a tattoo, but now the idea of someone dragging a needle around on my skin just doesn’t appeal to me …
 
NEW QUESTIONS
 
things I’d change about myself (This may have been in one of the Big Three messages from yesterday … I’m revisiting this question because I remembered a biggie.) Most of the time, I’m pretty expressive and animated when I actually talk to people, and I think a lot of people find this weird and goofy! I like being friendly but I hate being perceived and goofy/senseless! I try to live by the motto: why be normal, when you can be interesting?
 
Product(s) that you couldn’t live without? the Wonderbra!
 
Ever broken a bone? No
 
Can you swim? No
 
Have you ever ridden a horse? When I was in kindergarten, on a field trip to a farm, I rode a pony with someone walking beside holding me on - does that count?
 
Do you have any gay friends? When I worked at Shoney’s, I had at several very close gay friends - both guys. Today, I don’t regularly encounter gay people except that I believe my hairdresser is. Of course by the Bible, I think that being gay is wrong, but I don’t believe that shunning people is the answer!
 
Has it been two months that we’ve been emailing? I do feel honored that you tell me things. I know that I tell you stuff that no one else knows. As I said on the site: "those juicy details that are not suitable for public viewing."
 
My boss is letting me leave a bit early: woo hoo!
 
That’s it for today: Happy Fourth of July!! God bless America!
Anne

From: Michele
Sent: Monday, July 02, 2001 5:36 PM
Subject: you’d make a perfect "accessory" for Angel!

Hi Anne!
 
Yes, I signed your guestbook!  The pictures are very nice.  I only wish I could send you a pic of me.  I’ll have to invest in a scanner. I also want to get a cd burner.  My friend, Carie has one and they’re totally cool. And yes, you would look great on David (wicked laugh)!
 
This might sound a bit self-indulgent, but I wouldn’t mind at all if you would mention me on your website!  Maybe you’ve thought about it.  If you did, then it’s okay with me!  If I ever started my own site, would it be okay if I mentioned you?
 
re:confidence:  there are some days when I feel so good and up and I’m on the ball and I know just what to say and everything clicks and I’m outgoing and assertive.  Then there are some days when I feel so off kilter.  I can’t focus or concentrate.  I get really shy.  When someone asks me a simple question, my mind goes totally blank!  I bump into things and drop things ….ugh!  I just want to run home and hide under the covers! 
 
Yes, there is no doubt that my husband will be a Christian, but I don’t want a "crazy-religious zealot-everything is sinful" Christian.  I’ve known a lot of weird Christians in my life, especially when I lived in my old neighborhood. A few examples:  Jim was a guy who worked at the grocery store I worked at.  He was married to Sue.  They had two daughters: Rachel and Sarah.  They were, oh, I guess four and two.  They were so strange (the parents, not the kids).  Well, first of all they were’nt the most cleanest people I’ve known.  Sometimes when he would go to work I could smell uh, his bo (gross)!  I’m sorry but if I had to marry either him or Chaz (who i’m pretty sure wasn’t a Christian) I would pick Chaz in a heartbeat.  The kids were always dirty too.  Clothes dirty, dirty faces, dirty hair.  They were so cute too.  And Jim and Sue were always screaming at them.  He would always wear these religious tee-shirts and he would talk to his co-workers about Jesus and all. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that in it itself, but how can anyone take a dirty, smelly, pantywaste of a guy seriously?  HE was such a wimp.  The wife wore the pants in the family.  He would give all his paychecks to her and she would give him an allowance!  Oh, yeah, just the kind of man I want!  another example-there was a woman customer who had a daughter-Cindy.  I forgot the mother’s name- lets just call her "Nutty" .   Anyway, "Nutty" was one of those "Jesus bless your day" always quoting the Bible-kind of Christians.  Anyway while "Nutty" was so focused on blessing everyone and memorizing the Bible cover-to-cover, Cindy got pregnant (I think she was sixteen).  Hello?  Where does it say in the Bible that its ok for unmarried teenagers to have sex?  Why don’t you talk to your daughter?  Cindy had a daughter and guess what?  not too long after that she got pregnant again!!  Maybe "Nutty’s" God and my God are different, because my God wants people to wait until they are not only married, but also mature to have children, let alone have sex!  I don’t know, it boggles my mind!
 
