a - 29 august 2001
From: Anne
Sent: Wednesday, August 29, 2001 3:35 PM
Subject: It really does
Hi Michele!
I was just going to mention AV in my last email. I’m pausing here to think about him. Sigh! Drool! Swoon!
School is going pretty well so far; I have overcome my laziness to complete my first homework assignment which was due today. I stopped at the college bookstore yesterday and who did I see but Nicholas, the cute pony-tailed guy from my summer class. I’m not sure, but he may have gotten cuter! But did I speak to him? Of course not. (Just call me "Queen of the Delayed Reaction.") He passed on by and I did the same, but I think he smiled at me. Maybe he noticed the way half of my hair was doing an unruly flip thing - which I did not plan - and was trying not to laugh. As I was leaving the building I wondered if I should’ve asked if he wanted to get coffee sometime, but if I actually had the chance I can’t picture myself saying the words. Plus, what if he had said no?
Sara’s job hunting is on the back-burner once again; today she returns to work after her suspension. (Shucks, thanks for saying she’s lucky to have me. You know, I keep telling her that, but she’s not buying it.)
You asked if I think about Ray; I do sometimes. I actually saw him twice last week; once I saw him driving to work as I was driving home, and another time he was sitting in his car at the restaurant where he works (again about to go to work). Thinking about him brings about a range of reactions: I get angry at myself for staying with him so long; I wonder how he’s doing and think how I’d like to chat with him; I miss the (few) really good times that we shared. Anyhoo, Ray’s last name is *****, and Darrell’s is *****. I wonder what Nicholas’ last name is ….
On to more serious issues, I’m like you because I don’t often let myself really cry when things start to bother me. I’m also the type to get weepy over it months (even years) later, especially if I hear a sad song by Travis Tritt. I think that’s okay, though. I mean, who’s to say when we’re supposed to feel sad or how sad we’re supposed to feel? Everyone grieves in her own way, and that’s the way it should be.
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TV- Spiderman (he is *so* my hero!)
Movie - Aladdin
Song - Second Wind by Billy Joel
CD -
funny moment - from Friends. Rachel is still hung up on Ross even though he and his girlfriend Julie have decided to get a cat together. Rachel is out on a blind date but all she does is talk about Ross; drunk, she finally calls him and leaves a message that she is over him. The next day, he is at her place and asks to use the phone to check his machine. Hung over, she can barely remember the previous day. She groggily goes into another room as he is listening to his message. He calls to her, "Hey, Rach, there’s one from you." She steps from the other room panicking as she remembers the call. She says, "Hang up the phone!" He keeps listening, as she crosses the room, tries to climb over the couch and winds up climbing on his back trying to wrestle the phone away from him. He manages to hear the whole message before she gets the phone away. He says, very surprised, "You’re ‘over me’? When were you …. er … under me?"
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questions answered
describe your perfect ice cream sundae- chocolate ice cream (always!) with chocolate syrup, fresh strawberries, chopped nuts, whipped cream, and a cherry on top
are you the type who tries new things or do you stick with what you know?- More of a stick to what I know. I remember the last time I visited Chell, she was going on about "being afraid to try new things." I said, "Well, sometimes you try new things and you don’t like them." This was after I chose plain milk for my coffee instead of her hazelnut creamer. I already tried the creamer (could barely finish the coffee) and chose the milk.
what are turn offs for you (in men)? How much time do you have? BAD BREATH, long dirty fingernails, dirty hair, huge pot belly, scrawny girlish frame, no ambition, immature, doesn’t take responsibility, only wants to party, smoker, drug-addict, conceited, arrogant, know-it-all, thinks he’s always right, small-minded, puts other people down, sleeps around, talks very dirty or crudely,
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NEW QUESTIONS
Do you try not to cry in front of other people? Yes, because I know it upsets my family to see me cry.
Does your family often say "I love you" to each other? No, not in words. Sometimes we’ll make a general comment about "love my family" or "my family means the world to me" in passing conversation.
Have you thought about a last name that you’d like? Beasley or Davenport. Just my luck I’ll fall in love with someone with the last name of Fudpucker. 
Do you hesitate to throw things away because you think you might need them again? I really do! I hate to throw out clothes that I never even wear because I just know I’ll need them again. I also hate to delete old documents from the computer for the same reason.
Do you like to get souvenirs of places you’ve been? I used to, but lately I’m more content with the journey itself. (Whoa, that is deep!) I do like to take pictures though.
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That’s it for today. Talk to you soon! God bless! God bless! (Double blessing!)
Anne
