Chix Chat

Hi Anne!

Today was strangely surreal.  I don’t even know where to begin.  I guess I’ll start from the beginning.

Danielle and I were just about to leave to go to the mall when the phone rang.  Danielle answered it and said "It’s Shelly."  Shelly was at work.  I thought she was calling me to ask if I wanted to go to the movies with her tonight.  No, she asked me if I could come into work ASAP.  She said to me "You can’t believe what’s going on here.  I’m here by myself with Susan."  Btw, Susan is the Supervisor for all the ***** Shops.  Anyway Shelly continued, "Nora went home early she couldn’t take it."  COULDN’T TAKE WHAT?! My mind screamed.  Then Shelly said, "Ed, Mary, Audrey and Sue were all fired." !!  Anne, I almost dropped the phone!  Shelly didn’t know any details beyond that and as you can imagine my mind was racing trying to think what they could have done!  I mean, I can understand AUdrey but Sue?  Ed?  and especially Mary?!  I reluctantly agreed to come in.  When I got there Susan and I went in the back  and she told me what happened.  Apparenttly, Bob Ritter (who is like the head honcho) hired "secret shoppers" to come into the store and you know, check us out.  THey came in over the course of two weeks in the morning and at night.  Well, some of the people got bad results and that’s who got canned.  I cannot believe this!  I mean, I feel as if I had dodged a bullet.  THat God truly is watching over me, because it could have been any one of us, but at the same time I feel horrible for my co-workers.  ANd Nora!  My God, she must be sick about this!  But you know what?  I think it has to do more than the whole "secret shopper" bit.  I mean. why don’t just give out warnings?   ANd this happens right before holiday open house!  We’re short staffed as it is and now we lost four people?  I know the store is losing money.  I think eventually all of us are going to be fired and all new people are going to come in.  I don’t know what the logic in that is, but I just have a really wierd feeling about it.  To think, two weeks ago I was on the verge of losing my job and now I’m probably the one person Nora needs the most (the other people who are left after this "massacare" are Dolly, Wendy, Shelly, Kristin, and Cindy).  Something fishy is going on here.  I can feel it.  You know, part of me wishes that the store would just close down so i can just find another job.  Oh, I know how they would get rid of me- because I’m going away next week and taking your vacation during holiday season is a big no no.  oh well.  That store isn’t my life.  I might lose my job after all!

you’re welcome about Angel.  Remember, I’ll be away next week so I can’t tape it.  I would just set up my vcr to tape it, but I’m planning on taping the entire week of Days Of Our Lives episodes, and I don’t think Angel would fit on that tape too.  Sorry!

Maybe I will stick with Yahoo after all.  I am getting used to it.  I hate Outlook Express!  It always gives me problems!  It must like you more!

Nice dream you had about Keanu Reeves.  As far as him stealing money from your check book, who gives a sh*^?  I don’t know what that could mean symbolically.  Maybe it’s a connection to your comments to him.  Maybe it’s your subconcious warning you not to compliment a man unless he does it first, because he might steal your heart.  I don’t know. Just my stupid analysis

I wear jeans most of the time too.  First of all my shorts always seem to ride up my butt!  And no, I don’t wear short shorts!  ALso my legs are pale also.  I don’t have the time or patience to go tanning.  I tried that sunless tanner lotion once and I ended up all orange and streaky!  I’m packing a few pairs of jeans and a few pairs of shorts.  I hope it’s cool enough to wear jeans!

Thank you for easing my mind about flying.  And I cannot thank you enough for your prayers.  I really do feel you praying for me!  I’m sure other people are praying that we have a safe flight as well.

Well, it’s getting late and I have to go to work early tomorrow.  THat is if I still have a job! (lol)

see you later!  Take care and GOd bless!

God bless the USA!

Michele

 Hi Anne!

Well, I taped Angel for you!  I tried to get the picture as best as I could.  It didn’t turn out too bad.  I will hold it for you, as you requested.  You didn’t have to send the postage out to me, but thank you anyway.

