Chix Chat

October 31, 2009

m - 18 june 2002 (2)

From: Michele
Sent: Tuesday, June 18, 2002 9:10 AM
Subject: Yes, I am home!!

Hi Anne!

Yep, I stayed home from work today.  My back doesn’t hurt as bad as it did that one time last year, but I thought I should take it easy so it wouldn’t get any worse.  I’m off work tomorrow as well so hopefully my back will be back to normal by Thursday.

I bought my dad a cd (Frank Sinatra) for Father’s Day.  Danielle and Brian got him gadgets for his car.  We didn’t go out to dinner or anything.  My dad isn’t the "going out to dinner" type.  Actually holidays like Father’s Day and my dad’s birthday is a bit awkward for me.  My dad and I aren’t really close.  We just dont talk a whole lot.

Wow, it looks like you were pretty busy yourself over the weekend.  Four stores in two days?  Zoiks is right!  Well, no one could ever accuse you of being lazy, thats for sure!

When you said "just curious" when Ron was asking why you was asking about his birthday, I probably would have said the same thing.  Of course I would have thought of a witty comeback…. two days later!  I always envied people who can just so easily think of things to say right off the top of their heads.

Yes, Ron telling you about the burrito was too much information! *giggle*  I’m sure you had very um…. "pleasent" visions of him after he made that statement.  I haven’t eaten at Taco Bell myself for at least two years.  I got "sick" on it one time, and I’ve been afraid to go back there.]

So Ron is 48 or 49, eh?  Chaz is (or will be) 47.  Just from some of the things you tell me about Ron, he reminds me so much of Chaz. If Ron was this wonderful Christian man and the two of you fell in love, the age difference wouldn’t be such a big deal.  I mean, your both adults for goodness sakes.  If you met a wonderful Christian man who was 48 and you started dating him, I wouldn’t think anything of it.  To me age is just a number.

thank you for sharing the link to the Christian messageboard.  I will check it out. I’m sorry that you were down pretty much all of the weekend.  I wish we lived close to each other.  I would love to take you out (of course you would drive because I dont!) and try to cheer you up.  Go to the movies, see something funny.  Even rent a few comedies.  Laughter is truly good medicine for the soul.  It does wonders for stress. emoticon

My computer’s been acting kinda strange lately itself.  I’m telling you, our computers are in cahoots with each other!  They say "lets see who we can drive insane first… Anne or Michele!"  I think it will be a tie between the both of us!

I did mention to Bob on the phone last night about my fears when he comes here in August.  He assured me (for the 100th time) that there was no way I could disappoint him and he would never ever persuade me into doing something I didn’t feel comfortable in doing.  I feel so much better.  And thank you so much for keeping this situation in your prayers!

Well, thats it for today!  Until next time take care and God bless!

God bless the USA!

Michele

June 23, 2009

m - 28 october 2001

From: "Michele"
Date: Sun, 28 Oct 2001 18:04:04 -0800 (PST)
Subject: I don’t think I like Yahoo!!

Hi Anne!

I don’t know if I like this yahoo mail so much. I might just get another hotmail account and use the same name, *****. Yes, I know I’m driving you crazy!! I’m just so used to hotmail and I’m not very good with change. What do you think I should do?

The CLD continues! Brian came over here a little bit tonight. I just felt so … well, left out. That’s the only way I can describe how I was feeling. THen my dad will unknowingly say things that really hurt me. For example- Brian bought danielle yet another stuffed animal ( our house looks like a toy store!) and my dad commented, "He better start saving his money for a wedding." I know my dad doesn’t mean to hurt me, but whenever he says things like that, it’s just a painful reminder that I don’t have anyone. I think according to my dad, I’m perfectly content with being single, and believe me, IM NOT! I mean, just because I’m a content person, it doesn’t mean I don’t long to find my soul mate and get married!

I get zits on my chin too right before my period! And I always get one right between my eyes too.

Okay, so I’ll tape Angel and I’ll send it out to you the next day. I’ll have to run out to the store before Monday and buy a blank tape. Or maybe I have one lying around here. I’m going to be pretty busy next week, getting ready for the trip. OUr flight is six am Saturday morning, which means we have to be there extra extra early! Yikes! A whole week of not e-mailing each other?! Well, if you still want to write to me every day, you can. You can just send short, one paragraph e-mails!

You should have said "you suck" in those e-mails you sent to that tapes site. The noive of them! XD

I chuckled at your "Angel acting like Ray" dream. Perish the thought! You probably wanted to find Ray afterwards and shake him and shout, "Stay away from my dreams, scumbag!!!" I can just see the question mark above his head and the puzzled look on his face!

