Chix Chat

From: Michele
Sent: Saturday, July 28, 2001 7:09 PM
Subject: New e-mail address, same person!

Hi Anne!

As you can see, I have a new e-mail address.  Its *****@hotmail.com   I still have the ***** one, but I have all our e-mails to each other in the ***** one.  So when you write to me, sent it to the ***** one.  Kay?  And yes, it really is me!  You can send forwards and stuff of that nature to the ***** address.  My ***** account was getting too large with all our e-mails and right now my printer’s on the fritz.

Glad you like the pic of Arnold.  I have the same one (only bigger) hanging on the mirror above my dresser.  I also have a pic of Mitch Pileggi hanging on the mirror two.  Two sexy, bald men?!  How can I stand it?   Doesn’t Arnold look so menacingly sexy in that picture? If a man looked like that and he was walking towards me …. well lets just say I’d be doing some big time praying for God to keep me strong!

Re: not being photogenic- tell me if you do this.  Do you "pose" in front of the mirror when you put your make up on?  I do it all the time, and damnit, I think I look good!  So why do I look like a big fat thing in pictures?  Please don’t think I’m stuck up!  I sure everyone "poses" when they look in the mirror.  Another pondering, frustrating mystery of life- why at 11 o’clock at night when I’m ready to go to bed, my hair will look "perfect" but when I have to go somewhere I can’t seem to get it to do anything?  I even "pose" in front of the mirror and practice what I would say if I ever saw Chaz again.  Knowing myself, I’d probably be so shocked and flustered, I’d probably make a total fool of myself.  Gosh, am I sad or what?  Oh- you know what else I do (this is so embarrassing!)  I usually listen to my walkman when I get ready, and I’ll lip-sync to the songs!  Thank God there’s a lock on our bathroom door.  Could you imagine Danielle walking in and seeing me moving my lips and "posing" in front of the mirror?  Yes, I truly am sad!

Good luck with trying to win the N Sync tickets!  Believe me, you’re sure to have some fierce competition.  Think of every teenage girl in Huntsville making a mad dive for the phone!  I’ve never called a radio station.  There never really was a radio contest that I wanted to win.  Like I said before, I hate using the phone.  Its not so much talking on the phone.  If someone calls me, I’m fine with it.  But when I call someone, I’m always scared that they might have a "what do you want?" attitude. Its silly, I know, but I’ve gotten much better with it.  And I would definitely put my "uncomfortableness" aside if there was a "Win A Dream Date With Arnold Vosloo" contest!

That be cool if you could go to Ca for your work.  When will you know for sure if and when you’ll be going?  I’d like to go to Ca, but its not like I’m dying to go.  It would be neat to see and even meet some famous people, though.  You know what would really be cool?  If someday you’d come here or I go there and we meet each other in person.  Why not?  Its something to think about for the future.

Oh, I can kick myself too when I think how I clammed up around the guys I liked in high school!  Gosh, let me have the mind I have now and put it in my seventeen-year-old body!  I’d be talking up a storm.  I had a huge crush on Jeff in my junior and senior year.  He even sat next to me in my English class, and I cringe now to think that I was actually imtimadated by him.  First of all, he was a year younger than me!  Second of all he was really immature (and it had nothing to do with the fact that he was younger).  I can’t believe how I based my whole day on whether he talked to me or not.  How I felt so good when he smiled at me, and when he ignored me I felt like crap.  Well, live and learn, I guess.

Re: good looking men and ugly women and your comment "could it be that these women put out?"  Anne, that’s exactly what I think these women do!  I mean, what other reason could there possibly be?  I have maybe another explanation, which is really unfair to people like you and me:  maybe a good looking man is sick and tired of being "used" by beautiful women thus he goes for the complete opposite.  Maybe that’s why sometimes I’ll see a beautiful woman with an average guy.  Maybe she’s dated her fill of "gorgeous jerks" and the man she’s with now treats her like gold.  I’m caught in the middle.  I want a man to treat me like gold, but I have to be attracted to him too!  I mean an "ugly gentleman" isn’t any better than a "gorgeous jerk".  There has to be a middle ground.  If I could meet a man with looks about a 7 or 8 (on a scale of  1-10) and the personality of  7 or 8, then I’d be satisfied.

I used to read Cosmo religiously but you’re right.  It’s not the place to look for Christian dating advice.  It really is a total joke.  I mean, the magazine is supposed to be so pro-woman and pro-choice (obviously) but I remember there was once an article about virgins and how they practically made fun of women who were virgins! They practically advised a virgin to just go out and do it and get it done and over with.  That every woman should experiment a little sexually before she "settles down".  Oh, so I suppose having 50 dic*$s shoved up me would make me worthy in your eyes, Cosmo?   There was also once an article on the pro-life movement, and granted there are some pro-life fanatics, but if you just went by that article, you’d think every pro-life person was a religious nut ready to bomb an abortion clinic at the drop of the hat!  Its very deceiving. I’ll pick it up occasionally now, (when I’m waiting in line at the grocery store) and leaf  through it and I just shake my head at the so called "advice" that they give.  No wonder so many women are so screwed up!  And  you’d  think that they (and not just Cosmo.  When I say "they" I mean the whole freaking world!), would have the sense by now to think, "Gee, with all these teenagers who get pregnant (despite the fact that birth control is easier now than ever to get) and woman who have abortions and all these divorces and miserable, empty relationships and stds and everything, do you think maybe God’s way is maybe possibly the best way?  I mean, after all, married couples have more passionate, pleasurable sex.  Is it possible to be a sexual virgin?  To be with only one person your entire life?  Could it be that God the creator of the universe who knows every hair on every person’s head who ever walked this earth is actually right? "  They might think that, but unfortunately their next thought is " Nah!  We just have to find a way to make sex that isn’t God’s way, okay! "  This is why I struggle with my sexual feelings.  I just want to do right by God and the only way I can do that is if I save myself for my husband.