I laughed when you mentioned Nora putting down the crack pipe.  Now that’s all I can think about!  Once again last night I worked my ass off!  We had to take a whole card section down because we’re starting to put out our Christmas merchandise (gosh, so soon?).  I was sweating like a pig by the time everything was finished!  People get on my nerves so bad sometimes.  I mean, here I was, struggling with this big, heavy shelf, trying to put it up and trying to concentrate and everything and this lady walks up to me and goes "Where are your get well cards" (or whatever she asked me).  I wanted to say to her, "Hello?!  Can you not see that I’m a little busy here at the moment?  Why don’t you ask Cindy or Sue or why don’t you just try to find what you’re looking for yourself?  I mean, the store isn’t that freaking big!"  Of course I didn’t say that.  I just pointed to where she needed to go and grunted an answer.

I have a question for you.  Danielle and I were discussing this yesterday.  Ok, put your thinking  cap on.  Ok, say you live like in Alaska or somewhere that it gets really cold in the winter.  ANd you’re going on vacation to say Hawaii.  Ok, say the the day you leave for your trip it’s like 10 below zero where you live and it’s like in the nineties in Hawaii. So how do you dress.  I mean, you need to dress warm when you go to the airport but once you get to Hawaii, you’re going to be sweating your buns off!  Danielle suggested that someone would just wear their "Hawaii" clothes under their "Alaska" clothes and when they get to the airport, they just run into the bathroom and whip off their "ALaska" clothes and give it to the person who drove them to the airport.  That sounds like a pretty good solution.  ANy more ideas?

We’ve never really had that problem when we went to Disneyworld.  Last time I went I wore a short sleeved shirt and jeans and a long sleved jean shirt over the short sleeved shirt.  When we got to Fla, I just took the long sleeved shirt off and tied it around my waist.

Speaking of Fla, Did you hear on the news or something that there MIGHT be annother terrorist attack sometime over the next week?  Anne. I am VERY SCARED about this!  Please say a double prayer about our flight!  I mean, part of me is really calm, feeling God’s reassurance, and the other part of me is just freaking out!  And So many people I know have been flying these past few weeks and everything went okay, so why shouldn’t it be okay for me and Danielle?  As I keep thinking about September 11th, I angerily wonder "Why the FU*@ did that have to happen!"

I just got Jeff Foxworthy’s latest concert album- "Big Funny."  I love him.  He’s halarious!  Do you have any of his albums?

Well, I got to get going now.  Danielle and I are both off work today, and we’re off to the mall to get some last minute Disney things.  I haven’t even packed yet!  Yikes!!

see you soon.  Take care and God bless!

God bless the USA!

Michele

Hi Anne!

I don’t know if I like this yahoo mail so much. I might just get another hotmail account and use the same name, *****. Yes, I know I’m driving you crazy!! I’m just so used to hotmail and I’m not very good with change. What do you think I should do?

The CLD continues! Brian came over here a little bit tonight. I just felt so … well, left out. That’s the only way I can describe how I was feeling. THen my dad will unknowingly say things that really hurt me. For example- Brian bought danielle yet another stuffed animal ( our house looks like a toy store!) and my dad commented, "He better start saving his money for a wedding." I know my dad doesn’t mean to hurt me, but whenever he says things like that, it’s just a painful reminder that I don’t have anyone. I think according to my dad, I’m perfectly content with being single, and believe me, IM NOT! I mean, just because I’m a content person, it doesn’t mean I don’t long to find my soul mate and get married!

I get zits on my chin too right before my period! And I always get one right between my eyes too.

Okay, so I’ll tape Angel and I’ll send it out to you the next day. I’ll have to run out to the store before Monday and buy a blank tape. Or maybe I have one lying around here. I’m going to be pretty busy next week, getting ready for the trip. OUr flight is six am Saturday morning, which means we have to be there extra extra early! Yikes! A whole week of not e-mailing each other?! Well, if you still want to write to me every day, you can. You can just send short, one paragraph e-mails!

You should have said "you suck" in those e-mails you sent to that tapes site. The noive of them! XD

I chuckled at your "Angel acting like Ray" dream. Perish the thought! You probably wanted to find Ray afterwards and shake him and shout, "Stay away from my dreams, scumbag!!!" I can just see the question mark above his head and the puzzled look on his face!