It was another good day at work for me, Thank God. Nora said to me, "You’ve been doing so much better, Michele." Now mind you this is only one week since the "incident" and frankly, I’m just doing my job like I always do. I think that might have been Nora’s way of apologizing to me. I know some people can’t just come out and say "I’m sorry" (it’s difficult for me to sometimes!). If that was her way of apologizing, then I accept. But believe me, if if happen again, this time I’ll be ready!

Hi again!

It is now Saturday morning. I have to go to work at 2. After work me, Shelly and Kristin (and maybe Danielle) are going to the movies (AGAIN?!). We’re either going to see From Hell or Thirteen Ghosts. Either one I’m still going to sleep with the lights on tonight!

I can’t believe a week from now I’ll be in Disneyworld. There is so much I need to do. Knowing me, I’ll wait till the last minute! I’m not too worried if I forget something. I mean it’s not like I’m going to another planet. There are stores down in Floridia that sell basically everything I need. I think the most important thing to pack is a lot of extra clean underwear. And believe me, I have enough bra and panty sets that I can open my own lingere store ;)

Oh yeah, I forgot one more movie when I was giving you that list: Don’t Say A Word= :) :) :) :)

So that’s what, eighteen movies I’ve seen this year? and it’s only October. That’s about an average of two movies a month. It just seems like I’ve been to the movies a lot more than that.

How’s the weather there? It is fuc*$#@ freezing here!! I can’t believe that not even three days ago it was warm enough that I wore a short sleeved shirt, and last night I wore my winter pj’s! I dont like it when it’s too hot, but I don’t like it when it’s too cold, either. And this isn’t even cold cold yet. BBBRRRRRR!!!!!

Hi once again! It is now Sunday. I got my period! Hooray!!! Normally I wouldn’t be so estatic to have my period, but I know I’m be safe for my trip. WHEW! Now all I have to worry about is having a safe flight!

Well, Shelly and I did see Thirteen Ghosts last night. It was VERY WIERD! Yes, I slept with the lights on last night! I don’t know why I torture myself like that. I still say The Exorcist is the scariest movie of all time.

Audrey screwed up on the registers again today! She just really gets on my nerves. I mean, first of all she’s ALWAYS smiling! You know, like "Love that Joker?" What’s up with that? and it also gets on my nerves the way she says "oh my gosh". She says it like Goofy "Oh my gorsh!" I just want to slap her when she says it, and she says it all the time. THen while Shelly and I were trying to fix Audrey’s mistakes, Audrey acts all innocent, like she wasn’t the one who made them! I just wish Nora would let her go! FYI- I had to call Nora last night and then this morning because I was having trouble closing out one of the credit card machines and she acted fine with me. Another WHEW! to add to the list.

Oh! My rating for 13 Ghosts is :| :| .

I don’t think I’ll be able to make it to the movies again until after I get home from Floridia. THen I’ll have a ton I want to see!

I was meaning to ask you, do you belong to the Crossings book club? It’s a christian book club. I belong to it and I really like it. I think their website is www.crossings.com Check it out sometime.

well, that’s it for now! I hope you had a good weekend. Til next time take care and God bless!

GOD BLESS THE USA!

Michele

January 23, 2009

m - 11 october 2001

From: Michele
Sent: Thursday, October 11, 2001 8:39 PM
Subject: Mr. President! Mr. President!

Hi Anne!

The president is on right now as I’m typing this.  Can I listen and type at the same time?  We shall see emoticon.  Can you believe it’s been a month since "IT" happened?  I got a disturbing e-mail today warning not to go to the malls on October 31.  Maybe you got it too.  Anyway, I don’t know if it’s a hoax or not, but I’m not taking any chances.  I put a request off on that day.

I had a long day at work.  I was supposed to be done at 4:30, but Kristin called off and I voluntereed to stay until 6:30.  Gulp!  What was I thinking?!  Seriously, though, it wasn’t so bad.  I’m just so tried, though.  Since I’m a night owl, going to bed late and getting up early for work so many days in a row is taking its toll.  If I can just get through tomorrow, I’ll have a three day weekend.  Woo-hoo!

That’s good that you’re making friends thru the Cross Daily site.  I still have my reservations about placing an ad.  It’s like, I want to have a boyfriend, but I get scared, but if I met some guy and he wanted to be "just friends" I’d be frustrated, but … you get my point.  That guy, Mike e-mailed me a couple more times.  He seems like a nice guy, and I don’t think he’s married.  At least he hasn’t said yet.  So ok, so what if he isn’t married?  He could be A)gay B)a physco C)A satanist D)ugly (and I mean UGLY) E) fat (and I mean like "break the scales" fat F)A drug user/dealer G)whatever else wrong I could think of.  And why the heck am I even fretting over this anyway?  I know I said I could never "date" anyone on-line but my point is if I’m to trust totally in God, shouldn’t I just relax and let him lead me where he takes me?  If God says "yes" to meeting someone on-line, then why should I say no?

