Chix Chat :: faith

October 6, 2009

a - 17 june 2002

Filed under: from-anne, guys, work, feelings, faith

From: Anne
Sent: Monday, June 17, 2002 1:45 PM
Subject: 48, maybe 49!!

Hi, Michele!

No problem about not writing on Friday, although I was a little surprised. I do understand though.

It sounds like the weekend at the store was horrendous! I’m not surprised that people waited til the last minute to get their cards, but I’m sorry to see that it was taking such a toll on you! I’m very glad that you made it through okay. What did you do for your dad to celebrate Father’s Day?

This weekend I worked double shifts both days! Four stores in two days = zoiks! Plus I have another store tonight, one on Wednesday, and one on Friday. Not to mention two stores on both Saturday and Sunday of the next weekend. Man.

Ron worked both stores on Saturday and ran the first store yesterday, so that was kind of interesting. On Saturday, en route to the second store, he was telling us how he got a ticket three years in a row on his birthday. Curious, I ventured to ask, "So, when is your birthday?" He asked, "Why do you want to know?" I said, "Just curious." (I wish I’d said sarcastically, "I’m writing a book.") Someone else mentioned that I knew it was another ***** person’s birthday, then Ron casually changed the subject. Now I’m curious why he’s so protective of that info! I heard he was a private person, but sheesh! Maybe he thought I wanted to know the year - which I do - but I was just wanting the month and day. Apparently it’s classified!

Also on Saturday, I was wondering aloud if we’d stop and get a bite to eat - you know, since we’d probably be gone about 12 hours working both of those stores and traveling. The others told me to ask Ron. I did: he replied that he accepts bribes. En route to Taco Bell, he mentioned again that he accepted bribes, to which I responded, "I’ll buy you a burrito…?" He said, "Y’all do not want me to eat a burrito." (Talk about too much information.) Another employee was really surprised that Ron agreed to stop somewhere; they were, like, "How did you get him to do that?" I told them, "I asked him."

As we left Sunday’s store, one lady in the van told Ron, "Well you’re six years older than I am, but …" and then whatever else she was talking about. I was intrigued; Sara whispered that Ava - the lady who said that - was either 42 or 43. So Ron is either 48 or 49!! Whoa! Sara also managed to ask yesterday, "Ron, do you have any kids?" to which he replied, "H*ll no." Sure, *that* he’ll share.

Mood-wise - I was down a lot of the weekend. This morning I woke up okay then got to work and was down a bit. It’s a veritable roller coaster ride. (Hopefully I’ll soon learn from that not to trust my feelings, but to go by faith!) I *know* I think about it too much; I’m really trying to trust God and not worry so much. As I keep saying, the Bible tells us over and over to not worry/be anxious. Still it’s tough to do sometimes. I don’t mind at all that you told Bob; I need all the prayers that I can get! You asked about that Christian message board - it’s the "community" link at the www.wayfm.com site, which is a local Christian radio station’s site. That was the one that did have a lot of great forums, but they deleted most of them and left only three basic ones.

I had forgotten all about the test until you mentioned it! With all of that work this weekend, I was so glad to not have any homework. I plan to read the next chapter this evening before the gig, so maybe I’ll be ready.

I can relate to your feelings about Kristin; heck, who couldn’t? It is annoying bordering on infuriating when someone gets special treatment at work just because of friendship with the boss, especially when they’re not carrying their weight and getting away with it.

Well, I’m receiving email on my work computer now, but it’s still acting weird. For one thing - the monitor isn’t working right: pictures aren’t clear and everything on the screen is much bigger than I’m used to. Plus, it takes a looooooong time for the thing to boot up.

So Bob is going to visit in August? I’d say it’s very normal for you to be nervous about meeting him. I hope that you will both have an open mind and be optimistic about meeting; if you do that I don’t think you’ll have to worry about disappointing each other. About his "expectations" - I really hope he doesn’t expect anything during his *first* visit, for sure!! Still, I know what you mean about having those feelings and worrying that you’ll give in. But don’t sell yourself short! I will definitely pray about this for you.

That’s all for today. Talk to you soon! God bless!

Anne

God bless the USA!

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August 24, 2009

m - 31 october 2001

Filed under: from-michele, work, feelings, faith

From: "Michele"
Date: Wed, 31 Oct 2001 20:44:51 -0800 (PST)
Subject: the plot thickens ….

