m - 17 june 2002
From: Michele
Sent: Monday, June 17, 2002 8:23 AM
Subject: Scooby-Dooby-Dooo!!!!
Hi Anne!
I am sooo sorry I didn’t write to you on Friday! I had went out with Shelly in the afternoon, and by the time I got home I figured you were finished working. Bad Michele!!
Anyway, we saw Scooby-Doo. It was cute. Matthew Lillard (Scream, 13 Ghosts) plays Shaggy and does an amazing job at it! He sounded just like him! The theater was pretty crowded, mostly kids and their parents. I looked at Shelly and mused, "I think we’re the only adults here who don’t have a child with them." 
Anyway, how are you? I hope you had received my package by now, and I hope it lifts your spirits. That Christian messageboard you posted a prayer request on, what is the address for it? Yes, to simply "trust Jesus" is sometimes best. I told Bob about it ( I hope you don’t mind) and he said "Well, Anne will certainly be in my thoughts and prayers."
I hope you did well on the test, even though you didn’t feel confidant about it. I’m sure you did well. I don’t think you ever failed a test since you and I started talking to each other over a year ago. Me? I’m the queen of cramming! I waited until the last second to study for a test, and somehow I always managed to make A’s & B’s on them… well, except for my 10th grade history class. Jeeze-Louise, that class was tough! I shamefully admit that I cheated on a test or two just to pass the class with a low C.
Yes, Kristin is the same one whose friend was attacked (that was the Labor Day incident). I can tell that Kristin is one of Nora’s "favorites" I mean, I’m not trying to sound like I’m jealous and I do like Kristin and Nora but think about it, If Nora didnt like Kristin, she would have been gone after the first time she didn’t show up for work. THey just seem so "chummy" with each other. I try not to let it bother me, and for the most part it doesn’t, mainly because Kristin doesn’t use it to her advantage. I know I can talk to you about these things because I know you would probably feel the same way if you were in my shoes.
Also, me and Danielle were talking last night and well, rememer the whole "you don’t do your work" incident last October and then a few weeks later Mary, Ed, Sue, and Audrey were fired? Well, I think I told you when the "you don’t do your work" incident happened, Mary was in the back with us, and as Nora was berating me, Mary just stood there. Didn’t come to my defense or anything. So when she was fired, just a teeny-tiny part of me smugly thought "good." Was it wrong for me to feel that way? I mean, I know this happened over 8 months ago but I think about these things from time to time. Mary was definitely Nora’s pet. I mean, even to this day she willl go on and on about how wonderful Mary was. Mary was nice and everything, but I didn’t see how she was so great. Oh well. I shouldn’t dwell on it, huh? I just thought I would get that off my chest.
Speaking of work, its been a pretty hectic weekend. Yes, people as usual waited until the last minute to buy their Father’s day cards and gifts. Unbelievable! It wasn’t as busy as it was Mother’s Day weekend, but I was really stressed out. I even felt dizzy a couple of times and I was short of breath, a couple things that happen when I’m about to have a panic attack. Thank God I calmed myself down and didn’t do anything embarassing like scream or pass out!
I think my anxitey is also stemmed from thinking about Bob coming here in August. I’m just scared that I’m going to disappoint him somehow (and vice versa). Also I’m worried thinking he might have certain "expectations" from me, you know, sexually? He assures me that he respects my wishes and would wait forever for me, but I get scared that he might eventually lose patience with me. I’m afraid that in moment of passion I might let things go to far only to feel horribly guilty about it afterwards. I mean, before I had someone I could firmly say "I won’t do this or that before I’m married" but now that I do, and we will soon be in each other’s arms, it isn’t so easy. I don’t want to do anything to disappoint God, and yet I’m painfully aware of all these feelings I’m having. Anne, could you please pray about this situation? I really would appreciate it!
well, that’s it for today. Until next time, take care and God bless!
God bless the USA!
Michele