Hmmm… could your dream about Chris Holland possibly mean that he will be in your future?  How was he with you in school?  Friendly?  Stuck up?  Didn’t know you existed?  The professor in your dream is right: it is a tough subject!  I’m assuming the subject is love.

I had Danielle read what you wrote about her and Brian (hope you don’t mind!).  What  you said about my primary concern is that she doesn’t get hurt hit the nail on the head.  Ok, maybe it’s a tad of envy, but I just want what’s best for her.  Danielle assured me that even if she didn’t wait a year to get engaged, she wouldn’t just "jump into" anything.  Huge sigh of relief here!

No, Danielle never considered marrying anyone before.  Danielle is her first boyfriend.  SHe’s been out on a lot of dates, but he’s her first boyfriend.  No, he isn’t divorced.  He lived with a girl, but she turned out to be a physco.  I don’t think he’ll have that problem with Danielle.

Hey!  I have some more questions for you A) Do you have a lot of movies on video?  B)Do you have any Arnold Vosloo movies on video?  C)Are you going to get any AV videos ?

Speaking of videos- I rented a really good movie yesterday- Memento.  In a nut shell it’s about a guy who is trying to find the man who raped and murdered his wife.  But the twist is that he only has a short term memory and how he "remembers" things is by constantly taking pictures (poloroids) and writing notes.  The movie goes backwards- the end is at the beginning and vice versa.  You have to watch it very closely and turn your brain on.

I ordered Shrek from my video club.  Have you seen it yet?  It’s really cute.  Don’t ask me how many videos I have!  Probably about 200 or so!

Well, that’s about it for now.  I hope you have a great weekend!  Until next time, take care and God bless!  God bless the USA!

Michele

January 16, 2009

a - 10 october 2001

Filed under: from-anne, guys, family

From: "Anne"
Date: Thu, 11 Oct 2001 15:46:46 -0500
Subject: Curiouser and curiouser
 
Hi, Michele!
 
I’ll say it again: no need to apologize for a short letter!
 
Yep, Rod Stewart. (Insert high-pitched fan scream here.) They said tickets were still available, but probably in the nose-bleed section. I don’t know how much the tickets were. I’d guess about $50.
 
Ah, yes: Crocodile Dundee, part 3(?) - that Antany is still sending me short notes at Cross Daily asking me to write him at his other email. And have my activity rating at CD go down? I don’t think so. I was chatting with some guy a week or two ago, Peter-john is his name. He is 39 and also from Australia. He seems like a lot of fun - we have been emailing back a forth a bit. Some other guy from the US (Georgia, I think) sends me one long paragraph; oddly enough that guy’s name is Randy. (Randy sent me one today titled "Thinking of you" - I haven’t even responded to the one he sent on Tuesday.) Of course none of these guys has posted a picture with his profile. Basically, there are no good dating prospects, but I’m meeting some nice on-line friends.
 
Speaking of dating, I had a really weird but good dream last night. Chris Holland, a guy I went to school with, showed up at my house and suddenly wanted to date me. I haven’t seen him or even thought of him for years. It was so strange; in the dream he was everywhere I was. We were sitting in the den and my mom came home and I was trying to introduce him… it was so weird. Let me describe Chris for you: he is tall and manly looking, blond haired with blue eyes. And in school he was so fun; really a cut-up. He was one of the A-list people in our small high school; you know, Mr. Popular who played basketball and dated cute girls. In the same dream I received back a second test paper with a score of 19, or possibly a negative 1.9, and all my professor could say was, "Yep, this is a tough subject."
 
Which brings me to another tough subject: Danielle and Brian. I bet that if the two of you were talking about someone else in her situation, she would absolutely agree with you that the couple should date a year at least before getting engaged. For something as important as this I do *not* think that you should paste on a fake smile and nod at whatever she says. However, from my experience I can tell you that shouting, "You’re ruining your life!" is not the most effective route to take. (You have seen this as well, I’m sure.) I know when I’m trying to convince Sara of something, I try to approach the subject very casually at an opportune moment, that is when we haven’t just been arguing about it. For example, if she was in Danielle’s place, I might casually and non-accusingly say something like, "I know if *I* was thinking of getting married, I’d want to be sure that the guy was the one. Remember (insert divorced couple that you know well here)? They were so in love and then suddenly they weren’t. I don’t think I could stand the pain of divorce." Okay, maybe that looks a little staged; I see your point that it’s tough to know exactly what to say! Of course I wouldn’t say it like some drama queen; I’d simply state it as I would most of the things I say. My objective would be to get *her* to really think for herself about whatever point I was trying to make. I think the key things to remember are to not have an accusing tone and to let her know that your primary concern is that she doesn’t get hurt.
 