It was another good day at work for me, Thank God. Nora said to me, "You’ve been doing so much better, Michele." Now mind you this is only one week since the "incident" and frankly, I’m just doing my job like I always do. I think that might have been Nora’s way of apologizing to me. I know some people can’t just come out and say "I’m sorry" (it’s difficult for me to sometimes!). If that was her way of apologizing, then I accept. But believe me, if if happen again, this time I’ll be ready!

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Hi again!

It is now Saturday morning. I have to go to work at 2. After work me, Shelly and Kristin (and maybe Danielle) are going to the movies (AGAIN?!). We’re either going to see From Hell or Thirteen Ghosts. Either one I’m still going to sleep with the lights on tonight!

I can’t believe a week from now I’ll be in Disneyworld. There is so much I need to do. Knowing me, I’ll wait till the last minute! I’m not too worried if I forget something. I mean it’s not like I’m going to another planet. There are stores down in Floridia that sell basically everything I need. I think the most important thing to pack is a lot of extra clean underwear. And believe me, I have enough bra and panty sets that I can open my own lingere store

Oh yeah, I forgot one more movie when I was giving you that list: Don’t Say A Word=

So that’s what, eighteen movies I’ve seen this year? and it’s only October. That’s about an average of two movies a month. It just seems like I’ve been to the movies a lot more than that.

How’s the weather there? It is fuc*$#@ freezing here!! I can’t believe that not even three days ago it was warm enough that I wore a short sleeved shirt, and last night I wore my winter pj’s! I dont like it when it’s too hot, but I don’t like it when it’s too cold, either. And this isn’t even cold cold yet. BBBRRRRRR!!!!!

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Hi once again! It is now Sunday. I got my period! Hooray!!! Normally I wouldn’t be so estatic to have my period, but I know I’m be safe for my trip. WHEW! Now all I have to worry about is having a safe flight!

Well, Shelly and I did see Thirteen Ghosts last night. It was VERY WIERD! Yes, I slept with the lights on last night! I don’t know why I torture myself like that. I still say The Exorcist is the scariest movie of all time.

Audrey screwed up on the registers again today! She just really gets on my nerves. I mean, first of all she’s ALWAYS smiling! You know, like "Love that Joker?" What’s up with that? and it also gets on my nerves the way she says "oh my gosh". She says it like Goofy "Oh my gorsh!" I just want to slap her when she says it, and she says it all the time. THen while Shelly and I were trying to fix Audrey’s mistakes, Audrey acts all innocent, like she wasn’t the one who made them! I just wish Nora would let her go! FYI- I had to call Nora last night and then this morning because I was having trouble closing out one of the credit card machines and she acted fine with me. Another WHEW! to add to the list.

Oh! My rating for 13 Ghosts is .

I don’t think I’ll be able to make it to the movies again until after I get home from Floridia. THen I’ll have a ton I want to see!

I was meaning to ask you, do you belong to the Crossings book club? It’s a christian book club. I belong to it and I really like it. I think their website is www.crossings.com Check it out sometime.

well, that’s it for now! I hope you had a good weekend. Til next time take care and God bless!

GOD BLESS THE USA!

Hi Anne!

I’m still trying to get used to this yahoo account.  Yes, it’s me!  Moi!  It is I!  I was having a crappy day.  Well, a CLD.  I’m thinking "I’m Fat!  I’m Lonely!  What have I accomplished in my life?"  Blah blah blah.  Don’t mind me.  I get like this sometimes.  I know I should be grateful for all my blessings, but sometimes, I don’t wanna!  I think I’m due for my period.  I just hope I get it before my trip.  Then again, the most important thing is that we have a safe flight.

Sounds like you had a pretty rough two days.  My sympathies.    You know, if I won the lottery, the first thing I would do is quit my job!  People would say to me, "Wouldn’t you get bored just sitting around the house all day?"  And I’d say "NO!"  That’s why I want to marry a rich man so I can stay home and be a housewife and take care of our kids (whenever we have any)

Yes, it seems like it was The Twilight Zone *****.  Nora hasn’t mentioned the e-mail that I sent her.  I’m hoping that she did read it, since she’s acting ok with me and all.  Thanks for keeping this situation in my prayers.