Please don’t think I’m this judgmental bitch.  I know as Christians, it isn’t right for us to judge, but sometimes it annoys me so much when people who aren’t Christians, look at people like Jim and "Nutty" and conclude that’s what Christianity is about.  I want to jump up and say, "Hello?  I’m a Christian!  I’m clean!  I’m normal!"
 
Sara sounds like Danielle.  I’ll say all these wicked things and her face will turn red and she’ll say things like, "I’m not listening to this, Michele!"  While I will go into detail about what I would like to do to men like Arnold and Mitch, Danielle keeps very private about whatever fantasies she might have.  I’ll say things in front of my mom too.  She’ll try to act shocked, but I can tell she’s trying not to laugh.
 
you mentioned the band Otown.  isn’t that the group that was created by that show "Making The Band"?
 
I’m very frustrated right now.  I skipped my period for June and my whole body is out of wack.  There are like four zits on my chin, I’m bloated, I’m irritable, and I think maybe that’s part of the reason why my back has been bothering me.  Damn.  Also when I skip a month. the next month I get double the cramps.  Double Damn.
 
Do you realize we’ve been e-mailing each other about two months now?  I’ve probably told you more about myself than I’ve told some of my friends that I’ve known for several years!  Don’t you feel honored?
 
new questions answered:
 
do I cook?- (I was going to ask you this!)  No.  I hope I marry a man who doesn’t mind frozen dinners and takeout.(lol).  No, I will seriously try to make an effort once I’m married.
 
do I paint my nails? (I was going to ask you this!)  yes.  both toe and fingernails.  I didn’t use to paint my nails.  theen when I moved here, that’s when I started.  Go figure, huh?
 
do I wear jewelry?- watch, necklace, earrings.  Sometimes I’ll wear a bracelet and sometimes I’ll wear rings, but I won’t wear rings at work.  Last year I lost my cross ring my mom got for me for my 18th birthday.  I was so upset about that, I cried for days!
 
weird things I do that I will admit?-  I’ll sneak up behind Danielle and my mom while they are on the computer and put things in their hair!
 
who/what I think is sexy-  (this may take awhile!)- Arnold Vosloo (body, eyes, mouth, voice)
Mitch Pileggi (body, voice), Tim Daly (eyes, chest, voice), confidence in a man, someone who goes after what he wants, a sense of humor, men with accents (Arnold, Mel Gibson, Sam Neil, Liam Nesson), bald men (not all!) men who wear glasses (not all!), broad, hairless (or not very hairy) chests,  A small, sly grin, A man who takes control of a situation,  a deep, sexy voice, intense eyes,  Clean shaven men or men with moustaches.  Men who smell like they just stepped out of the shower.  Big hands!  I like what you said about "guys standing behind me, pressing real close and whispering in my ear"  Chaz did that once and I just about died!  I have a lot more to add, but that’s all I can think of for now.
 
Recommendations
 
movie- Deep Impact (I saw While You Were Sleeping and I love it!)
tv show- Three’s Company
cd- Pink Floyd-The Wall
 
funny sitcom moment- its an episode of Full House  DJ and Kimmy are in charge of the entertainment at some jr high dance and at the last minute the band backs out.  So DJ gets Uncle Jesse to front a replacement band.  Here, its the marching band!  He walks up to the microphone and dryly says into it "DJ Tanner, report to the stage immediately!" (lol)
 
new questions-
 
how old were you when you started your period? how did you feel about it?-  I was thirteen and I cried.  I thought "oh no!  I don’t want this to happen!"
 
fave authors?- Steven King, VC Andrews, Frank Peretti, Lois Duncan, Judy Blume
 
are your grandparents still living?- my only living grandparent is my paternal grandmother.  My paternal grandfather died when I was six and my maternal grandparents passed away in 1998 and 1999
 
do you have any other e-mail/pen pal friends besides me?- yes.  Ingrid, Dana, Misty, Alison (she’s from England), Lena(she’s from Russia), Joe and George.
 