I think of the sincere yet earnest way Chell asked me "Why are you wasting your time?" True, that is a bit accusing, but she didn’t say it in an exasperated "oh what is your problem?!" tone. She said it in a way that implied I should give an answer … it’s tough to describe. It was even tougher to realize that I didn’t have an answer. (If you think about it, there is no good answer to that particular question.)
 
About this Brian thing: that’s another toughie for me since I’m not there. (I say that like I’d know more if I were there: yeah right!) Maybe the best thing to do about that is to keep an eye peeled to see if you spot any other behavior that supports your fears. You could also listen to what Danielle says to see if you hear her mention the same.
 
I’m curious: has Danielle ever considered marrying anyone before? And did you say that Brian was divorced? (I tried to look that up in our previous emails, but I didn’t see it.)
 
That’s it for today. Talk to you soon: God bless!
 
Anne
 
God bless the USA!

January 15, 2009

m - 10 october 2001

Filed under: from-michele, guys, family

From: Michele
Sent: Wednesday, October 10, 2001 10:52 PM
Subject: too tired to type!

Hi Anne!

Love Rod Stewart!  Love "Do Ya Think I’m Sexy!"  Too bad you couldn’t make it to the concert.  Out of curiousity, do you know how much the tickets were?

The weather here has been beautiful as well.  Today it went up to 75!  Alas, this isn’t going to last very long.  Time to get the winter jacket out of storage. emoticon

Hey!  How are things going with you and that Aussie guy?  What was his name?  Crocodile Dundee? (snicker). You haven’t mentioned him lately, so I guess nothing really is happening.  Have you gotten any other responses from that Crossdaily site?

That’s cool that you registered your own domain name.  Yes, please give it to me when you’re sure that you have it!  As for me, I’m still trying to figure out my own website!  Shoot, I even forgot the address that I used for it.  I hope I have it written down somewhere!

Danielle was typing a letter to her friend and I just happened to glance over her shoulder (I wasn’t snooping-honest!) and I read this line "I really think Brian and I will be engaged in a few months".  ACCK!!  Isn’t anything what I have said sinking in?!  I don’t think she realizes the importance of GOING SLOWLY!  Ok Anne, should I just shut my mouth and let her make a mistake?  Or should I keep my "date at least a year" campaign?  Maybe I should just shut my mouth- after all she hasn’t listened to me before, why start now?

One thing does bother me about Brian.  This is tiny, but I don’t know, a "wrong" buzzer just rang in the back of my head.  He and Danielle went into the Hallmark store the one night that I was working.  Danielle got a card and he had paid for it.  Nothing wrong with that, right?  But it was just how he demanded that he pay for it.  Danielle kept on saying "It’s just a card.  I’ll pay for it" and he was like "You better put your money back in your wallet".  It was like he didn’t take no for an answer.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for men paying for women when they go out to eat and paying for some things- but paying for everything?  I mean, say I’m at the mall with my boyfriend and I buy something from every store we go into.  Do I really expect he’s going to pay for everything?  Maybe I’m reading too much into this, but could that little "you better put your money back in your wallet?"  be the seed of a future controlling husband?  I guess you had to be there to understand how I feel.

Sorry this letter is pretty short, but it’s almost 12 and I have to get up early to go to work.  See Ya later!  Take care and God bless!

GOD BLESS THE USA!!

Michele

December 30, 2008

a - 3 october 2001

Filed under: from-anne, guys, feelings, family

From: "Anne"
Subject: Aye carumba!
Date: Wed, 3 Oct 2001 13:17:29 -0500

Ola, Michele!

I’m feeling Spanish today - someone sent me a letter about the Angel site in Spanish! I used a translation website to translate her words into English and my reply into Spanish.

No problema about a short-o letter-o. Okay, I’m stopping that now. Seriously, some days I only have time for a brief note, and some days there’s just nothing happening that’s note-worthy.

Last night, I set the VCR to record the 2-hour Buffy premier. About 8:15, I realized that I’d accidentally set the time to record from 6:59 to 8:03. I ran in to check it, and it had indeed stopped recording. I turned on the TV to watch what I was missing and reset the VCR to start in one minute. It kicked in just in time to record Buffy’s hand popping up through the dirt by her grave. Imagine if I hadn’t suddenly realized I set the timer wrong! Here’s the kicker, my mom was right there and watched me set the wrong time. She said, "Yes, it’s two hours tonight." I was, like, "Oh, yes. The big season premiere." WHY didn’t she say, "Don’t you have that just set for about an hour?" Then I’d have said, "ZOIKS! I do! Thanks for catching that!" I’m just glad I thought of it and only missed about ten minutes. After I watched the show before the VCR kicked in again, I wanted to watch the rest of it. So I left my studying efforts and went to watch it. When that went off, I rewinded and watched the first part. Man! That was a tough episode to watch - there were some bad, bad things going on! Not the good kind of bad either. It was the wrong thing to watch right before bed. It was definitely not a "feel good" episode!