Heres a link for info about the movie Joyride: http://www.focusonthefamily.org/pplace/pi/films/a0017971.html   Its from the focus on the family website.  Like I said it was a really good movie.

yes, I too often wondered how a nice guy could have such a bitch for a girlfriend.  One of these days I’m just going to ask them, "Excuse me, I’m just wondering why in the world a friendly, sweet man like you has such a bitch for a girlfriend?"  Yeah, and watch my ass get kicked!

I like these new emotions!  Lets see what would I use when I’m thinking about Arnold Vosloo?     (Lol)

Ok, so I’ll tape Angel next week.  I’m going to miss the week after, though, but when I come back, I’ll tape the week after. How many episodes should I tape before I mail the tape out to you?  Just remind me the day before it’s on.  I think its on Mondays, right?  Well, its on Mondays here in Pittsburgh.

If I were you I’d give that network what for!!  The noive of them!!

just for fun, and also since I really can’t think of anything else to say right now, heres a list of all the movies I’ve seen this year and my ratinngs for them:

Notice how I didn’t use the  rating for any of the movies?  I just don’t want to think that I’ve wasted my money on any of them!

Well, I guess that’s all for now.  Til next time, take care and God bless!

God Bless The USA!

Michele

Hi Anne!

You know, I could feel your prayers when I walked into work today.  Danielle was praying for me as well.  And I like to think my future husband was too (although he wouldn’t known specifically why).  Nora was fine with me.  It was almost as if Friday never happened.  She asked me to go to the bank to do the deposit and I did (I’m the one who usually does- I do the least amount of work-HA!) and she thanked me.  Before she left she told me to have a nice day and I returned it.  Wierd, huh?  Well, it was me Kristin and Shelly again tonight and we didn’t have anything to price, but Nora told us to dust and we went over the store with a fine-toothed comb!  Danielle drove me to work and I said to her, "I wish Anne was here right now!"  I’m sure you would have walked in with me for moral support.  ANd once again I have to point out how much it totally sucks that we don’t live close to each other!

I did mention to my mom that I was thinking about trying to get a job at the bank in a few months.  When she asked why I just replied that I needed a change.  I think God will give me some kind of sign when the time is right.  I think what happened on Friday was God’s way of preparing me.  I’m honestly not scared to move on.  In every situation I’m in, I always ask myself "What’s the worst that could happen?"  That way I don’t freak out so much.

Forgive my language, but that Joewiel sounds like a total prick!  And usually guy bosses are so much eaiser to get along with than girl bosses.  They’re not as catty and irritable.  Was he much older than you?  That’s another thing that makes me see red.  A "boss" who is only a few years older than me, and looks down at me.  When I worked at *****, Dana was one of the office managers (this was before I became one) and she was only about three years older than me and she tried to act all high and mighty.  Of course I was too quiet then to fight back.  Now I would be like, "Whatever".  Then Jeff was one of the floor managers.  He was about my age (about 21 at the time) and he was married with two kids.  Anyway, he and Monica (another office manager she was in her late 30’s at the time) were talking about his kids.  Well, I was standing right there and I just asked nicely "How old are your kids. Jeff?"  Jeff turns to me and looks at me like "Excuse me, child, but you just inturrupted an important, adult conversation," and he says really snottily, "Two and six months" (or whatever he said).  And I was thinking to myself, "Fuc*^% ass#@!(!!"  Its like HELLO?!  I am not a child!  Why does society think you’re an "adult" if you’re married and/or have kids?  Meanwhile Jeff had to get married because he knocked up his girlfriend (and she was only 16 at the time!)  Yeah, I call that a mature, responsible adult!

See, now I’m thinking at how they treated me like a child at ***** and I’m starting to get mad!!  Well, maybe this is good in a way, it’s keeping my mind off the current situation.

