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From: "Anne"
Subject: Aye carumba!
Date: Wed, 3 Oct 2001 13:17:29 -0500

Ola, Michele!

I’m feeling Spanish today - someone sent me a letter about the Angel site in Spanish! I used a translation website to translate her words into English and my reply into Spanish.

No problema about a short-o letter-o. Okay, I’m stopping that now. Seriously, some days I only have time for a brief note, and some days there’s just nothing happening that’s note-worthy.

Last night, I set the VCR to record the 2-hour Buffy premier. About 8:15, I realized that I’d accidentally set the time to record from 6:59 to 8:03. I ran in to check it, and it had indeed stopped recording. I turned on the TV to watch what I was missing and reset the VCR to start in one minute. It kicked in just in time to record Buffy’s hand popping up through the dirt by her grave. Imagine if I hadn’t suddenly realized I set the timer wrong! Here’s the kicker, my mom was right there and watched me set the wrong time. She said, "Yes, it’s two hours tonight." I was, like, "Oh, yes. The big season premiere." WHY didn’t she say, "Don’t you have that just set for about an hour?" Then I’d have said, "ZOIKS! I do! Thanks for catching that!" I’m just glad I thought of it and only missed about ten minutes. After I watched the show before the VCR kicked in again, I wanted to watch the rest of it. So I left my studying efforts and went to watch it. When that went off, I rewinded and watched the first part. Man! That was a tough episode to watch - there were some bad, bad things going on! Not the good kind of bad either. It was the wrong thing to watch right before bed. It was definitely not a "feel good" episode!

My bosses weren’t here this morning. Praise the Lord, I’ve had the chance to cram. Call me crazy but I still feel pretty confident about the test. I’m definitely ready to have it over with!

In other news, during Grand Jury last week, Greg - Randy’s partner - told us that he is going on vacation this week … to Disney World. If he was going a bit later, you might’ve seen him. Greg kind of reminded me of my dad - a big guy with hair cropped very short - although Greg isn’t nearly as old as my dad was. I’d say Greg isn’t even forty.

Speaking of Randy it’s so funny that you mention kissing versus waiting to kiss. Just yesterday I recalled some of the losers I kissed - years ago - and instinctively my hand flew up to cover my face in shame. I absolutely do NOT think it’s weird to want to kiss only your husband or at least someone that you have strong feelings for. I have kissed guys before and it meant absolutely nothing to me; THAT is weird and wrong! It should mean something!

Climbing off that soapbox and onto another. Engagement?! Would have said "yes"! I am blown away! Please don’t think I’m judging, because I don’t know about their situation. But for myself, I can’t imagine marrying someone after dating him only a month. Maybe I’m just cynical about it, but I’d want to feel I really know for sure. I’d probably want to discuss the issue with him to death. I’d want to talk with him about his goals for the future, his family plans, his family’s past, the way he spends money, … there’s just so much. Like I said, I’d probably talk about it and think about it too much. But there is a lot involved in marriage - this person will be your partner on many levels: legally, spiritually, financially, etc. and he should also be your best friend. I think such a decision would take me a long while to be sure.

Side note: I agree with you - I bet your mother would have plenty to say if they were actually engaged. My mom used to always tell me to leave Sara alone when I’d be bugging her about stuff. (This was the main reason I could not stand my sister when we were younger. If I may gloat a bit, now I am the very independent one and Sara still needs Mom to bail her out on a lot of things.) Still, if Sara was thinking of marrying, or even dating someone that I thought wasn’t right, you better believe that I’d be telling her about it in the nicest way possible. It would be just like her to try to do whatever it was anyway just to do the opposite of what I said.

That’s it for today. I must go take this test. (insert biting the nails here)
Talk to you soon! God bless us all - every one!
Anne
 

From: Michele
Sent: Wednesday, October 03, 2001 10:47 AM
Subject: need your advice!

Hi Anne!
 
I’m sorry but today’s e-mail will be kinda short.  I have to be leaving for work in a little bit, but I just wanted to write to you about something.  I will write a longer e-mail when I get home from work tonight!
 