Hi Anne!

I absoultly did not want to go into work today. It doesn’t even feel like the same place anymore. Nora came in at one and she and I were in the back, both crying and hugging. She was sobbing. She told me that she would just quit, but she needs the money. I want to just quit but I wouldn’t do that to Nora. How sadly ironic that now I will prove to Nora just how much of a hard worker I really am. Whatever happened two weeks ago is forgotton. I’m mature enough to let it go.

Okay, I’ve got some more info as to why Mary, Ed, Sue and Audrey were fired. One night it was Mary, SUe and Audrey who worked. Mary locked the doors at 8:55. We always lock the doors five minutes til closing time. Anyway, about 8:57 or 8:58 this lady started banging on the door. Mary said, "I’m sorry, but we’re closed" and this lady was screaming at Mary, "All I want to buy is a fu*^ing card!" And she kept on banging on the door. Now, tell me, Anne, would you let someone in who was banging and kicking on the door and screaming at you? As it turns out, this person was one of those "secret" shoppers and she reported this to Bob Ritter. So even though Mary was the one who locked the door, all three of them were fired. So basically they lost their jobs over probably a $1.99 card.

And how Ed was fired? You’re never going to believe this one. Before I tell you why I have to this. Ed collects the state quarters, so sometimes he’ll open the drawers and fish through the quarters and when he finds some state quarters, he’ll take them out and he’ll exchange them with money from his wallet. He always does this when someone else is up front with him and he shows what he’s putting in and what he’s taking out. And I know Ed would never take a penny from that stupid store. So one day, after he waited on a customer and the drawer popped open he did one of his "money exchanges" and that customer just happened to be one of those "secret shoppers" and she (or he) saw this and reported it to BR. So that’s why Ed was fired. Is that fuc*ing ridiculous or what?!

Mary called me tonight and we talked for about half an hour. SHe just wanted to tell me goodbye and it was nice working with me. I started crying. I mean, I have worked with these people for over two years (except for Audrey) and now just like that it’s done. Over without warning. And Mary and Nora said exactly what I was thinking: something else is going on.

I’m not worried, Anne. Like I said before I’ve been toying with the idea of quitting for months now. I’d quit now, but I’m not going to do that to Nora. I just wish the store would close down so we all would have to find other jobs.

And through it all, it makes me realize more now than ever how God is constant. That peace in my heart is always there. I know as long as I have GOd, my health, my family and myself, I can handle just about anything that comes my way.

I hope you have a better day at work! Yeah, I know how it feels having a busy day and trying to get everything done on time. It’s like you can’t wait until it’s time to go home!

I started packing. Whoo-hoo! Danielle and I finally made it to the mall today and I got all my last minute Disney things. I have a horrible feeling that I’ll forget something, but as long as it isn’t my money or i.d. I won’t be too worried about it.

My period is winding down and I know I’ll be finished with it by Saturday. Praise God! emoticon Can you believe only two days left?!

Did you pass out candy tonight? Me and Danielle did. We didn’t get too many kids this year. Maybe because of what’s going on in the world today. What a shame that kids can’t be kids and enjoy themselves. We just bought our halloween candy today. That’s the best time to buy it- it’s all on sale! Olivia (my kitty) is so funny. She just stood at the door and meowed at everyone who came up on the porch. I didn’t see any outstanding costumes but the baby next door (Maizey who’s about three or four months) was dressed as an elephant and she was adorable!

Well, that’s about it for now. Tomorrow will probably be the last time we’ll get a chance to write to each other! emoticon Till next time, take care and God bless!

God bless the USA!

Michele

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May 18, 2009

m - 23 october 2001

Filed under: from-michele, work, faith

From: Michele
Sent: Tuesday, October 23, 2001 9:20 PM
Subject: what a difference a day makes….

Hi Anne!

You know, I could feel your prayers when I walked into work today. Danielle was praying for me as well. And I like to think my future husband was too (although he wouldn’t known specifically why). Nora was fine with me. It was almost as if Friday never happened. She asked me to go to the bank to do the deposit and I did (I’m the one who usually does- I do the least amount of work-HA!) and she thanked me. Before she left she told me to have a nice day and I returned it. Wierd, huh? Well, it was me Kristin and Shelly again tonight and we didn’t have anything to price, but Nora told us to dust and we went over the store with a fine-toothed comb! Danielle drove me to work and I said to her, "I wish Anne was here right now!" I’m sure you would have walked in with me for moral support. ANd once again I have to point out how much it totally sucks that we don’t live close to each other!