My bosses weren’t here this morning. Praise the Lord, I’ve had the chance to cram. Call me crazy but I still feel pretty confident about the test. I’m definitely ready to have it over with!

In other news, during Grand Jury last week, Greg - Randy’s partner - told us that he is going on vacation this week … to Disney World. If he was going a bit later, you might’ve seen him. Greg kind of reminded me of my dad - a big guy with hair cropped very short - although Greg isn’t nearly as old as my dad was. I’d say Greg isn’t even forty.

Speaking of Randy :) it’s so funny that you mention kissing versus waiting to kiss. Just yesterday I recalled some of the losers I kissed - years ago - and instinctively my hand flew up to cover my face in shame. I absolutely do NOT think it’s weird to want to kiss only your husband or at least someone that you have strong feelings for. I have kissed guys before and it meant absolutely nothing to me; THAT is weird and wrong! It should mean something!

Climbing off that soapbox and onto another. Engagement?! Would have said "yes"! I am blown away! Please don’t think I’m judging, because I don’t know about their situation. But for myself, I can’t imagine marrying someone after dating him only a month. Maybe I’m just cynical about it, but I’d want to feel I really know for sure. I’d probably want to discuss the issue with him to death. I’d want to talk with him about his goals for the future, his family plans, his family’s past, the way he spends money, … there’s just so much. Like I said, I’d probably talk about it and think about it too much. But there is a lot involved in marriage - this person will be your partner on many levels: legally, spiritually, financially, etc. and he should also be your best friend. I think such a decision would take me a long while to be sure.

Side note: I agree with you - I bet your mother would have plenty to say if they were actually engaged. My mom used to always tell me to leave Sara alone when I’d be bugging her about stuff. (This was the main reason I could not stand my sister when we were younger. If I may gloat a bit, now I am the very independent one and Sara still needs Mom to bail her out on a lot of things.) Still, if Sara was thinking of marrying, or even dating someone that I thought wasn’t right, you better believe that I’d be telling her about it in the nicest way possible. It would be just like her to try to do whatever it was anyway just to do the opposite of what I said.

That’s it for today. I must go take this test. (insert biting the nails here)
Talk to you soon! God bless us all - every one!
Anne
 

December 29, 2008

m - 3 october 2001

From: Michele
Sent: Wednesday, October 03, 2001 10:47 AM
Subject: need your advice!

Hi Anne!
 
I’m sorry but today’s e-mail will be kinda short.  I have to be leaving for work in a little bit, but I just wanted to write to you about something.  I will write a longer e-mail when I get home from work tonight!
 
First of all, thanks for answering my engagement question.  I agree with you.  At least a year.  This is why I asked the question in the first place:
 
As you know Danielle and Brian had their one month anniversary the other night.  He gave her this really cute dolphin ring (she loves dolphins and lighthouses)  Danielle said to me, "Michele, when he gave me the ring box, my heart started pounding.  I thought it was an engagement ring!"  To which I replied logically, "Well, I hope you would have told him it was too soon to even think about getting married."  Danielle said, "If he really did propose, I would have said yes."  WOAH!  They’ve only been dating for ONE MONTH!  And it wasn’t even like they knew each other a long time before they started dating!  I keep on telling her that its best to date for at least a year minimum, but she keeps on resisting that idea.  I told her "Believe me, a year will go by so fast, it will be worth the wait."
 
Also, my mom really got on my nerves (since when is that new?)  She chewed me out saying that Danielles personal life is none of my business and that she is an adult now …. blah, blah, blah.  Yes, I  know Danielle is an adult and she has every right to live her life the way she wants too.  But I’m just trying to give her the best advice that I can.  So I said to my mom, "Oh, come on.  Don’t tell me you would have nothing to say if Danielle and Brian got engaged after dating only a month!"  And my mom said, "No I wouldn’t."  She is lying!  Either that or she just wants us to get married and out of the house, never mind that we might be making a mistake!  I’m just so sick and tired of her treating me like a child and not respecting my opinion!
 