First of all, thanks for answering my engagement question.  I agree with you.  At least a year.  This is why I asked the question in the first place:
 
As you know Danielle and Brian had their one month anniversary the other night.  He gave her this really cute dolphin ring (she loves dolphins and lighthouses)  Danielle said to me, "Michele, when he gave me the ring box, my heart started pounding.  I thought it was an engagement ring!"  To which I replied logically, "Well, I hope you would have told him it was too soon to even think about getting married."  Danielle said, "If he really did propose, I would have said yes."  WOAH!  They’ve only been dating for ONE MONTH!  And it wasn’t even like they knew each other a long time before they started dating!  I keep on telling her that its best to date for at least a year minimum, but she keeps on resisting that idea.  I told her "Believe me, a year will go by so fast, it will be worth the wait."
 
Also, my mom really got on my nerves (since when is that new?)  She chewed me out saying that Danielles personal life is none of my business and that she is an adult now …. blah, blah, blah.  Yes, I  know Danielle is an adult and she has every right to live her life the way she wants too.  But I’m just trying to give her the best advice that I can.  So I said to my mom, "Oh, come on.  Don’t tell me you would have nothing to say if Danielle and Brian got engaged after dating only a month!"  And my mom said, "No I wouldn’t."  She is lying!  Either that or she just wants us to get married and out of the house, never mind that we might be making a mistake!  I’m just so sick and tired of her treating me like a child and not respecting my opinion!
 
One more thing- please tell me your thoughts about this- Other than that meaningless, very unromantic  kiss Harry gave me on our only date, I’ve never been kissed.  Part of me wants to wait until my wedding day to kiss my husband, and the other part just wants to attack him on our first date! (lol).  Do you think I’m wierd for wanting to wait until I’m married to even kiss a guy?  I just think kissing is a very special, very intimate thing and I only want to kiss my husband!  People might think I’m this virginal prude but it’s the opposite!  I think a kiss will be the undoing of my virginity, because if I’m kissing a man who really turns me on, I know I’m not going to want to stop there!  I just- I feel really strongly about this, and the man who is my soul mate is going to have to understand this.  Of course he will.  After all, I’m trusting God completely with my love life.  My future husband will respect my feelings.  I mean, Danielle and Brian have already had their first kiss (on their third date)  but who’s to say that Brain is THE ONE?  ANd she’s had kissed other men before.  I just want to save EVERYTHING I have for one man.
 
gotta go now.  Sorry this is pretty short.  Have a great day!  Take care and God bless!
 
Michele

From: "Anne"
Subject: Buffy lives … but she’ll have to wait!
Date: Tue, 2 Oct 2001 14:45:32 -0500

Hi, Michele!

WHADDAYA MEAN, "MA’AM"?!?!?!? I swear all you young whippersnappers! Back in my day ….

Anyway, tonight is the season premiere of the show that is specifically for a mature audience (like myself): Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I really want to see it, but I really need to start studying for my test which is *tomorrow.* I’ll have to tape it and add it to the rapidly growing pile of tapes I need to watch.

Ahhh … Randy! (I’m still sighing when I say his name.) Let’s see what does he look like . . . you know Arnold Vosloo? Well, he doesn’t look at all like that. I’ll describe him: he has reddish blond hair (more blond than red), even his eyelashes are that light color - it’s very interesting. He’s not pale though - his face is really brown and weathered, but nice. He has a moustache, if I remember correctly. I’d say he’s a little taller than I am, maybe he’s five-seven or five-eight. Oh, and very important: he was NOT wearing a wedding ring! I don’t know how old he is, but I would guess early to mid thirties. He’s actually sort-of plain looking, but I still find him irresistible!

Another cop, Greg, who is Randy’s partner, I think, was telling us some stories about the two of them. He told us in our first jury session how he and Randy heard that some drug dealer from Nashville hired someone to kill them both, but they found out about it and caught the guy. (At that point it really hit me just what a dangerous job they have.) This time, Greg told us how they were at a local grocery store burning a large stash of marijuana in the store’s incinerator. Greg said he was in the room throwing the pot in the fire for about two hours. He didn’t know that the filter clogged up so the fumes were backing up into the room. He said Randy came in and saw Greg staring at the wall. Randy said, "What are you doing?" Greg said he turned, looked at Randy and laughed. Randy knew it was time to get him out of there. I thought that was such a funny story: I can just picture it Randy going in and sees the guy staring at the wall, completely spaced out. Greg said that later he got hungry for Twinkies and cussed out some kid working at the grocery store because they didn’t have Twinkies. All of this is according to what Randy told Greg, because Greg of course doesn’t remember anything from during that time frame.

