a - 27 july 2001
From: Anne
Sent: Friday, July 27, 2001 4:08 PM
Subject: I use my own pics to scare the rats away!!
Ola, Michele!
Thanks for the pic of Arnold: I will tape it to my closet. I don’t even mind that there are other people in the pic … I am such an exhibitionist! (Just kidding!)
You said that you aren’t photogenic: believe me, I’m not either. Apparently our type of gorgeous doesn’t capture well on film. (NOT kidding!) If I send you a pic, you can bet that it’s the best IMHO one of the lot! (I have A LOT of rejects!) For a while, when I didn’t have bangs, I thought I looked okay, but every picture that I saw of me at that time was AWFUL! Seeing those pictures would literally depress me; I’m walking around thinking that I’m gorgeous … well okay-looking at least … and these pics prove otherwise! Since I’ve grown my bangs back I feel a bit better about pics.
N Sync is coming in concert here on August the 7th - which is the day before JC’s birthday. I’d love to go; I realized yesterday that I haven’t the foggiest notion of what the tickets might cost. This weekend I’m going to try to win tickets and a backstage pass with a radio contest; I’m sure the competition will be fierce. Then again, so am I! (lol)
At work, we are trying to get some work with a company in California. My boss said that if we get that contract, he might send me to CA to help out for a few days. I would love that! I’ve never been west of the Mississippi River, and I think it’s time I went! I’d be looking as often as I could for celebrities. My boss told me it would be a culture clash for me, because there are a lot of Spanish people there. Excuse me? My bosses are from India: coming to work is a culture clash for me! Plus, I used to work at restaurants - that would be a *severe* culture clash for my bosses! If I go to CA (and I’m not holding my breath) you can bet I’ll stay a few days extra for some personal time.
I fully agree that we have great personalities! People always act like someone is unattractive when the person describing them says "they have a great personality" but personality is important! So many times before I’ve known less physically attractive people but because of their personality, I’d have chosen them over some gorgeous dud. This is why I kick myself now a little when I think of how I always clammed up around the guys I liked in high school. If I’d just been myself around them, maybe …. Oh well. Live and learn!
I know what you mean about seeing gorgeous guys with homely women! I can’t tell you how many couples I served at *****l that were like that. Often the woman would be a total B to me, and that REALLY would make me wonder, "HOW…?!?!" Like you said, there must be something there that we don’t see; I’d pay money to know what it is. My catty side says, "Could it be that these women put out?" I hope that’s not it!
Speaking of attractive men, there was an article in Cosmo several months ago showing actors who were dating average looking women. I thought that was a bit crass of the magazine; this is the same magazine that tells its readers to be proud of themselves however they look. Talk about a mixed message! Cosmo is *not* the place to look for Christian dating advice - or for that matter to look for practical, non-slut advice! You’re so right #1: they are telling us to do this, that or the other to impress some guy: it’s just playing games! You’re so right #2: I would NOT want the sort of guy that I have to play those games to get. You’re so right #3: If the situation was reversed, it would be awful to be dating someone who was using me to attract someone else.
I was trying to recall some other absurd advice in that Cosmo article, and I just remembered some. "When you’re with a group of guys, be a little flirty with all of them. Be sure to single out the object of your affection so that everyone present including him will know that he is the one you’re interested in." They gave an example of talking about shirts, and you would say coyly, "I’d like to know where Bob got that shirt, because he looks so great in it." (Or something to that effect.) Picturing myself in that situation, I think, "What a complete waste of time!"
I agree that going to church to meet a guy is not the best reason to go. I think that if anyone is looking for Mr. or Ms. Right, they’re going to be disappointed a lot. That’s like we were saying before: about wanting to meet The One in an everyday way (when we’re not really expecting it). Lately I’ve been mentioning our "love lives" in my prayers. I pray that we’ll be patient and that we’ll meet the one that He wants us to meet. Beyond that, I try not to worry about it, but sometimes I do wonder when it will happen.
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**recommendations**
cd - Wilson Phillips
TV show - Who’s the Boss?
movie - Double Jeopardy
Funny moment: From Mama’s family, Mama and Iola were trying to sneak into the key shop where Vint worked. There’s a funny slapstick type scene where Iola is falling all over the place as she tries to get through the window.
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new questions - answered!
ever cried at work?- Oh, yes! At Cracker Barrel, I would regularly have breakdowns.
could you date a man in a wheelchair- yes (I was just thinking yesterday of an old As The World Turns ep, where Lila was married to Casey, who was a quadriplegic. Casey thought it was unfair for Lila to be stuck with him because she could do better. Lila loved Casey and insisted that didn’t matter. I thought how I could picture myself in Lila’s place - if you love someone you don’t think of them as a burden.)
how bout a blind man?- I don’t know
how bout a deaf man?- I think so
do you prefer Jello or Pudding?- pudding (Ummm….. puuddddiiinnnnggg. Jello’s good too, especially when there’s fruit in it!)
when you eat out do you usually eat everything on your plate or do you take some home?- I also eat everything on my plate.
do you live close to a mall or a shopping center?- about twenty minutes away from one - around here, that’s pretty close!
this is kinda far-fetched but when the summer Olympics were in Alanta, Georgia in 1996 did you attend any of the events?- no.
would you get up in front of a bunch of people and do karaoke?- I would if I could find a good song
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NEW QUESTIONS:
Do you ever refer to an email address as an "email addy"? Not usually. (I see that term everywhere: did I miss a memo that we’re supposed to be using it?)
What is a cool nickname that you’ve been called or would like to be called? One loud, brazen ex-Army guy I used to work with would call me "Sassy." I think that suits me! Another guy there called me "LooLooBelle." I like it when I spell it that way.
If there was a hidden camera on you at work, what would it catch you doing when you were alone and supposed to be working? A camera on me would catch *quite* a show! I do work sometimes (that’s my story and I’m stickin’ to it!) but sometimes, I’ll get up and dance or move around just to loosen up after sitting for so long.
Of the outfits that you wear regularly, how many do you think look really great on you? maybe five.
Do you think that you have a "good side?" yes, I think the right side of my face is noticeably different - and more attractive - than the left.
Do you find that you understand the words to songs now more than you did a few years ago? I really do. I’ll hear a song that I’ve heard a thousand times before and I’ll suddenly realize what they’re actually saying.
What would you say if you met someone famous that you really liked? I’d try to be cool and simply say that I like their work. I’d hope to have a camera and get my picture taken with them. I like to think that I wouldn’t be frighteningly silly or intimidated by them. They’re just people after all. (How does your mom’s saying go again? "They have to sit on the toilet …" Hey, it’s true!)
In no particular order, what are some things that you want to accomplish in your life? Buy a house, be on the cover of a magazine (for something good!) or on a tv show, visit other countries, visit all the states in the US, find a career that I love, get my degree, meet some famous people, marry my dream man, maybe adopt an adorable child from another country. (I used to want to publish my journals, but now I’ll settle for posting them on my website. Hmmm.. 14 years of journals: I’m gonna need more memory!)
Any plans for this weekend? I need to study/cram for test #3 Monday in my Probability class. (Don’t forget the final which is a week from Wednesday. <Insert panic attack here.>) I have two gigs on Sunday. Plus I have to try to win those N Sync tickets. (I really want to meet them! I could cross "meet famous people" off of my life’s To Do list!)
That’s it for today. Have a great weekend! God bless!
Anne