were you ever teased in grade and/or high school?- Yes!  I was really picked on  when I was in grade school.  I was chubby and painfully shy- a fatal combination.  I remember coming home from school every day and going up to my room and crying.  I thought it would get worse when I started high school, but thank God, I didn’t get bothered much.  Even now, when I think about some of the things my grade school classmates said and did to me, it still bothers me.
 
any hidden talents?- when someone is pregnant, I can usually guess the sex.  I can put makeup on without using a mirror (and do a pretty decent job of it!) I can stuff my whole fist in my mouth.  Is that a talent?  (my future husband might be interested in that!)
 
have you ever had a crush on a cartoon character?- My mom tells me I had a crush on Speed Racer when I was five or six (I’ll take her word for it!)  I had crushes on the Peter and Egon characters on The Real Ghostbusters, and I was practically in lust with John Smith in Pocahontas.  Hey, Mel Gibson did his voice, what do you expect?
 
I know you’re a vegetarian but if you had to choose, do you prefer hot dogs or hamburgers? hamburgers
 
do you sleep with a light on?  Sometimes.  It depends if I just watched or read something scary!
 
do you have any tattoos and/or piercings (besides the ones in your ears?)- nope. 
 
 
Well, that’s about it for now.  Oh!  you mentioned you we’re looking for a poster for David.  Have you tried www.allwall.com ?  try there.  Good luck with it!  Take care and God bless!
 
Michele

From: Anne
Date: Monday, July 02, 2001 2:54 pm
Subject: Two great minds with a single thought!

Hello, Michele!
 
Once again we are *so* on the same wavelength! When I read your paragraph on "confidence" I gasped because when I’m in a non-confident mood, I call myself a "pale, big-nosed, square-faced, frizzy-haired freak." Then, like you said, some days it’s like, "I’m sorry, but I am FINE!" (I like those days much better!) But that’s just the thing: perception! If we can perceive ourselves as good-looking and act accordingly people will find it attractive. Again - some days are better than others!
 
*****: "*****." I’m so glad that the next gig I have scheduled with them is Sunday evening at 6 pm - I’ve had it up to here with them. I’ve got to remember not to work so many days in a row. By the end of them I’m cranky and can’t concentrate worth a flip!
 
I did check out that site - People Just Like Us - and it looks great! I’m going to add a link to that site on my Praise Page! I saw they have a link to a Pray for Hollywood site - that has been a real prayer concern of mine: the salvation of all of the actors, singers, etc. that I think of highly.
 
To answer your question: To save a picture from another site, you can right click on the picture and choose the "Save Picture As" option. That will let you choose the folder (like My Documents) and the name that you want to assign to the picture. If you want to start a webpage, yahoo (and other sites like Angelfire) have some forms where you can type in the info and it will put it all in a nice form for you.
 
This talk of websites reminds me: you signed my guestbook!! YAY!! So you saw my pics: tell me, would I not look great on David’s arm? (Or just on David? Did I just write that?) Like I said, I’m not very photogenic, but I thought those pics were okay. My cheap digital camera isn’t working out as well as I hoped. It doesn’t have a flash so the lighting has to be really good or there are weird shadows.
 
Oh, yes, my future Mr. Wonderful will have to be a Christian also! Like you said, and not just a talker about it either!
 
Nah, I am not uncomfortable when we write about sex. Heck, it’s nice to have someone to talk to about these things! (I can’t exactly discuss lust with my mother, and my sister gasps, "ANNE!" if I ever make even a joking(?) comment about anything sexual like "oh, yes, he could use me and abuse me.." ) And I know what you mean about the body having reactions when you see a man like Arnold or David B: that is exactly what I was talking about before about wanting to date a guy that I feel like that about.  Why should we settle for less? Like Otown sings, "I want it all … or nothing at all."
 
I was VERY glad to read that "deeply religious" married couples usually have the best sex lives! (Talk about a subject that doesn’t come up at church!) It really makes sense that people in relationships like that can be free to enjoy all aspects of it. I mean, there’s mutual love, respect, commitment - it sounds wonderful! It’s another case of waiting to get the best that God has for us. I don’t know if Kevin and Pam (both now in their late 30’s) were virgins when they got married the first times: they were both divorced once before they married each other. I was going to write that I oddly find that encouraging; it’s like that saying about God wanting us to meet a few wrong people before we meet the right one.