I did mention to my mom that I was thinking about trying to get a job at the bank in a few months. When she asked why I just replied that I needed a change. I think God will give me some kind of sign when the time is right. I think what happened on Friday was God’s way of preparing me. I’m honestly not scared to move on. In every situation I’m in, I always ask myself "What’s the worst that could happen?" That way I don’t freak out so much.

Forgive my language, but that Joewiel sounds like a total prick! And usually guy bosses are so much eaiser to get along with than girl bosses. They’re not as catty and irritable. Was he much older than you? That’s another thing that makes me see red. A "boss" who is only a few years older than me, and looks down at me. When I worked at *****, Dana was one of the office managers (this was before I became one) and she was only about three years older than me and she tried to act all high and mighty. Of course I was too quiet then to fight back. Now I would be like, "Whatever". Then Jeff was one of the floor managers. He was about my age (about 21 at the time) and he was married with two kids. Anyway, he and Monica (another office manager she was in her late 30’s at the time) were talking about his kids. Well, I was standing right there and I just asked nicely "How old are your kids. Jeff?" Jeff turns to me and looks at me like "Excuse me, child, but you just inturrupted an important, adult conversation," and he says really snottily, "Two and six months" (or whatever he said). And I was thinking to myself, "Fuc*^% ass#@!(!!" Its like HELLO?! I am not a child! Why does society think you’re an "adult" if you’re married and/or have kids? Meanwhile Jeff had to get married because he knocked up his girlfriend (and she was only 16 at the time!) Yeah, I call that a mature, responsible adult!

See, now I’m thinking at how they treated me like a child at ***** and I’m starting to get mad!! Well, maybe this is good in a way, it’s keeping my mind off the current situation.

Oh! Another time that made me pissed. Ok, first of all, why do people assume that just because you’re a virgin, you know nothing about sex? That you’re completely innocent and naive? This story involves me, Monica (manager), Dotty (real name Dorothy. She worked back in the deli and she was in her 40’s at the time) and Missy (cashier who was in her early 20’s at the time). FYI I was about 25 or so. Okay, Dotty was standing by the office, talking to Monica and Missy and I walked over to the office the same time. I think she was getting change and I was getting a phone card for a customer. Well, whatever Monica and Dotty were talking about, they hushed up as soon as Missy and I walked over. Then Monica said something like, "Well, Missy’s probably been there and done that" Missy was a wild girl, to say the least. She drank, smoked and I know she lost her virginity when whe was about sixteen or so. Anyway, I got the phone card and walked away, but Missy stood there and Monica and Dotty started talking again. I don’t know if it was what they were talking about before or maybe they started a new conversation, but I took "been there and done that " as something referring to sex. So of course they would have continued with Melissa around because they didn’t want to damage my virginal ears. OOOHHH!!! That made me so mad!! I wanted to say, "Hey! Just because I haven’t had 20 dic&% shoved up me, doesn’t mean I don’t know anything about sex!" Then a few times Monica said to me regarding Chaz: "He’s way over your head." Excuse me?! I know he drinks! I know he messes around with girls! There is nothing anyone could say about him that would shock me! Why do people just assume I’m this innocent, wide eyed child who lives in her own little world? Ok, maybe I do sometimes, but I can face reality just like anyone else!

side note- Missy has a kid now. A boy, I think. I don’t think she married the father. She was always friendly with me, but she was your typical "white trailer trash". I know it isn’t right to judge, but that’s the only way to describe her.

and lets just say that she did marry the baby’s father. Compare her wedding night emoticon with mine !

Anne, I’m going to end this letter now. It’s raining and I’m afraid the power will go out! And I don’t feel like retyping this letter!!
OH! I’m glad everything went well with your bosses daughter! New babies are always so exciting!

catch ya later! Take care and God bless!

Michele

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January 13, 2009

m - 9 october 2001

Filed under: from-michele, guys, faith

From: Michele
Sent: Tuesday, October 09, 2001 9:37 PM
Subject: Yes, I should!

Hi Anne!

You’re very welcome about the gifts. I’m glad you liked them. Don’t the candles smell WONDERFUL? My favorites are aloe vera and plumeria. Just don’t burn them all at once- or else you’ll get a headache!