Talking about people smoking pot reminds me of Ray; I think he used to get high more than he would admit. When I look back at some pictures that we took, I can see it so clearly now with his beady eyes and complete lack of care. You know, with my talent for spotting drug addicts, I could really be of use to a certain local police investigator. . . . . . . . sorry, my mind wandered as I thought of the ways I could be of use. (WOO HOO!) I may have told you that I suspected Ray would try to call me on my birthday - well he didn’t. I’m glad, although I was kind of hoping that he’d ask me out again so that I could turn him down in an un-nice way. "Will I go out with you? No, I don’t think so. I’m looking for someone that I’m actually attracted to."

That Greg guy also told us that he doesn’t eat at any of the local restaurants because the cooks know who he is and he doesn’t want them to spit in his food. I was VERY impressed that he knew that! I used to work at a ***** and some of the cretins there told me what they did to the sheriff’s food one time. I remember being so mad at that; one of those cretins was my ex-boyfriend Jamie who can be summarized in one word: blech! My point was that Greg really impresses me. Don’t get me wrong it’s not like with Randy. (Greg is married.) I wish Randy would’ve shared some stories with us - he seems a little more shy than Greg.

I am wondering if getting back into my regular routine is making me calm down a bit about Randy. I hope not - it’s nice to like someone, even if it’s just a crush. I’m going to keep watching the newspaper just in case his picture turns up, but I bet he tries to keep his face out of the paper. If I do find one, I’ll scan it and send it to you.

I honestly don’t know why Sara keeps putting off leaving *****. I think she remembers the times she’s tried to find something new before and she gets really frustrated/scared thinking that she won’t be able to find anything again. I know that if she’d look she could find something good. I know it’s tough to keep looking, I think she gives up way too easily. It’s like with you and your book: you keep looking, and you definitely should because the rewards of continuing to look will *far* outweigh the few frustrations of looking. Well, that was a wordy sentence, but you know what I mean, right?

So it’s B & D’s 1 month anniversary - I forget is that the Paper or the Plastic anniversary? Just kidding! It’s great that things are going well for them. How are you doing with your Green Eyed Monster problem? As I started this paragraph I started to be a bit jealous too! I bet my bottom lip was poking out as I thought, "Everyone has someone but me!!" I think my recent crush is what brings that on: I think how wonderful it would be to like someone and to actually get to be with them. Compared to that being alone really womps! Anyway, it’s good that Brian can be keeping an eye out for someone good (featured word: good) for you. So, what does Danielle say about Brian? Does she go around saying how much she loves him and all that (blech!), or is she more cool and casual about it? Does she ever say she loves him?

I sure am writing a lot lately. Hey, I missed talking to you too! Especially after all my "feelings" for Randy - I’d think, "I’ve got to tell Michele about this!" Then I’d panic a little and think, "What if she’s gone, like so many before her?" I know: I should have known better. (Insert sheepish grin here.)

That’s it for today. Talk to you soon!
God bless!
God bless America!
Anne

"I do not regret the things I’ve done, but those that I did not do." Rory Cochrane (That is so true! I’m inspired to go find Randy.)
 

From: Michele
Sent: Monday, October 01, 2001 8:50 PM
Subject: Never fear, I am here!

Hi Anne!

Never fear, I am here!  Like I said before, if you don’t hear from me for awhile it means either A) my computer is down or B)I was kidnapped and being ravished by Arnold Vosloo!  It’s good to hear from you!  After over a week I was in "Anne" withdrawl!

Oooh, so you like Randy now?  What does he look like?  Is he married?  To answer your question (do I remember something clearly, but then I wonder if it happened?)  Yes I do that!  Especially concerning all the guys I had crushes on.  Something will happen and as I reflect upon it, I think "Did that really happen or was that just my wishful thinking?"

The computer is pretty good now.  A friend of my dad’s fixed it.  My dad bought it used.  My logical thinking is why don’t just buy a new one?  I mean, this is the second time since we got it last year that we had to have it fixed.  So the money to fix it just equals a new computer.  My dad is the type who will wait until something is on it’s last leg before he’ll go out and buy a new one.  I’m like "just pay the freaking money for it!"

Today is Brian and Danielle’s one month annniversary.  Whoop de doo!  No, seriously I am happy for her.  I know God has the most wonderful man planned for me and I just have to be patient.  I really hope that now since Danielle has found someone (hopefully) God will speed things along for me!  Oh Brian did say to Danielle. "I know your sister is a nice girl and I don’t want to fix her up with a jerk."  Danielle made it clear to Brian that if he did wanted to fix me up with someone he knew- I wouldn’t date just anyone.