Oh!  Another time that made me pissed.  Ok, first of all, why do people assume that just because you’re a virgin, you know nothing about sex?  That you’re completely innocent and naive?  This story involves me, Monica (manager),  Dotty (real name Dorothy.  She worked back in the deli and she was in her 40’s at the time) and Missy (cashier who was in her early 20’s at the time).  FYI I was about 25 or so.  Okay, Dotty was standing by the office, talking to Monica and Missy and I walked over to the office the same time.  I think she was getting change and I was getting a phone card for a customer.  Well, whatever Monica and Dotty were talking about, they hushed up as soon as Missy and I walked over.  Then Monica said something like, "Well, Missy’s probably been there and done that"  Missy was a wild girl, to say the least.  She drank, smoked and I know she lost her virginity when whe was about sixteen or so.  Anyway, I got the phone card and walked away, but Missy stood there and Monica and Dotty started talking again.  I don’t know if it was what they were talking about before or maybe they started a new conversation, but I took "been there and done that " as something referring to sex.  So of course they would have continued with Melissa around because they didn’t want to damage my virginal ears.  OOOHHH!!!  That made me so mad!!  I wanted to say, "Hey!  Just because I haven’t had 20 dic&% shoved up me, doesn’t mean I don’t know anything about sex!"  Then a few times Monica said to me regarding Chaz: "He’s way over your head."  Excuse me?!  I know he drinks!  I know he messes around with girls!  There is nothing anyone could say about him that would shock me!  Why do people just assume I’m this innocent, wide eyed child who lives in her own little world?  Ok, maybe I do sometimes, but I can face reality just like anyone else!

side note- Missy has a kid now.  A boy, I think. I don’t think she married the father.  She was always friendly with me, but she was your typical "white trailer trash".  I know it isn’t right to judge, but that’s the only way to describe her.

and lets just say that she did marry the baby’s father.  Compare her wedding night  with mine  !

Anne, I’m going to end this letter now.  It’s raining and I’m afraid the power will go out!  And I don’t feel like retyping this letter!!
OH!  I’m glad everything went well with your bosses daughter!  New babies are always so exciting!
 
catch ya later!  Take care and God bless!
 
Michele

Before I begin, could you stop what you’re doing right now and please say a prayer that Nora will act okay with me today?  I have to go into work at 1 and I don’t know how she is going to act with me.  I know I’m in the right, still I can’t help from worrying!

I’m still trying to understand what happened.  Do you know what really makes me upset and angry?  She must have some kind of sick twisted power trip doing that to me.  You know those kind of people who let other people push them around so they get thier power by pushing around people who are weaker than them?  That’s Nora.  God, I feel so terrible writing this, but I’m just so hurt and angry.  That would be like you e-mailing me and saying "I don’t want to be your friend anymore.  You’re a jerk, Michele."  Or if I said something like that to you.  You would probably be flabbergasted, hurt and angry.  Well, that’s how I feel.  I know one thing, if Nora brings it up again, this time I will defend myself.  What’s the worst that can happen?  I lose my job?  Well, big deal!  I’m sure God doesn’t want me to take any kind of abuse from anyone!

I know my time there is limited.  Not even because of that.  I’ve been toying with the idea of leaving for several months now.  Lets just say that I’m overworked and underpaid.  About trying to get a job at the bank, do you know anyone who’s ever worked at one?  If you do, do you know exactly what being a teller entails?  I just would like some info because as you know, "knowing is half the battle."  I have a plan.  To make it look like I’m leaving on good terms, so it doesn’t look like I was "driven" out.  I want to get back on Nora’s good graces, and make her see that I’m one of the best employess she’s ever had!  And then I’ll quit.  I’m serious!  I need to move on.  I was stuck at ***** for five years because I was so afraid to move on.  I’m not going to make the same mistake at *****.