I went into the angel site and signed the guest book. Something short and stupid. I didn’t post my e-mail address because I didn’t want anyone to write to me. They be talking about the show and I’d be like "Duh … I have no idea what you’re talking about." You are doing a fine job, my friend!

No, I don’t think anyone has posted anything on the prayerboard. I’m still thinking of what I want to write how bout "Pray that I find a man?" Hmm… would that be too cheesy? Even more specific- "Pray that Arnold Vosloo leaves his wife and marries me?"

For the people who sign your Angel guestbook and leave messages to David- why don’t you mess with their heads and write back pretending you’re him? (wicked laugh). I’m sure that thought has crossed your mind a time or two.

Speaking of posting messages, have you ever posted one and when you re-read it you discovered to your horror that you spelled a word wrong? That happened to me a couple times. I’m like, "D’oh! now everyone is going to think I’m a moron!"

Boy am I glad someone is in that "love boat" with me! I think Sara’s situation with that jerk might be a little different than Danielle’s situation with Brian because Brian seems like a pretty decent guy.

Yes, there is absoulutely no doubt that my husband will be a Christian. I will know the moment that we meet. How will I know? I just will. He will have a peace about him. I imagine he’ll be weaing a cross either on a chain or on his shirt or even a tatoo of a cross on his muscular arm. Sigh. The point is, I’ll just know.

that’s all for now. Til next time, take care and God bless! God bless the usa!

Michele

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December 31, 2008

m - 3 october 2001 (2)

Filed under: from-michele, guys, faith

From: Michele
Sent: Wednesday, October 03, 2001 10:58 PM
Subject: longer letter!

Hi Anne!

I’ll try to make this letter longer- but it’s getting pretty late and I have to go to work tomorrow morning! (Blech!). I hate it when I work til 9, then have to come in the next morning!

Remember I told you about that site for bald guys (you know Mitch and Arnold’s pics were on it?) Well, I don’t know if I told you that I signed the guest book. Well, some guy wrote to me! His name is Mike and he thanked me for my comments. He said that when he was younger he played in a band and he had long hair. When he started losing it, he was very self conscious about it. He cut his hair short but he was still a bit apprehensive about his baldness. He told me he was thinking about just shaving his head and when he read my comments in the guest book, he decided to go for it! Ah! And to think there might be one more sexy bald man out there- all because of me!

Oh, I hate it when I set the VCR timer wrong! I once set it to tape a program from 8 to 9. I set the VCR up from 7:59 to 8:01! What an idiot!

So Buffy gave you nightmares? BOO! Sorry if I scared you!

I hope you did well on the test! What was it on, anyway?

Thank you for not thinking I’m wierd for wanting to wait until I’m married to kiss someone. The only exception is if I were dating Arnold Vosloo! (LOL) No, seriously, I know I am going to be wildly attracted to my husband, whoever he may be and this is why it is impertive to me that my future husband will be a Christian and the spiritual leader in our relationship. I want him to say to me on our first date, "Michele, you are an incredibly beautiful woman and I would like to kiss you, but you need to understand that I only want to kiss my wife on our wedding day. Who knows, it might be you, but we can’t say for now. I would like us to pursue this slowly and with God’s guidence." Yeah, I know, what are the chances of me finding a man like that?

From the answers I’ve been getting so far concering my "engagement" question- the average answer is one year. You also have to take into consideration how long you knew the person before you started dating. Two people could have been childhood friends and known each other forever. If they get engaged after only a few months of dating, I don’t think it’s as bad as two people who had just met only a few months ago. FYI, Danielle only knew Brian about a month before he asked her out, so I still say she should wait at least a year. I tried to tell Danielle that her relationship with Brian is still in the "infactuaction" stage (you know, the Rod Stewart song? emoticon ). Infactuation looks feels and acts like love but it fails the two tests: The test of time and the test of negative circumstances. There is no possible way you can know someone after dating only a month. Besides the dating process tends to conceal, not reveal, because you’re putting your best face forward. Another thing that bothers me- Danielle isn’t clear as to whether Brian is a Christian or not. She knows he believes in God, but I don’t think she realizes how important it is that the man be the spiritual leader in the realationship. I’m not saying I want my husband to be carrying a Bible and spouting verses all day long- but I hope you understand what I mean!