Thank you about my story.  I was just so floored when I received the letter from Woman’s World.  I sent the story out in July, so I kinda forgot about it.  When I realized it was from Woman’s World, I expected the typical, "Thank you for your submission, but … blah blah blah" letter, but the first word I read was "Congratuations…."  I just freaked!  My mom was the first person I told and she freaked!  I told Danielle next and she freaked!  You’re right.  Getting a short story published will look good on my resume.  I just got a response back from that agent.  It was a no so I have to send my query off to the next person on my list.  Knowing my luck the very last person on my list will be the one to accept it!  This is why I mustn’t give up!

Why is Sara waiting so long to call *****?  Why in the world would she want to stay at *****?  Is she afraid of (as Miss Brahams would say) "the unknown"?  OK, no job is perfect.  I have my complaints about *****, but it just seems that she’s really unhappy at *****.  I was really scared thinking about quitting ***** two years ago and now I can say that it was the best thing I ever did.  I think "well hell, if I knew it would be this easy, I wouldn’t have stayed at ***** for as long as I had!"

Speaking of perfect jobs, Danielle said to me "no job is perfect and no one can be completly happy with their jobs."  and I said, "Oh, I’d be happy being Arnold Vosloo’s body waxer!  and after I was done, I would have to test the job with my mouth!"  (insert very wicked laugh here!)  Now that would be a perfect job!!

Danielle and I saw Zoolander today.  It was pretty funny in that stupid way.  Billy Zane has a small part in it. He is bald and in a way he reminds me of Arnold.  No, he didn’t look too shabby!  Yes, I must have a thing for bald men!! (she says for the upteenth time )

Oh!  Happy Birthday!! I haven’t mailed your gifts out yet.  Yes, I had to do that!  I wanted to!  My employee discount comes in handy!  Sorry, no love potion.  You’re 29 now, right?  should I call you Mamn?  (giggle giggle)

well, that’s it for now.  Till next time, take care and God Bless!
 
Michele
 
GOD BLESS THE USA!!

From: "Anne"
Subject: Be on the lookout for … Dreamy Cops!
Date: Mon, 1 Oct 2001 13:19:44 -0500

Hi Michele!

Well, I *was* starting to get a little worried about you. I figured there was a logical explanation. And I know that sometimes people just get busy.

Speaking of which, it’s crazy here! I’ll work backward: I have a test on Wednesday that I am *so* not ready for! I had three inventories yesterday and got called into a last minute gig on Saturday. I missed class on Monday last week because of Grand Jury duty.

Grand Jury Duty needs a paragraph just for itself, so I’ll put that here. I had to reschedule my dentist appointment again because I knew I wouldn’t get to leave GJ by 3:00 on Tuesday. We had over 200 cases to hear this time; we only had 167 last time. Yes, my dreamy cop - Steve is his name - was back. He looked a bit different; still tall and manly but I think his hairline is starting to recede. Fear not, he is still dreamy; his shoulders and his six-foot-ness have not receded one bit! This time, however, I find myself obsessed with … AHEM! … interested in another cop - Randy. (I sigh dreamily every time I say or write his name …) I believe that he works with the drug task force; I don’t know what it is about him but I cannot get him off of my mind! I have been driving past the police station every chance I get just in case he might be walking outside. In GJ, right before he came in to talk to us, we all took a five-minute break to stretch out legs. If I recall correctly, as I stepped into the hall my eyes met his. The sad thing is, I can’t remember if that really happened or if that was another occasion and I’m simply remembering it the way I want to. Do you ever do that? You can remember something so clearly, but then again you don’t know if it really happened?

I’m sure I will have plenty more to say about Dreamy Cops, but I’ll have to come back to it when I have more time.

How is your computer doing now? Did you have to have it replaced or was someone able to fix it?

So you finally met Brian, eh? How are things going with him and Danielle? It’s great that he’s thinking of someone good for you; don’t underestimate the power of networking! And he knows bikers? Growl! My advice would be: if you get the chance to hang around Brian some you should, so he can be wow-ed by your charm and personality and then he can give you a very hearty recommendation to his friends! He’ll think, "Okay, I’m going to have to find someone extra-great for Michele; she deserves better than just some plain old guy …"

I saw your email about the short story going to be published: THAT IS SO GREAT!! I know you’re excited about it. Have you heard anything from the people about your book? Hey, if they’re looking for "experienced" writers, having that short story (and others too, no doubt!) published will look good on your resume!