When I was thinking of Imhotep making all hell break loose, I was thinking of him in his oh-so-sexy human form.  Sure, it’s not as scary as his decayed, decrepit form, but it’s a bonus treat for me.  I imagine him lifting his hand and Nora rising to the ceiling, freaking out and he demands, "Now, apologize to Michele"  Nora chokes out "I’m sorry Michele!  I didn’t know what I was saying!  You are the best employee this store has ever had."  I smile wickedly and say, "And you’re going to give me a ten dollar raise, right?"  "Y…yes, ten dollars!" "And give me every other weekend off, right?"  Nora pauses but when she meets Imhotep’s evil glare she nodds and says "Yes, you can have every other weekend off!"  With that, Imhotep lowers his arm and Nora crashes to the ground, panting and crying.  Imhotep turns to me and we kiss passionately.  I turn to Nora and sweetly say, "I’m taking the day off.  Of course I’ll get paid for it."  Imhotep and I walk out to find a place to be alone and ….. well, what would you do if you were alone with Imhotep? (wicked grin)

Am I such a terrible person to be thinking such things?  I mean, here I am a Christian.  I’m supposed to be loving and kind and forgiving but I can’t help but think these little "revenge" fantasies when I think about the people who have hurt me, Nora being the most recent.  I’m truly hoping that tomorrow Nora will apologize saying that she was too hard on me.  I’m not holding my breath, though.  And besides, the damage is already done.

I started crying tonight and I wrote in my prayer journal and I also wrote in my journal to my future husband, I just kept on writing over and over "Where are you?  I really need you right now!  Pray for me!  I’m going through such a tough time right now!"

I haven’t told my parents about this.  I don’t know why but I haven’t.  I don’t think they need to know.  I know they would most likely (especially my mom) want to march right over to the store and give Nora what for and I don’t need that.  I need to fight my own battles. However if my boyfriend or husband came to my defense, that would be a different story all together!

Thank God about how you act around the guys you have crushes on.  I thought I was the only one!  Anne, sometimes I feel like such a freak for my lack of expirence with the opposite sex!  I mean, in my fantasies I’m this great expirenced lover, but In real life I’m this stuttering, bulshing idiot!  You know how unnatural it is for twelve year olds to go out and get pregnant?  Well sometimes I feel that being twenty eight and never been kissed is just as unatural.  These are times when I really need my future husband’s prayers.  I need to know that saving everything I have for one man isn’t just a waste of time!

Danielle and I saw the movie Riding In Cars With Boys tonight.  It was pretty good.  I tried to concentrate on the movie but I just have so much on my mind right now (gee, can you guess what?) I was only half interested.  Thank God we werein a dark, nearly empty theatre because I started crying, as quietly as I could, so as to not to draw attention to myself.  Damn her for doing this to me!  And Damn me for letting her get to me!

Parisian sounds like our Kaufmanns and Lazuraus department stores.  I haven’t been in a store like that for awhile.  I usually go to the cheapo places or order my clothes by mail.  I really like BLAIR because their medium sizes are 12-14 which is perfect for me.  Usually the size is 10-12, which is too small or 14-16 which is too big!  I feel like Goldilocks trying out the Three Bears beds before finding the one that’s "just right!"

Well, on that note I’ll say goodbye for now.  Til next time, take care and God bless!  God bless the USA!

PRAY FOR ME!!

Michele

Hi Anne!

Should I start with the good news or the bad news.  Well, I’ll get the yucky stuff out of the way first.  You know, like swallowing a spoonful of nasty tasting cough medicne really fast.