I always said that my future husband has to have these four qualites: A)He has to be a Christian B)He has to be a hard worker (but not a workaholic!) C)I have to be attracted to him (that’s a given) and D)He has to treat me like a princess. Oh I should add one more quality E) He has to have a healthy attitude about sex. I’m not saying I want a man who slept with the entire neighborhood. Just like me, he can be a sexual virgin. Ok, if not a virgin a sexual man who hasn’t had sex for quite awhile because he’s "saving" himself for his future wife!

Think about this: If Arnold Vosloo was a virgin and if he was saving himself for his wife- would you think him any less of a man? I wouldn’t! He would be even more sexy and manly to me! Of course he isn’t a virgin. He’s been married twice, but I’d like to think his two wives were the only women he’s been with. Drat! How can I get rid of wife #2 so I can be wife #3? (insert devilish laugh here)

Some people fear if they wait until they’re married to have sex, the honeymoon is going to be awkward. I’m like "ARE YOU KIDDING?" I must have fantasised about making love so many times I know more what to do than some people who are doing it! I ganurtee you that a man who’s slept around knows when he’s making love to a virgin, because she will be more passionate and sensual than a woman who’s slept with every Tom, Dick and Harry. I’m sure the more people someone has had sex with, the more they’re just "going though the motions".

on that note, I’ll say bye for now! Take care and God bless!

Michele

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December 29, 2008

m - 3 october 2001

Filed under: from-michele, guys, feelings, family, faith

From: Michele
Sent: Wednesday, October 03, 2001 10:47 AM
Subject: need your advice!

Hi Anne!

I’m sorry but today’s e-mail will be kinda short. I have to be leaving for work in a little bit, but I just wanted to write to you about something. I will write a longer e-mail when I get home from work tonight!

First of all, thanks for answering my engagement question. I agree with you. At least a year. This is why I asked the question in the first place:

As you know Danielle and Brian had their one month anniversary the other night. He gave her this really cute dolphin ring (she loves dolphins and lighthouses) Danielle said to me, "Michele, when he gave me the ring box, my heart started pounding. I thought it was an engagement ring!" To which I replied logically, "Well, I hope you would have told him it was too soon to even think about getting married." Danielle said, "If he really did propose, I would have said yes." WOAH! They’ve only been dating for ONE MONTH! And it wasn’t even like they knew each other a long time before they started dating! I keep on telling her that its best to date for at least a year minimum, but she keeps on resisting that idea. I told her "Believe me, a year will go by so fast, it will be worth the wait."

Also, my mom really got on my nerves (since when is that new?) She chewed me out saying that Danielles personal life is none of my business and that she is an adult now …. blah, blah, blah. Yes, I know Danielle is an adult and she has every right to live her life the way she wants too. But I’m just trying to give her the best advice that I can. So I said to my mom, "Oh, come on. Don’t tell me you would have nothing to say if Danielle and Brian got engaged after dating only a month!" And my mom said, "No I wouldn’t." She is lying! Either that or she just wants us to get married and out of the house, never mind that we might be making a mistake! I’m just so sick and tired of her treating me like a child and not respecting my opinion!

One more thing- please tell me your thoughts about this- Other than that meaningless, very unromantic kiss Harry gave me on our only date, I’ve never been kissed. Part of me wants to wait until my wedding day to kiss my husband, and the other part just wants to attack him on our first date! (lol). Do you think I’m wierd for wanting to wait until I’m married to even kiss a guy? I just think kissing is a very special, very intimate thing and I only want to kiss my husband! People might think I’m this virginal prude but it’s the opposite! I think a kiss will be the undoing of my virginity, because if I’m kissing a man who really turns me on, I know I’m not going to want to stop there! I just- I feel really strongly about this, and the man who is my soul mate is going to have to understand this. Of course he will. After all, I’m trusting God completely with my love life. My future husband will respect my feelings. I mean, Danielle and Brian have already had their first kiss (on their third date) but who’s to say that Brain is THE ONE? ANd she’s had kissed other men before. I just want to save EVERYTHING I have for one man.

gotta go now. Sorry this is pretty short. Have a great day! Take care and God bless!

Michele

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December 22, 2008

m - 27 september 2001

Filed under: from-michele, faith

From: Michele
Sent: Thursday, September 27, 2001 4:16 PM
Subject: Perfect Timing!

Hi Anne!