One more thing- please tell me your thoughts about this- Other than that meaningless, very unromantic  kiss Harry gave me on our only date, I’ve never been kissed.  Part of me wants to wait until my wedding day to kiss my husband, and the other part just wants to attack him on our first date! (lol).  Do you think I’m wierd for wanting to wait until I’m married to even kiss a guy?  I just think kissing is a very special, very intimate thing and I only want to kiss my husband!  People might think I’m this virginal prude but it’s the opposite!  I think a kiss will be the undoing of my virginity, because if I’m kissing a man who really turns me on, I know I’m not going to want to stop there!  I just- I feel really strongly about this, and the man who is my soul mate is going to have to understand this.  Of course he will.  After all, I’m trusting God completely with my love life.  My future husband will respect my feelings.  I mean, Danielle and Brian have already had their first kiss (on their third date)  but who’s to say that Brain is THE ONE?  ANd she’s had kissed other men before.  I just want to save EVERYTHING I have for one man.
 
gotta go now.  Sorry this is pretty short.  Have a great day!  Take care and God bless!
 
Michele

December 10, 2008

m - 17 september 2001

From: Michele
Sent: Monday, September 17, 2001 8:25 AM
Subject: PRAY

Hi Anne!

I was just thinking about that song Pray by MC Hammer (wonder what ever happened to him?)  and how true the words to that song are:  We’ve got to pray just to make it today!  It makes me sad that some people might blame God for what happened, and while I did ask God, ‘why couldn’t you have stopped this?’ I never blamed God.  God didn’t do this, those people did.

I still can’t comprehend that this has happened. That maybe 5,000 people  are dead because of a group of people’s hatred for this country.  You’re right.  Every single person on those planes and in those buildings were murdered!  I have also been praying for president Bush and for other world leaders.  If we go to war …. I’m just so scared about this.  I mean, I’m paranoid that we’re going to get a bomb dropped on us or something!  Now, joking that I don’t want to die a virgin isn’t funny anymore!  Also, my second cousin, Christina (she’s 21) is in the marines and she’s on high alert from the government.  If we go to war, she will be in combat.  As you can imagine the whole family is a nervous wreck.  I’ve been keeping her in my prayers as well.  I kinda half joked that maybe she can "get out of this" by getting pregnant.  Hey, I would rather my daughter be pregnant and unmarried than fighting a war and maybe die.  I don’t agree at all with women in combat.  Women are supposed to be soft and feminine.  Men are supposed to be the protectors.  Anyway, that’s besides the point now.

I was just thinking.  It really sucks that you live in Huntsville and I live in Pittsburgh.  I mean, if we both lived close to each other, I’m sure we would be hanging out  a lot!  I’m sure we would have a lot of fun together!  It sucks because my two other good friends, Dana and Ingrid also live out of state.  Dana lives in Florida and Ingrid lives in Mass.  Lately, I’ve been hanging out a lot with Shelly.  And of course with Danielle too, when she’s not out with Brian.  Speaking of which …

I had yet another crying jag the other day.  Danielle and Brian went out for ice cream and his younger sister and her boyfriend went too.  I was just struck by this horrible lonliness.  I mean, here Danielle is, not only does she have a boyfriend now, but she’s also making new friends and here I am left in the cold.  My mom is so totally clueless.  I try not to cry in front of her because she has such a callaus attitude about it.  That day I was just aching so bad and while I tried to hide the fact that I was crying, I wanted her so bad to hug me and tell me that everything was going to be all right.  She just looks at me and says "what’s wrong with you?  Are you sick or something?"  I was so hurt and angry but I didn’t say anything.  I thought, ‘why even bother?’  Anne, I am so glad I have you to talk to about this.  I feel we truly understand each other!

I get these waves of emotions. One minute I’m ok and I think, ‘ok, so what if Danielle falls in love before me?  I might meet my future husband sooner than I think!’  then the other minute I think, ‘Ok, God, what are you doing here?  I want to fall in love NOW!  I can’t wait any longer!  I can’t take this anymore!’  Then I get angry at myself for being so selfish.  Why can’t i just be happy for my sister? 

That forward that I had sent you, but it didn’t go through was a picture of the towers after one of the planes hit it.  In the smoke it looks like theres a face in it.  It looks like the devil’s face!  I don’t know if it’s real or computer generated, but it really gives me the creeps!  I was sent a similiar picture, and I’ll try to forward that out.  Maybe that one will work.

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Hi again!  It is now Monday morning.  Last night Danielle and I saw Rush Hour 2.  It was pretty good.  There were a lot of halarious scenes in it.  After what happened last week, I really needed a good laugh!  Afterwards we went out to eat.  Hmmm …. do you think I maybe possibly could have met someone?  Of course not.  And so another day has passed and I have yet to meet my "soul mate"

Also, my friend e-mailed me.  Ingrid.  She’s the one who I’m planning on going to Ireland with.  She said that in light of what happened, maybe we should postpone our trip.  In a way I agree with her, but then again I just want to go to Ireland and make my dreams come true!  I am so hurt and angry about this.  I can’t believe that because of a bunch of fuc&*% people who decided to do this, I might not go to Ireland!  I might not have known anyone who died last Tuesday, but this might have killed my dream! 