In other news, Sara is still "looking" for a job. She came home Friday upset after an argument with a manager; the manager had told her to call back to see if she still had a job. I kept telling her that losing that job could be the best thing that ever happened to her. She didn’t buy that. I also told her how that store can’t keep any help, so they’d really hurt themselves if they tried to fire her. She had to wait until the next day to call; she’s not fired. What a surprise. She was saying this weekend how she "needs to call *****." She keeps putting that off. I try not to push her on it; it would be better for her to replace ***** completely instead of picking up a part-time job. Although I am encouraging her to try to find a job at the police department . . .

One more thing - for today - about Dreamy Cops: how cool would it be to tell dopehead Ray that I’m dating a drug task force guy? I smile wickedly every time I think of introducing them. Let’s face it, I smile wickedly every time I think about Randy and a pair of handcuffs. You would not believe how much I have been thinking about that guy! I have been scheming of ways to see him again and - gasp! - talk to him. What can I do: go into the police station and casually ask for his phone number? LOL. I could claim there is an emergency and I need his help; no wait, that’s illegal. I know, I know: it’s ridiculous for me to obsess over this man that I know nothing about. I don’t even know if he has any of the qualities on my "list." It’s just so rare that I meet someone that I’m actually attracted to; it’s hard to believe (and also quite depressing to think) that it’s just another crush.

Speaking of crushes, I have also been hearing good reviews of The Mummy Returns: I cannot wait to see him … I mean … it! I am just in the mood to see a *fine* guy in an arm band . . . WOO HOO!

There was something else … oh, yes: it’s my birthday - woo hoo! I’m taking off this afternoon to do a little shopping. Did you say that you’re sending presents? You didn’t have to do that! It doesn’t happen to be a love potion does it? I know just how I’d use it!

That’s it for today. Talk to you soon! God bless!
Anne

"Early in the morning, I can’t sleep. I can’t work and I can’t eat. I feel drunk all day - can’t concentrate! Maybe I’m makin’ a big mistake … Oh no, not again! It hurts so good; I don’t understand . . . infatuation!" Rod Stewart

From: Michele
Sent: Thursday, September 27, 2001 4:16 PM
Subject: Perfect Timing!

Hi Anne!
 
What perfect timing!  You’re out this week and my computer crashed last Thursday and it wasn’t fixed until today! I was worried that you would be frantic, wondering where I was! Anne, if you ever don’t hear from me in a few days, it’s probably because my computer is down.  Damn thing!
 
So how was jury duty?  Did you see that cute cop again?  Did you see anyone cute?  I’m glad you agreed with me that firefighters are sexy.  You do have a point when you said when it’s your time to go, it’s your time to go.  There are many firefighters who live long lives and there are many averge Joes who work very "safe" jobs who die much younger.  I figured whoever my soul mate is, God is going to let us have a long marraige.
 
I finally met Brian.  He seems like a nice guy.  Very friendly and funny.  As long as he treats Danielle good, that’s all that matters.  He told her that he thought I was beautiful.  I was flattered by the compliment.  He’s trying to think of someone to fix me up with.  He knows a couple bikers.  Hmmm… that piqued my interest!  I wonder if he knows anyone who looks like Arnold Vosloo!
 
Speaking of which, I’m so physched because The Mummy Returns is the selection of the month in The Columbia House Video Club.   I’m not getting it, am I? (lol).  Arnold Vosloo is sooo yummy!  Sorry, I had to say it!  When I speak of him, I am not responsible for my actions!
 
None of the new shows really strike my fancy.  I don’t really watch network television, with the exception of a few shows.  I mostly watch Nick at Nite.  THis week they’re having a Family Ties marathon.  I loved that show!  I still do!  Michael J Fox was so good in it.  Have I mentioned I had the hugest crush on him when I was twelve?  I wonder how he is doing.  Its so sad that someone so young has to be suffering.  He is such a nice person too.
 
A new domain name for you?  Hmmm … let me think about that.  How bout Iwantasexyman.com?  (giggle. giggle).
 
How is Sarah doing?  Is she still looking for another job?
 
I did watch the president’s speech last week and I totally agree with you.  While he did deliver a good speech, I hope he follows up on it.  These people can’t get away with what they done!
 