Friday morning when I came into work, Nora said to me, "Will you come in the back?  I need to talk to you."  So I did, completely oblivious to what was about to happen.  Now, since this happened two days ago, I can’t remember exactly word for word what was said so I’ll try my best.  Nora said that she was still upset over what happened Tuesday (you know how I didn’t get finished with the ornaments and Kristin and Shelly only priced the Glass Baron ….) and she said to me "You couldn’t have worked on those ornaments for more than half an hour."  I said, "I worked on them until at least 7" (which was about three hours) and Nora said, "No you didn’t."  Anne, I don’t know about you, but when I know I’m right about something and someone argues with me about it, I get so upset I can barely speak!  Well, that’s what happened.  I just started crying and once I start, I can’t stop!  Oh, wait, the fun doesn’t stop there!  Then she proceeded to tell me how I do the least amount of work  out of everyone there!  Well, with the exception of Wendy.  She said, "Even Audrey does more work than you."  Let me tell you about Audrey.  She’s been there for at least two months and she still doesn’t know what the hell she’s doing on the registers!  Our figures have been off for the longest time because of her!  So here I am crying and weakly saying, "Yes, I do do my work!"  And Nora says, "No you don’t.  Look at how hard everyone else works.  ANd it isn’t fair that they have to do all the work.  Look at Mary.  Look at how much she gets done."  Well, Mary is Nora’s "pet" and whatever she does is gold in Nora’s eyes.  Anne, I BUST MY ASS there!  You don’t know how many times I’ve nearly made myself sick worrying about that stupid store and getting things done!  ANd the final insult to injury, Nora wrote me up and told me "If you’re not going to do your work, I’m going to have to find someone else who will."  I can’t believe I came thisclose to losing my job!  I mean, what the fu*$?!  It took everything I could not to grab my purse and walk right out of there and never come back!  And why the piss did she do that to me ten minutes before the store opened?  Did she really think I would want to deal with customers then?  It took awhile for me to calm down.  It just got to the point that I was so exhausted from crying and my body had enough. Needless to say, I didn’t talk to Nora much for the rest of the day.  I just talked to her when I had to, when it was work related.  I didn’t "chat" with her like I usually do.  When I got home, I bravely wrote her an e-mail.  I saved it.  I’ll send it to you so you can read what I wrote.  I haven’t seen her yet since I wrote it. I will on Tuesday.  I’m a little nervous, but I dont think I said anything wrong!

Frankly, Anne, maybe this is a blessing in disguise.  Maybe this is God’s way of telling me that it’s time to move on.  Not now, I would like to work out the year, but I honestly don’t see myself there this time next year.  I’ve thought a few times about trying to get a job at the bank.  I’m pretty good with money and it just seems like a nice change of pace from retail.  I’m still trying to understand what happened on Friday.  I’m not only angry at Nora, I’m also angry at myself for not defending myself.  For blubbering like an idiot!  It’s just that when I’m put on the spot like that, I can’t think of anything to say!  Oh, I can think of a comeback …. two days later!

I told some of my co-workers about it: Shelly, Kristin, and Ed and they were all flabbergasted.  Ed said, "Well, for what it’s worth, I think you’re doing an excellent job."  And Kristin said, "She doesn’t know what she’s talking about."   Shelly said, "You do more work than most of the people here!" I feel a lot better.  Nora was in the wrong.  When I told Ed and Kristin about it (that’s who I worked with today) they both said that Nora was clearly not herself and that’s true.  Nora usually isn’t like that.  Ed said that maybe it’s the fact that she has all those physical problems and she’s more irrritable than usual.  Well, I’m sorry that Nora is sick, but she had no right to take it out on me!  I will try to forgive and forget this, but if it happens again, I will quit sooner than later.  I am not someone’s punching bag.

Anne, will you say a prayer for me reguarding this situation?  I would really appreciate it!

YES, DISNEYWORLD IS LOOKING BETTER AND BETTER!!!

Hi Anne!

Well, it’s been day two of being stressed out.  It was me and Mary until Nora got there at one.  So here I am, busting my hump trying to get everything done before Nora got there and wouldn’t you know it we were busy!  I was just so fuc*%$# annoyed!  Nora acted ok with me, but I could just feel that "bad vibe" between us today.  Who knows, maybe it’s me.  Another thing that annoys me sometimes is that Mary is really tight with Nora, so in Nora’s eyes Mary can "do no wrong."  I really wish Nora would stop pointing out everything I do wrong and commend me on the things I do right!

Please don’t think I resent my co-workers.  I like both Nora and Mary and 95% of the time I don’t have a problem with either one of them.  It’s like your relationship with Sara or me with Danielle.  There are times when Dani can really get on my nerves and I just want to slap her!  But we’re soon fine with each other.  I know when I go to work tomorrow Nora will be fine with me.  She was fine with me today, I was just getting all freaked out!

What a nice way to start my letter, huh?  I am so glad I have you to talk to.  Once again, I feel that God guided us to each other.  Now, if only He could do that with our future husbands …!

The weather here is progressively getting colder.  I held out until the bitter end about wearing a jacket.  Well, I finally did this past week.  When I need to wear a jacket, then you know it’s cold!

