a - 13 september 2001
From: Anne
Sent: Thursday, September 13, 2001 3:03 PM
Subject: Angels in Heaven
Hi Michele!
Again, we are so alike! I also was crying yesterday, several times. I heard some tribute songs that our dj’s put together - did you hear any of those? It’s where they mix blurbs from the news reports with a very touching song. The best one so far that I’ve heard is from a group called Higher Faith - the song is "Angels in Heaven." I downloaded it from www.acetj.com - it’s about a 3Mb file, but I knew I wanted it. I can’t listen to it yet though because it tears me up. On the way home, I was crying that painful kind of crying, where you’re just so sad you hurt all over. I wanted to bawl and scream for those - so many - innocent lives shattered and lost. I thought, "How can you cry enough for thousands of people?"
Don’t apologize for going on about it: I get angry too! What burns me up the most is that some people in other countries are literally dancing in the street with joy that this has happened. I admit that I think very un-Christian thoughts about those people! We don’t do that when we hear of the violence they inflict on one another. Sara said some guy at ***** said rather uncaring, "Well, it was just those people’s time to go." That may be the case, but it does not make me less angry at those who deliberately and maliciously planned this evil act!
In other news: men! I may start crying again - or maybe just get angry again when discussing that topic. The only name I have for the Australian guy is "Antany." Could it be Antany Gibson? Doubtful. I was on that cross daily site this morning and some guy sent me an instant message. Usually the guys that do that are from India, so I send a few chat lines then say "I must go to work." (Side note: what business do they have contacting me? Does the word "local" not have an international translation?) The guy this morning was from Egypt; I asked why people in Cairo were dancing in the street, happy about what happened here. He said those people weren’t Christians. (Gee, ya think?) We chatted about the attacks for a few minutes, then he sent the line "Are you marry?" I thought, "Oh for crying out loud! Talk about changing the subject abruptly!" I tried to change the subject back, and he wrote, "Why you no marry?" How am I supposed to answer that? Because I have standards? Because men are scum and just don’t "get" me? Because it hasn’t been God’s will for me yet? I promptly gave him the "nice chatting with you - I must go to work" line.
Like you said, they say it’ll come when you’re not looking. It’s hard to not look though! Lately it seems whenever I meet a guy that I find semi-attractive, I wonder if he is the one for me. Some guy came in the other day - he was some business guy who had a rather nice face and an average frame. He talked to my boss a bit then left. I wondered briefly if he’d call back for whatever reason he could think of to talk to me. I considered how that guy would be good husband material; then I realized that he’s probably already someone’s husband. Sigh.
John (Inman) is moving to Oklahoma. (Oklahoma! Where the sun comes sweeping across the plains… sorry … is that even the right line for that song?) I actually asked to be off from ***** so I can go to church on Sunday morning - the preacher’s last day. I imagine that it’ll be a pretty emotional day.
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today’s recommendation - I really like the Saturday morning cartoon, Recess. I’m not weird; there’s just something very good about a leisurely Saturday morning watching cartoons and drinking coffee with no place to go. 
(I read that Touched By An Angel summary - it sounded a bit tragic, with one of them having leukemia. Imagine finding the love of your life and then finding that one of you has a terminal illness)
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That’s it for today. Talk to you soon! God bless America!
Anne