So many sad stories about the families of the victims.  One woman lost her husband, and a week later gave birth to their first child.  How tragic.  I mean, having a baby is supposed to be one of the most joyful times in life, and this poor woman can’t even share it with her husband!  Did you hear the story of the blind man who was on the 68th floor and his guide dog led him safely out?  God bless that sweet dog!  Even though this horrible event happened, I have peace in my heart that God is in control.  And once again I have to wonder how can anyone not believe in God?
 
As you probably know by now, I am having a short story of mine published!  It is called "Second Chances" and it will be in the January 1st issue of Womans World magazine!!  My first published story!  Woo-hoo!  I figured, why wait around for my book when I can be writing short stories.  I sent out another query to another agent last week, and I’m waiting a reply from them.  I also completed a second short story and I’ll be sending it out soon.  Wish me luck!
 
Oh!  I wanted to tell you that I have bought your birthday presents and I will mail them out to you asap!  I hope you get them by October 2, but as you already know I am the queen of procrastination!
 
well, that’s all for now!  If I think of anything else, I will send you another e-mail.  Till next time, take care and God bless!  God bless the USA!
 
Michele

From: "Anne"
Subject: All quiet on the Southern front
Date: Fri, 21 Sep 2001 16:17:03 -0500

Hi, Michele!

I haven’t received an email from you today, but I wanted to send you one, since I’ll be out next week. I thought that you might be busy or you might be having Internet trouble; the Net hasn’t worked right here for most of the day.

I’ll plan to go to the library or to the school’s computer lab at least once next week to check my ***** mail and do an update for the Angel site. So if you get a chance, you could drop me a line at the angelfire address.

Next week will be a good time for me to be out of work; there is a large music festival - Big Spring Jam - that will be literally right next to our office. They’re closing off some of the streets so the bosses will have to drive all through the complex to get to our parking lot. Not I - woo hoo!

I told my mother this morning that I’d love an hour or two at work to try my homework since I’ve a busy weekend (and Monday) planned. Well, I got my wish. I worked the first problem very quickly then tried the second and got stuck. I moved on to the third and got stuck. True to form, I got discouraged and quit. I got up and moved around a bit to make up for sitting for all this time.

Did you watch the President’s speech last night? Do you usually watch the Presidential addresses? I don’t usually, but I watched last night. (I must be getting older, huh.) I thought it was a very good speech - it made me feel a little better. However I also agree with one of the post-speech commentators, that we will need to see some follow-up to that speech for it to be effective.

In other news, I added a Praise and Prayer Request Message board to my Praise Page so that visitors can post their own prayer requests or positive comments. I hope a lot of people will visit and post their requests and comments.

That’s it for today. Talk to you later! God bless!
Anne

From: "Anne"
Subject: Anne-Vosloo.com?
Date: Thu, 20 Sep 2001 14:22:12 -0500

Hi Michele!

I hope the weather there is as beautiful as it is here today; it’s so sunny and blue-skied and just the right temperature. And I have to work Thanks to that Nimbda virus I’ve been avoiding the Internet as much as possible today. I’ve also got quite a bit of work done. Imagine that!

Yes, I very much enjoyed those pictures of Arnold! Did you say he was married? Doesn’t that just figure?! Let’s keep the hope alive that he has a double somewhere out there who is identical in every way - insert wicked smirk here - except he’s single.

At the Olive Garden, I enjoyed a generous portion of the eggplant par-mee-shan-uh. (Pardon the phonetic spelling!) Speaking of yesterday’s lunch, as we five were all leaving, I was at the head of the pack as we made for the door. Gary was close by telling me that he’s sure he’ll be calling me soon with some admin questions. I reached the front door and was about to open it, but I paused to look out to see if it was still raining. Suddenly it opened easily as Gary was right there behind me and to the right a bit, his husky, strong arm opening the door, his body close enough to wrap me in a big hug . . . sorry. Am I not pathetic?

I agree - firemen are sexy! And don’t think I’ve forgotten about that dreamy cop - I’ll be dressing up extra nice next week at jury duty in hopes of seeing him. But, like you said, I don’t think I could fall in love with a guy in a dangerous profession. Then again, when people say they are scared to fly, I believe that when it’s your time to go, it’s your time where-ever you are. Similarly we could marry a nice safe accountant and an airplane could hit his office out of the blue, or he could die from eating a bad fish sandwich at McDonalds’. Or we could marry a firefighter - a sexy firefighter - and he could fight fires all his life and finally die of natural causes at age 95.