I’m going to go now, Anne.  I’m about to cry and the words on the screen are very blurry.

take care,  God bless!

Michele

November 19, 2008

a - 05 september 2001

From: Anne
Sent: Wednesday, September 05, 2001 4:14 PM
Subject: Will work for Fig Newtons!

Hi, Michele!

Sounds like quite an ordeal trying to replace Kristen! Did you ever find out why she didn’t show up? And if she showed up the next day, was she fired?

Arnold stripping for you and me - what a lovely mental picture! I agree that although he doesn’t have washboard abs, he is pretty close to perfect. He is very manly and that is VERY good! As I said, he is ruining other men for me. Even Keanu, who is pretty fit in most of his movies and tall, which I really like. I think of him standing next to Arnold (that’s right - in his Mummy outfit) and I think, "Keanu who?"

That’s right, the preacher’s son is named John Inman, but believe me that he is in no way like the Mr. Humphries guy. I never mentioned Are You Being Served to him - although that would’ve been an interesting conversation starter.

Remember I told you a while back that my company here was expecting funding cuts? Well, yesterday they told our Business guy, Rocky, to only come in when they call him. In other words, I won’t look for him around here any time soon. They told me this morning that I shouldn’t worry about my job. Oh, I don’t. Maybe I will start working on an updated resume though.

In other news, I got angry at my mom and sis yesterday. I was eating supper and they were in the kitchen; we were all just hanging out. My sister was asking me about my day - I was chewing so I was giving short answers. Finally I start to launch into a (short) story and I see that my sister is talking quietly to my mother - that’s right while I’m talking. And what was so urgent as to require this rudeness? She was telling Mom where a fly had landed so Mom could swat it. I said, "never mind" and went back to chewing. I said very little to them for the rest of the day. Maybe that’s a little (okay a lot) childish on my part, but they should know that people not listening to me is my biggest pet peeve. Plus she had just asked about my day!

So last night before bed I was feeling lonely and crappy. This soon led to feelings of self-pity and a standard self-pity cry "I am so ugly that I will never find the One!" As I sit and think about it lately the odds of meeting and finding someone really great seem astronomical, and not in my favor I might add. I’ve had exactly the same thoughts as you about "taking matters into my own hands" - namely what if I mess it up? I also don’t really go anywhere to meet good guys (keepers, you could say). Should I go someplace new? Try some on-line service? Is it just not my time? If it isn’t my time, when will it be ?! If the Lord is testing my patience, I think I’m failing!

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TV -  Jennifer Slept Here
Movie -Batteries Not Included 
Song -Back to Good by Matchbox 20
CD - ?

funny moment- from Keeping Up Appearances. Hyacinth and Richard are at her sister’s very run-down place to visit Hyacinth’s dad. With a look of disdain at the place, Hyacinth says to Richard, "Poor Daddy. I hate for him to live here. I’d have him at home with us if he didn’t slop his cocoa."
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questions answered

how many rooms does your house have?- eleven.   den, foyer (does that count?), living room, dining room, kitchen, four bedrooms and two bathrooms.  Plus an attic.

when you brush your teeth, do you floss and use mouthwash as well- I floss when I brush my teeth in the evening - my dentist constantly nags me about flossing. Last time I actually received a little praise: "you’re doing a *little* better with the flossing." Thanks so much!

ever did anything or said anything embarrassing in front of one of your crushes?- I sang badly in front of John (and a room full of other people who weren’t my crushes.)

ever stumped on asking questions- definitely! I’ll only think of good ones when I can’t write them down and then of course I don’t remember them!
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New Questions

Feel like taking some time off from questions? sure . . . maybe we could stockpile some and ask them later . . .?

or maybe just one question . . . If you found out you were going to lose your job what would you do? Celebrate! Just kidding (?) - I would start looking again, but this time I’d really concentrate on finding something in my field of interest! I might take another part-time job in the meantime to meet expenses. (Let’s face it, the ***** one wouldn’t cover my gasoline bill!)
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That’s it for today. Talk to you soon! God bless!
Anne

"Do not let what you can’t do interfere with what you can." John Wooten (not sure of the name)

November 10, 2008

a - 30 august 2001

Filed under: from-anne, guys, work, family

From: Anne
Sent: Thursday, August 30, 2001 2:57 PM
Subject: Three day weekend? WOO HOO!

Hi, Michele!