What perfect timing! You’re out this week and my computer crashed last Thursday and it wasn’t fixed until today! I was worried that you would be frantic, wondering where I was! Anne, if you ever don’t hear from me in a few days, it’s probably because my computer is down. Damn thing!

So how was jury duty? Did you see that cute cop again? Did you see anyone cute? I’m glad you agreed with me that firefighters are sexy. You do have a point when you said when it’s your time to go, it’s your time to go. There are many firefighters who live long lives and there are many averge Joes who work very "safe" jobs who die much younger. I figured whoever my soul mate is, God is going to let us have a long marraige.

I finally met Brian. He seems like a nice guy. Very friendly and funny. As long as he treats Danielle good, that’s all that matters. He told her that he thought I was beautiful. I was flattered by the compliment. He’s trying to think of someone to fix me up with. He knows a couple bikers. Hmmm… that piqued my interest! I wonder if he knows anyone who looks like Arnold Vosloo!

Speaking of which, I’m so physched because The Mummy Returns is the selection of the month in The Columbia House Video Club. I’m not getting it, am I? (lol). Arnold Vosloo is sooo yummy! Sorry, I had to say it! When I speak of him, I am not responsible for my actions!

None of the new shows really strike my fancy. I don’t really watch network television, with the exception of a few shows. I mostly watch Nick at Nite. THis week they’re having a Family Ties marathon. I loved that show! I still do! Michael J Fox was so good in it. Have I mentioned I had the hugest crush on him when I was twelve? I wonder how he is doing. Its so sad that someone so young has to be suffering. He is such a nice person too.

A new domain name for you? Hmmm … let me think about that. How bout Iwantasexyman.com? (giggle. giggle).

How is Sarah doing? Is she still looking for another job?

I did watch the president’s speech last week and I totally agree with you. While he did deliver a good speech, I hope he follows up on it. These people can’t get away with what they done!

So many sad stories about the families of the victims. One woman lost her husband, and a week later gave birth to their first child. How tragic. I mean, having a baby is supposed to be one of the most joyful times in life, and this poor woman can’t even share it with her husband! Did you hear the story of the blind man who was on the 68th floor and his guide dog led him safely out? God bless that sweet dog! Even though this horrible event happened, I have peace in my heart that God is in control. And once again I have to wonder how can anyone not believe in God?

As you probably know by now, I am having a short story of mine published! It is called "Second Chances" and it will be in the January 1st issue of Womans World magazine!! My first published story! Woo-hoo! I figured, why wait around for my book when I can be writing short stories. I sent out another query to another agent last week, and I’m waiting a reply from them. I also completed a second short story and I’ll be sending it out soon. Wish me luck!

Oh! I wanted to tell you that I have bought your birthday presents and I will mail them out to you asap! I hope you get them by October 2, but as you already know I am the queen of procrastination!

well, that’s all for now! If I think of anything else, I will send you another e-mail. Till next time, take care and God bless! God bless the USA!

Michele

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December 15, 2008

m - 19 september 2001

Filed under: from-michele, guys, faith

From: Michele
Sent: Wednesday, September 19, 2001 11:48 AM
Subject: Re: Calgon, take me away!

Hi Anne!

we were talking about "bothering" God with our prayer requests and believe me, it is not a casual one time thing on my part. Every day when I wake up, one of the first thoughts in my mind is, "God, please have me meet my future husband today!" Anyway, I guess God is more patient than I am!

Last night I saw "The Glass House." it was a pretty good movie. It was so funny (not the movie) This black girl was sitting in front of us (me and Shelly) with her two white friends. I guess now theyr’e playing the Star Spangled Banner before the movie starts. So she sings along with the song in this very loud, slightly off key voice. Then when the song was over, she raises her hand and shouts, "play ball!" Me and Shelly were giggling.

I hope your string of yucky days will be over soon! This whole WTC thing is just adding to my yuckiness factor! I’m not even excited about Disneyworld anymore. Im just so angry that this happened! Why did this fu@#!* have to happen?! What gets me through is a little "mini" prayer that I say everday which is, "God, please help me to seize the day. Help me to "shine" for everyone to see. Please watch over every person and aspect that has been in my prayers, past, present and future. Give me the strength to face my fears and live my dreams. And help me to take each day one step at a time and to TRUST YOU, no matter what!" I hope this prayer will help you as well.