Are you planning to watch any of the new shows that are coming out this fall? I’m planning to see if Alias is any good. I also plan to watch that show 24 when it premieres on October 30th; I’ve heard rave reviews about it. It seems there was something else that I was going to check out, but I can’t recall. Of course I’ll see my big three shows - Angel, Buffy, and Charmed. I may need to buy some more videotapes …

I did not know that my site was inaccessible for a week. I try to check it out at least once a week to make sure it’s up and running, but I bet it was over a week ago when I last checked.

In other web site news, I am thinking of getting my own domain name. Instead of typing www . geocities.com/mychezanne you could just type www . anne.com or whatever. Actually anne.com is taken; I’m trying to think of something cool. I just know as soon as I get one I’ll think of the perfect one. There are a lot of options - I could get a name and set up a new site, or I could get a name and have it forward to the site I already have. It’s really cool - for several nights I actually could not sleep because I kept trying to think of the perfect name. (How silly is that?) The best one I’ve thought of so far is icount.com but it’s taken. I liked it because it had a double meaning; it could refer to my math minor and it could also refer to my selfworth. I want a name with a good double meaning like that, and I’d also like for it to refer to levels, because I feel that I’m a multi-level person. Hey, what about multi-levelgirl.com? Or not. So do you have any ideas?

I’m glad you liked my drawing. I drew it on the evening of Sept. 11 - I wanted to do something to show my support. Yesterday I was crying on the way home again as I thought about a photograph I saw on the Internet. It was a picture of one of the pilots wives and her two girls (I guess they were about 8 and 12) at the pilot’s funeral. The woman was clutching the flag they presented to her - it’s such a very sad scene. She lost her husband in that horrible way, and they gave her a flag. (What else can they do?) Writing about it now, I get tears - the senseless tragedy of it all! That man will never see his girls grow up. And every person that is missing or dead has left behind equally tragic circumstances. It’s absolute madness!

That’s it for today. Talk to you tomorrow! God bless!

Anne

God bless America - land that I love! Stand beside her, and guide her through the night with the light from above . . .

From: Michele
Sent: Wednesday, September 19, 2001 8:01 PM
Subject: I’ll take the sexy/sweet man (hair optional!)

Hi Anne,

You’re welcome about the e-greeting card.  And I’m sure you appreciated the AV ones as well.  Damn, he is fine!  And he’s such a sweet guy too.  I think I’ve said before that sexy/sweet combination is fatal for me!

Danielle and I went out to eat at the Aspinwall Grille today.  The food there is pretty good.  I got a portabello mushroom and steak sandwich.  I wonder, what is it with me and portabello mushrooms lately?  To answer your question (do they taste like steak), IMO, they don’t.  But they still are very tasty!

What did you have at The Olive Garden?  It sounded like you had a pretty nice time.  Of course the guy that was leaving and you found attractive was married.  Its a law of nature.  I swear, I think I was destined to be someone’s mistriss! (lol).

I’m anticipating the new season of Touched By An Angel which starts this Saturday.  I’m also somewhat looking forward to the season premire of The X-Files, just to see how they are going to explain the fact that David Duchovny won’t be in it.  I truly hope this will be the last season for it!  Speaking of Angel, Shelly had to stop at Blockbuster before we went to the movies last night to return some videos and she rented Valentine.  I said, "Oh, my friend is in love with him.  You know David Borenaz (sp?). "  And Shelly said, "Yeah, he is pretty cute."

Did you know that I couldn’t get into your website for about a week?  I was finally able to today.  I liked the picture you drew.  Very patraiotic.  My disbelief over the past week’s events still boggles my mind.

As I was watching the clean up and  recovery effort in NYC, a very insensative thought crossed my mind (well, maybe not insensitive, but not something to be thinking upon watching such a sad scene):  I wonder, why are firemen so good looking?  They are!  They just have that rugged, handsome sexiness that I’m so attracted too.  Well, most of them do anyway.  Chaz kinda had that look.  If I didn’t know what he did (he installs hardwood floors) I would have guessed he was a firefighter.  Knowing my luck, I’ll fall in love with a fireman.  But I don’t want to fall in love with someone in a dangerous profession!  But then again "the Lord works in mysterious ways…"

gotta go now.  Till next time, take care and God bless!

God bless the USA!

Michele