I will be labor free on Labor Day. I also do not have to go to class. WOO HOO! Did you say you are working? Drag. My sister has to work too. Looking at the bright side (?) she said, "I would have been off if I was still suspended."

I also cannot believe that it is September! You mentioned Christmas Cards, last year I noted on my work calendar for Sept 1 to start looking at company Christmas presents. (It’s usually some cheesy/cheap something with our cheesy company logo on it.) When will the boss learn the magical phrase "gift certificate"? I suggested that last year when my first gift plan fell through. The boss said, a bit peeved, "The gift certificate … people just buy whatever they want …" Okay, why was she saying that like it is a bad thing?

I feel your pain on that Harry situation. I guess if we learn valuable lessons from our mistakes then they served a purpose. But why are men such … men? They claim that women play games well they do too! Don’t beat yourself up over what you should’ve done - I try to take that same advice but I know it can be difficult!

Speaking of men being … what they are, Sara has had a big crush on the manager at *****. (I may have mentioned it.) Apparently she took a picture of us to work yesterday and he told her that I’m "cute." Yechh! Considering the picture that he saw, I really think he is just trying to start something between Sara and me. What a mean thing to say to someone who likes you: "Oh, your brother (or sister, cousin, mother, father, great uncle, etc.) is cute." I mentioned that previous statement to Sara and she shouted, "I do not have a crush on him!" Whatever! I wish she hadn’t shown him that picture. I can see it already: she and I will be arguing in the near future and she’ll shout, "You’re the one all the guys want!" and storm off crying to her room, feeling bad about herself. And she absolutely shouldn’t feel bad because that jerk is a just that a JERK! He is the main reason I want her to find another job, soon!

I will try very hard to scan that pic of Darrell next week and send it. Man, do I miss him! Like in one of your questions though, it may be for the best that he’s gone on to bigger and better things.

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TV - Caroline in the City (love Bloopers!)
Movie - Who Framed Roger Rabbit? (love Grease)
Song - Bye Bye Bye by NSYNC (love the music from Grease)
CD -

funny moment - from Frasier - his ex-wife Lilith was back in town looking for reconciliation but Frasier, knowing no good could come from that asked Niles to keep her away from him during their evening out. It turns out that Niles and Lilith wind up in bed together at her hotel room. As they’re waking up, they’re both surprised and a bit panicky. Niles says, "Let’s just stay calm.  These things happen, they happen everyday… (he starts to panic again) everyday in Arkansas!" (The whole episode is great!)

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Questions answered

ok, say its two years from now and you haven’t met Mr. Right yet.  You see Ray again, after a long absense.  He has totally changed into a better person and he wants to give the relationship another chance- what would you do? I would also be very leery of getting back with him; so many times he promised me that he would change and "not ever take you for granted again" and the next day he would stand me up. Plus he’d still have the kids, the ex-wife, the emotional baggage … it was just so much with him!

here’s another what would you do question- what would you do if you and Darell were alone together and well, you know, he started kissing you?- I am just like you are with producer Bob, sometimes if I was ..er … hormonal when Darrell was here, I’d think of slinking into his office and getting scandalous! I used to think about some of the handsome and married managers at *****l like that too: what would I do if they had me in the office and started kissing me. Like you, it’s very good (praise the Lord) that I never had the opportunity to find out what I’d have done.

what was the nicest thing a man has said to you? At ***** (I’m going to start abbreviating that ***** like I used to do in my journal) one temporary weird manager asked me at one point on a busy evening "Where are you going?" I was, like, "Where am I ‘going’?" One fellow guy server volunteered, "She goes to UAH." Another fellow guy server said, "She’s going to heaven." This was at the time when I was having a lot of doubts about salvation, etc., so that was absolutely what I needed to hear!

do you like grilled cheese sandwiches?- love them! 

what is one thing you would like to see during your lifetime?- cures for cancer, AIDS, Alzheimer’s, etc.

(Yuck!) Did you ever throw up in school?- I did - but thank goodness I made it to the toilet just in time.

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New Questions

Do you like salsa? If so do you like mild or hot? love salsa - mild

Are there any commercials that you like? The York Peppermint Patty one where the old man is in his recliner saying he gets the sensation that he’s riding, " … the luge! Racing along at over 100 mph while the wind whips over my body!" While he’s saying that he leans the recliner back and does his interpretation of the luge. (I really hope I’m referring to that sporting event correctly and "luge" isn’t something else!)

Any computer games that you like? Spider Solitaire, Solitaire, FreeCell.

Have you and your sister ever had a crush on the same guy? not that I can think of.

Would you ever date a guy that you and your sister were both interested if he asked you out? I truly don’t think I would, even if I really liked him.

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That’s it for today. Talk to you tomorrow! God bless!
Anne

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