I’m sorry for rambling on like that, but it’s just that I have so much to say about this.  I’m pretty strong in my convictions so reading a magazine like Cosmo doesn’t make me think differently, but could you imagine an impressionable sixteen-year-old who’s being pressured by her boyfriend to have sex and she’s not really sure what to do reads that "virgin" article and realizes that maybe she should just "get it done and over with."  It’s very sad.  Do you know if there is any Christian woman’s magazines?  I would love to read it and compare it to a magazine like Cosmo.

Thank you for mentioning my love life (our love lives) in your prayers.  You can even put it in your prayer requests on your Praise Page.  I know I shouldn’t even worry about this.  I shouldn’t have to worry about anything, but I do.  Letting go and letting God is easier said than done.  Having faith in God is easy.  Trusting him is the hard part!
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Movie- The Untouchables (thought Double Jeopardy was great!)
tv show- Saturday Night Live (especially the early shows with Dan Aykroyd, Bill Murary, Chevy Chase, Gilda Radner, John Belushi, Larraine Newman and Garrett Morris) (liked Who’s the Boss)
cd- Sara Evans-Born To Fly (I have Wilson Phillips)
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Questions answered

Do I ever refer to an e-mail address as an "e-mail addy"- HUH??!!

what is a cool nickname that I’ve been called?- Well Bob (one of my "crushes" and no it wasn’t produce Bob) would always call me Hon and it drove me wild.  People will call me Babydoll sometimes.

If there was a hidden camera at work what would it catch me doing when I was supposed to be working?- gabbing with my co-workers, eating chocolate otypecastcandy case, standing in the aisles and reading the cards.  FYI- yes I do my work!!

Of the outfits I wear regularly, how many do I think I look really great in?- about 5

do I have a good side?- Hmmmm …. never really thought about it or noticed.

Do I find that I understand the words to songs now more than I did a few years ago?- yes!  when I was about 13 years old, I bought this tape with dance music on it and the one song (I forgot the name of it) they just kept on saying over and over "lets do it doggie style"  and me, completely oblivious to what that meant would blast that song and sang along with it!  I can only imagine what the neighbors thought!

What would I say if I met someone famous that I really liked?- Like you I would try to play it cool and not act all giggly and intimidated.  I mean, all joking aside men like Arnold and David are human beings and they have feelings just like everyone else.  I would just try to talk to them like they were a regular person.  I would ask them about their family and I would say what a great actor/actress/singer/writer I think they are.  Then after  I’d shriek and faint!

things I want to accomplish in my life- get something published, get married, have children, ,maybe adopt children, visit all 50 states, go to Ireland, go to Morocco, go to Canada, learn to drive!  There’s probably more but that’s all I can think of right now.

plans for the weekend- On Sunday I’m supposed to go to dinner and the movies with Shelly and Kristen two girls I work with.  That should be fun!

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new questions

If you were an actress, would you want to be "typecasted" (ie the virginal good girl, the slutty bad girl) or would you want to play a variety of roles?- I would like to play a variety.  I want to play so many different roles (nun in one movie, call girl in the next) that if there was an article on me in a magazine the title would say: "Who is the real Michele *****?"

have you ever caught the bridal boquet at a wedding?- no!  I run away from it!  I just hate attention called to myself!

do you have piles of books that you have to get to and yet you keep on buying more books?- Yes!  I could have a mini library and yet I keep on buying more books!

ok, you said you prefer pudding over jello.  What flavor of pudding do you like the most?  Butterscotch.  Yum!

If you’re watching a movie and a steamy sex scene comes on and your mom walks in the room, do you turn it off?  I probably wouldn’t, but I wouldn’t feel very comfortable.  I mean no matter how old I get, the words sex and parents just don’t mix!  To think that my mom and dad actually do it!  I don’t even want to think about it! 

If you could afford plastic surgery, what would you have done to yourself- I’d have a tummy tuck and liposuction on my hips.  Also, my boobs are…. um, kinda lopsided and I would like to get that fixed! (I can’t believe I’m telling you this!)

if you had to rate your life on a scale of  1-10, 1 being so miserable you’d wish you were dead, and 10 being absoultely, blissfully, perfect, how would you rate it?  An 8.  a 10 is just too unrealistic and I complain too much for it to be a 9!

Oh!  Funny moment!  From Mama’s family.  Mama was trying to get the family to help her clean out the attic and everyone was giving their lame excuses as to why they couldn’t.  Vint and Naiomi are sitting on the couch, being all lovey-dovey, and Vint says "I’d like to help you, Mama, but I threw my back out"  Seeing the two of them kissing, Mama comments dryly, "I wonder how."

we should have a Mama’s family only funny moments!  That show rocked!

see you on Monday!  Take care and God bless!

Michele