I love the Olive Garden. I could live off of their breadsticks and salad! Last night at work we ordered from a local place called "Sam’s Club." I got a portabello sub which was portabello mushrooms, tomatoes, lettuce, provolone cheese and grilled onions. Yummy! Something you might like since it was meatless. I love mushrooms. Mushrooms and olives are my two favorite pizza toppings. I better stop, I’m getting hungry!

Hope your hair turns (turned) out okay! I haven’t gotten a hair cut in forever! I want to grow it long again. Maybe just a little past my shoulders

Anne, I don’t think our expectations are so high (about meeting someone)! All I want to do is meet a nice, hard working, godly man who I am attracted to and who will want to be with me and only me for the rest of our lives. Is that too much to ask? I don’t think so!

that’s all for today. See you soon! God bless! God bless the USA!

Michele

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July 3, 2008

m - 2 july 2001

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From: Michele
Sent: Monday, July 02, 2001 5:36 PM
Subject: you’d make a perfect "accessory" for Angel!

Hi Anne!

Yes, I signed your guestbook! The pictures are very nice. I only wish I could send you a pic of me. I’ll have to invest in a scanner. I also want to get a cd burner. My friend, Carie has one and they’re totally cool. And yes, you would look great on David (wicked laugh)!

This might sound a bit self-indulgent, but I wouldn’t mind at all if you would mention me on your website! Maybe you’ve thought about it. If you did, then it’s okay with me! If I ever started my own site, would it be okay if I mentioned you?

re:confidence: there are some days when I feel so good and up and I’m on the ball and I know just what to say and everything clicks and I’m outgoing and assertive. Then there are some days when I feel so off kilter. I can’t focus or concentrate. I get really shy. When someone asks me a simple question, my mind goes totally blank! I bump into things and drop things ….ugh! I just want to run home and hide under the covers!

Yes, there is no doubt that my husband will be a Christian, but I don’t want a "crazy-religious zealot-everything is sinful" Christian. I’ve known a lot of weird Christians in my life, especially when I lived in my old neighborhood. A few examples: Jim was a guy who worked at the grocery store I worked at. He was married to Sue. They had two daughters: Rachel and Sarah. They were, oh, I guess four and two. They were so strange (the parents, not the kids). Well, first of all they were’nt the most cleanest people I’ve known. Sometimes when he would go to work I could smell uh, his bo (gross)! I’m sorry but if I had to marry either him or Chaz (who i’m pretty sure wasn’t a Christian) I would pick Chaz in a heartbeat. The kids were always dirty too. Clothes dirty, dirty faces, dirty hair. They were so cute too. And Jim and Sue were always screaming at them. He would always wear these religious tee-shirts and he would talk to his co-workers about Jesus and all. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that in it itself, but how can anyone take a dirty, smelly, pantywaste of a guy seriously? HE was such a wimp. The wife wore the pants in the family. He would give all his paychecks to her and she would give him an allowance! Oh, yeah, just the kind of man I want! another example-there was a woman customer who had a daughter-Cindy. I forgot the mother’s name- lets just call her "Nutty" . emoticon Anyway, "Nutty" was one of those "Jesus bless your day" always quoting the Bible-kind of Christians. Anyway while "Nutty" was so focused on blessing everyone and memorizing the Bible cover-to-cover, Cindy got pregnant (I think she was sixteen). Hello? Where does it say in the Bible that its ok for unmarried teenagers to have sex? Why don’t you talk to your daughter? Cindy had a daughter and guess what? not too long after that she got pregnant again!! Maybe "Nutty’s" God and my God are different, because my God wants people to wait until they are not only married, but also mature to have children, let alone have sex! I don’t know, it boggles my mind!

Please don’t think I’m this judgmental bitch. I know as Christians, it isn’t right for us to judge, but sometimes it annoys me so much when people who aren’t Christians, look at people like Jim and "Nutty" and conclude that’s what Christianity is about. I want to jump up and say, "Hello? I’m a Christian! I’m clean! I’m normal!"

Sara sounds like Danielle. I’ll say all these wicked things and her face will turn red and she’ll say things like, "I’m not listening to this, Michele!" While I will go into detail about what I would like to do to men like Arnold and Mitch, Danielle keeps very private about whatever fantasies she might have. I’ll say things in front of my mom too. She’ll try to act shocked, but I can tell she’s trying not to laugh.

you mentioned the band Otown. isn’t that the group that was created by that show "Making The Band"?