One more thing about the whole Nora situation (and I’ll shut up about it, I promise).  Maybe in a way this is good that this happened.  Well, that  and the fact that every person was getting on my last nerves today.  I’ve been so nervous about flying to Floridia these past several weeks, and today I thought for the first time in awhile, "I can’t wait to get away from this place for a whole week and just relax and have fun!"  I’m hoping by the time my trip comes, I won’t even think about being afraid!

So it’s two for two for Arnold Vosloo bald.  I’ve seen him bald, with hair, with a moustache and with blonde hair and any way you look at him he is beautiful!  Ok, since you saw the Mummy Returns (more than once I hope!), you know the scene where he’s out on the balcony with Meela and he’s still that disgusting corpse and he leans in to kiss her and they both "morph" into themselves in Egyptian times and he is now in his human form?  I think it’s the first time in the movie where you actually see AV. Well when Danielle and I saw it in the movie theatre for the first time, I actually gave out this orgasmic gasp.  I couldn’t help it!  I mean when I see that man, my body just reacts!

Have you ever done inventory at a ***** store?  What is the biggest store you had to inventory?

ANother question about baldness- do you perfer slick, clean shaven heads (like AV in the Mummy) or hair on the sides (like Mitch Pileggi).  I lean more towards the former.  Yes, I know I’m strange!

Since you spoke of having a crush on your professor that prompted me to ask this,  Is there anyone in any of your classes with any potenital?  What about that "cute ponytailed guy" you mentioned several e-mails ago?  How old is DR. Tutanji?  What does he look like?  You have a picture of him you can send me?  Yes, I’m very nosy!

You know we can kid around about "what if Arnold Vosloo was my professor " and all, but in a way it’s scary.  I mean, I know I am going to be incredibly turned on by my future husband and I can’t see me passing any tests God might give me unless my future husband is as strong in his convictions as I am.  That’s why we must make conscious choices reguarding our physical relationship.  Things like "we will not be alone anywhere"  and limiting any physical activity to hand holding, side hugs and kisses on the cheek.  I mean, that would be like this big bowl of the most scrumptous, red, plump strawberries right in front of me and  I’m so hungry and I’m dying for one.  But there’s a sign that warns "Do not eat unless you place $1 in the bowl next to it".  Well, I’m gonna eat the damn strawberry, regardless of whether I have the stupid $1 or not.  It’s just too tempting!  I hope you understand what I’m trying to say here!  The strawberries are like making love and the $1 is like marraige.  SO I want to make sure I want to stay as far away from those "strawberries" as possible before I have that $1 to pay for them!  So how can my future husband and I "eat strawberries" if we’re never alone together or if we haven’t kissed passionately?

I was thinking about getting dressed up for Halloween.  Tell me what you think of this.  I have this really pretty green dress.  It almost looks medieval looking.  I was thinking about wearing that, green nailpolish, green lipstick, and really heavy green eyeshadow and spraying my hair with green glitter.  I don’t know what exactly I would be maybe some kind of celtic faire priness or something like that.  You think that sounds corny?  I don’t know if I have the guts to do it though.  Knowing me, I’ll probably chicken out and then I’ll regret it.  Yes, we do get trick or treaters at Hallmark.  We do give out candy.  My neighborhood usually gets bombarded with trick or treaters.  I hope it will be a good turnout this year.  You know with all those anthrax scares and everything.  I just wish these kids can enjoy Halloween and not worry about anything!  When I worked at ***** it seemed that the day after Halloween was when all the kids were in the store and bought candy.  I remember I looked perplexed as one lad all of eight or nine plunked down his several candy bars  at my counter so I asked him, "why are you buying candy today when last night you must of gotten enough free candy to last you for months?"  He looked at me and said with all seriousness, " You can never have too much candy!"  Hmmm … wise words from such a young mind.  To be that young and carefree again!  ONe halloween I worked and one of my coworkers brought her change purse with her and said to anyone in coustume who came in the store, "I’ll give you a dime if you give me a piece of your candy."  She had enough at the end of the night that she was able to share with her fellow co-workers.  I got a reeses peanut butter cup and a tootsie roll out of the deal.  Sweet!