I’m very frustrated right now. I skipped my period for June and my whole body is out of wack. There are like four zits on my chin, I’m bloated, I’m irritable, and I think maybe that’s part of the reason why my back has been bothering me. Damn. Also when I skip a month. the next month I get double the cramps. Double Damn.

Do you realize we’ve been e-mailing each other about two months now? I’ve probably told you more about myself than I’ve told some of my friends that I’ve known for several years! Don’t you feel honored? emoticon

new questions answered:

do I cook?- (I was going to ask you this!) No. I hope I marry a man who doesn’t mind frozen dinners and takeout.(lol). No, I will seriously try to make an effort once I’m married.

do I paint my nails? (I was going to ask you this!) yes. both toe and fingernails. I didn’t use to paint my nails. theen when I moved here, that’s when I started. Go figure, huh?

do I wear jewelry?- watch, necklace, earrings. Sometimes I’ll wear a bracelet and sometimes I’ll wear rings, but I won’t wear rings at work. Last year I lost my cross ring my mom got for me for my 18th birthday. I was so upset about that, I cried for days!

weird things I do that I will admit?- I’ll sneak up behind Danielle and my mom while they are on the computer and put things in their hair!

who/what I think is sexy- (this may take awhile!)- Arnold Vosloo (body, eyes, mouth, voice)
Mitch Pileggi (body, voice), Tim Daly (eyes, chest, voice), confidence in a man, someone who goes after what he wants, a sense of humor, men with accents (Arnold, Mel Gibson, Sam Neil, Liam Nesson), bald men (not all!) men who wear glasses (not all!), broad, hairless (or not very hairy) chests, A small, sly grin, A man who takes control of a situation, a deep, sexy voice, intense eyes, Clean shaven men or men with moustaches. Men who smell like they just stepped out of the shower. Big hands! I like what you said about "guys standing behind me, pressing real close and whispering in my ear" Chaz did that once and I just about died! I have a lot more to add, but that’s all I can think of for now.

Recommendations

movie- Deep Impact (I saw While You Were Sleeping and I love it!)
tv show- Three’s Company
cd- Pink Floyd-The Wall

funny sitcom moment- its an episode of Full House DJ and Kimmy are in charge of the entertainment at some jr high dance and at the last minute the band backs out. So DJ gets Uncle Jesse to front a replacement band. Here, its the marching band! He walks up to the microphone and dryly says into it "DJ Tanner, report to the stage immediately!" (lol)

new questions-

how old were you when you started your period? how did you feel about it?- I was thirteen and I cried. I thought "oh no! I don’t want this to happen!"

fave authors?- Steven King, VC Andrews, Frank Peretti, Lois Duncan, Judy Blume

are your grandparents still living?- my only living grandparent is my paternal grandmother. My paternal grandfather died when I was six and my maternal grandparents passed away in 1998 and 1999

do you have any other e-mail/pen pal friends besides me?- yes. Ingrid, Dana, Misty, Alison (she’s from England), Lena(she’s from Russia), Joe and George.

were you ever teased in grade and/or high school?- Yes! I was really picked on when I was in grade school. I was chubby and painfully shy- a fatal combination. I remember coming home from school every day and going up to my room and crying. I thought it would get worse when I started high school, but thank God, I didn’t get bothered much. Even now, when I think about some of the things my grade school classmates said and did to me, it still bothers me.

any hidden talents?- when someone is pregnant, I can usually guess the sex. I can put makeup on without using a mirror (and do a pretty decent job of it!) I can stuff my whole fist in my mouth. Is that a talent? (my future husband might be interested in that! emoticon )

have you ever had a crush on a cartoon character?- My mom tells me I had a crush on Speed Racer when I was five or six (I’ll take her word for it!) I had crushes on the Peter and Egon characters on The Real Ghostbusters, and I was practically in lust with John Smith in Pocahontas. Hey, Mel Gibson did his voice, what do you expect?

I know you’re a vegetarian but if you had to choose, do you prefer hot dogs or hamburgers? hamburgers

do you sleep with a light on? Sometimes. It depends if I just watched or read something scary!

do you have any tattoos and/or piercings (besides the ones in your ears?)- nope.

Well, that’s about it for now. Oh! you mentioned you we’re looking for a poster for David. Have you tried www.allwall.com ? try there. Good luck with it! Take care and God bless!

Michele

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